Forever love,
:)

when i look at the picture above, i wanted to scream. (!!!) compare my skin colour with Qilah's.
goodness,look at the huge,FAT,major difference! okay,maybe i'm not THAT dark, its just that this friend of mine is too fair. you know why? because since she's 3years old,she keeps telling herself that she wanna be Snow White. Thats why she's so fair skin ;)
(HAHA.im goinna get a hard smack from her if she reads tht ^^ )

im starting to worry now. bit by bit. he said he'll be leaving at 3pm but up till now i still have yet to receive any text or call frm him. Idk why am i being a lil too paranoid over this but somehow i dont have a very good feeling right now. my stomach kind of spinning slowly and my heart's just doesnt feel good. okay,whatever -.-

please tell me everything's goinna be fine. please.

you get the best of both worrrrrrrlds ~!
heh.hello you awesomerrs^^

currently @aqilah's crib together with yan. what a pity,dee cant join us ;(
match just now, score draw 3-3 against meridian jc.
movie marathoning right now > Princess Protection Programme > Hannah Montana the Movie. next, well im nt quite shure.

okayy peeepos,later ok. ;]

AHHHHHH.SHIDDIQ COMING HME TONIGHTTTTTT ;DDDDD

Why didnt i record those fantastic moments ? hmm.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh,thank you so much for calling again love ! goodness,i cant wait fr you to come back soon. And i reaally hope we can meet tomorrow,please? :'(
sayang awakk..

i was reading my last year chatlogs with asshiddiq. haaa! so many cute memories i must say. here's one , i told him that he's not the sweetest boyfriend material.
I guess im wrong. because he's indeed the sweetest thing ever :)

laughs. its amazing how our little friendship grows and now we're more like sisters than close friends. remember the fights we used to have almost every month? we were not mature back then. fights over boys and talking bad behind each other. and remember when all four of us got admitted to different schools ? we thought thats it. we're goinna have a hard time catching up with each other. but look, we're still close as ever evetho all of us seldom meet. Thank you girls for being the true ones for me. I still remember the time when faisal asked me for a break up and i was in the toilet -______- i texted all of you about it and all of you replied at the same time. hah! cute times. its like in the movies ya'know. like Bratz :D right now,im really missing you girls very much. Aqilah is a busy young lady right now. She's got meetings and stuffs to handle. Diyana is busy babysitting and doing house chores. Dee cant meet us that often and me? the one who always have something on when all you girls are free. Hehh :B

my room's in a complete mess. like totally. clothes hanging eveywhere, bags and books on the bed, and study table flooded with stuffs that are not needed there. like what you may ask, like pads and shoebag and plastic bags -_______- i told myself that i will clean up my room as a form of DISTRACTION so i wont be mising Shiddiq that bad. in the end, im just not motivated to clean it up. i rather lie down on the couch and watch lame stuffs just to make me laugh.

he called yesterday and yes of course im too happy to say anything. we didnt get to talk for long tho but yeah thnk you so much for calling love :') ahhhhhh,four days feels like weeks ya'know!!well,thats what happen when you're so madly in love with someone. when you're so mad at them, you dont even care if you're not meeting them. True ? hah.

my cramps really bugs me alot. ALOT. and i cant even stand up or sit up straight. i dont know if these are menstrual cramps or not. you know,its so irritating because sometimes i feel like shitting but sometimes its just thee menstrual cramps and sometimes it feels like you're havin gastric. sheepzx !

im really craving for chocolates. and caramel ! but what i want the most is to meet that silly lover of mine asap. :(

Im capable of smiling now. Thank you so much suckero for texting me!! I felt whole lot better i swear :') thank you so much woman . And dont worry, school wil reopen soon and yesaaa we'll be eating recess food and gosh we're goinna be the SENIORS of SIGLAP. huahua. and i cant bloody wait to stress myself and sit for O's and get out from Siglap ^^

Asshiddiq,Asshiddiqqqqqqqq . thank you so much for texting ,really. I miss you too and pleaseeee come hme soon ok ? You know,yesterday i was noobing and when its almost ten i was gettin ready to shut down and waiting for you to call me. Then i remembered , you were away :(
so baby pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,cme home quick you dickhead. !!!!!

im working tmr and im so so so freaking lazy ya'know . i wanna sleep until 2-3pm but i gotta work. i dont even need the money yet but idk why i still wanna work. i thought wanna sleep until 2-3pm tmr but on monday there' match. sobs.

OMOMG. MONDAY!!!come quickkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

if you ever goinna holiday again, make sure i give you a tight slap first okay ?!
i love you :)

Im so lost. Sometimes i feel like its better if i dont have any friends at all. Or maybe its me. yeah.
but its just so fucking unfair that i have to take care of all your feelings when you just dont fucking care about mine. Like what ? Like ALWAYS leaving me home alone at home and start blaming me ALONE for the things that went wrong at home. come on ah, why must i be the only one who gets the blame? bullshit.

And to you! oh fuck why am i having a not good feeling between us. i wanted to talk to you but i thought it'll be good if i just drop that matter since you need distractions kan. yeah.
ahhh bloody fuck . now my own friend doesnt want to talk to me about stuffs.

fuck fuck. im a screwed up kid.

Hanis, text me pls. I want to but yeah. Nvm.

and shiddiq,thnks for the text. i miss you fucking much more. i swear.

