Alright,before i begin my entry today-just a gentle reminder,dont you get mad or pissed if i MAY be a lil over-reacted ok,ok,okayy? Goood (:

Ohhhhhhhhhhmy!(*jaws drop,heart melts*)

should i start from the very beginnng or just brag about it? or maybe i should just start from the middle or,orr...kkk-hush.

After school went to meet Aqilah dearest for lunch,since im tired of eating laksa,we headed to McDonalds instead. And,even if fast food is unhealthy or expensive or,or whatever negative stuffs about it, I DONT I MEAN WE NEVERRRR REGRRRRET going in ^^
Sat beside a table of three,two ITE guys and a girl. (kk,be patient.omgomg!hahahah)

ordered our food and we started eating,as per normal.talked about Aqilah's resuls when suddenly the malay guy beside us said to his friend,

"Do you want me to ask these two girls,if you're handsome or not?"
"Asked lahhh!" - his friend replied.
"Ok. Excuse me girls,can you tell him that he's not handsome. Is he? your honest opinion." -he asked us.
We were kinda shocked cause it was unexpected for a stranger to randomly asked you for opinions and he's cuuuuuuuuuuuute.Gobsmacked skejaps.haha!
Both of us just laugh and shrug. He assumed that our answer were no. Lol :