Forgve me if I fail to cmfort you this time around. I wasnt in a good state yesterday and im just too scared to say anything. Your feelings are indeed very extra fragile right now and i'm afraid if my words will hurt you even more. Your reply was somehw cold so i decided to leave you alone. I dont know how to tell you i do care bt please understand if i wasnt there for you, im really not okay. And never forget i love you always.

thank you so much Diyana & Aqilah for cmforting me yestd. :]

ive got nothin better to do so i put that counter. mind you, i dont play cheat. i start at zero. hahaha

Ahhhh,akak rindu shiddiq :(/
Kakak asal nampak couple jer mest ckp gituk


Yea,my brother is so right.

even if its not a day, im already missing you like crazy. and i regretted fr being such a sucker yesteray when we were on the phone. dont worry, i will find the old me back dear. im sorry for being so freaking unreasonable and always cursing like mad. I seriously need ANGER MANAGEMENT and some PATIENCE. goodness,its really hard for me. i dont know why. actually I do. I think because i'm too far away from God,thats why i am always cursing like a stupid evil moron.

well, four days is not really that long right ? Yea. Right.
sighs.

Lets just post about something else eh rather than me complaining and keep saying that i miss him. Watched Avatar yesterday and its really exciting to watch. I wasnt really concentrating at first cause im super sleeeeeeeeeepy -_____- but the sound effects woke me up. I think if im goina watch it at home,it will not be THAT exciting laa unless you blast the volume to max. But overall,its a good movie. Worth the money. [:

Next movie will be Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 ^^ so cuute laa them . Hah.

okay like seriously,ive got nothing else to post. tsk.

i miss you laaaaaaaa Asshiddiq :'(

So i guess right now i hafta start thinking of stuffs to do while boyf is away. sheepz,im goinna miss you like crazy again. tsk.

because every moment with you is beautiful.

Iloveyou^^.

Never in my whole entire life I said this, but today I will.

TODAY IS A PERFECT DAY FO ME. ^^

and yes, i'll be dreaming of you tonight. :)

I dont think its a cool thing to keep remembering about the past. I guess i'm really not the fogive and forget kind of girl. But somehow its killing me that i keep digging your past eventho it will hurt me bad. And i am so so so mad at myself for still wanting to know about your past. I hate the fact that we're always arguing when I started to talk about your past. Its never you, you know. Its me. Idk why i loveeeeeeee to talk about your ex(s). Is it a natural thing for us,girls to like asking our bf about their ex(s) eventho they hate it ALOT ? What do we girls actually wanna hear from them eh ? The fact that im still like reading her blog makes me feel very lousy. But yea, i asked for it . Its my own actions that makes me upset. Eventho i know how much you love me, im still afraid if you might go back to her.

I want to be friends with her again. No kidding. I dont even know why we stopped talking.
sighsz.

REASON WHY I HATE HOLIDAYS :
i miss that silly guy so much.

REASON WHY I HATE MYSELF :
i STILL miss that silly guy so much even when we met YESTERDAY.

REASON WHY I HATE THAT SILLY GUY
He got me falling madly in love with him.

i know you love me ^^ muahahha. k bye bangla, i misss you sillydickhead.
ohoh.
i kofe you cery nuch nore ! HAHAHAHAH. oops ?
hehehe^^

I dont know why i think that guess is one of my friends. And i dont know why it bothers me so much.

Fucking pissed off.
to DEE & AMA , im sorry i forgot about your birthdays. Yeah,fuck me. tsk.
Happy Belated Birthday. :)

Right now i can't really think straight because im deadly, i mean DEAAAADLY tired after working fr two straight days ! Gosh, damn devastating i tell you. On Saturday we were scheduled at Eunos ___. My goodness, thats th worr(RR)st working day for me, i swear! Even other of my senior workmates said the sme thang ! Yesterday I was so frustrated with the way we were treated till i couldnt even get mad. its like TOO angry already ! You imagine eh, one of my workmate get scolded by a freaking MAID. that maid was like shouting at her !! goodness . I told my workmate maybe because she wants to feeling feeling order people around since its only a chance of a lifetime ! muahhaa. but really, we were treated like lowclass pariahs. wtfick. 0,0
Overall, ystd = nightmare. You know why ?! because my eyes so itchy and im so plain stubborn go and watch paranormal activity. WTHWTHWTH. RIGHT NOW, THE IMAGES WERE LIKE STILL FRESH ON MY MIND!!!! i was so tired but i couldnt sleeeeeeeeep. called shiddiq at 3am and poor thing, he had to accompany me till 6plus am. And when i wanna bath, i told my mum to stay in the kitchen and keep talking to me so i know while im in e toilet my mum's at the kicthen. muahhaahha. K, i know laaa im a scarycatcow !!!!!!!! gosh, screw you KID for letting me watch!!!!! why do you have tht show in ur phone ?!!!! hahaha. kkkk i shall stop huh?

TODAY ! work at Whompoa Dr . &thank you so much God for making it a less tiring day for us all ! phew~ not many ppl came and the groom's parents were so nice to us, yey!! and and the yummy fruit tart = double yey !!! heeeeeh. So ntg much for today :)

Asshiddiqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq,thank you so much for toleratin my nonsense kay? i love you i love you i love you laaaaaaa you ass. hahaha :D

&i so cant wait to meet you tomorrow !!!!!!! imylc laaaaaa :'(

AND TERENCE, IVE UPDATED ! sial laa, evn terence call me a BIMBO. hahaha.

k what a long post. teehee, goodbye!mwah :]

Sometimes when we're so mad at each other , we completely lost of words to say. And when that happens , i just want you to kiss me till I shut up.

oh fuck all these relationshipT.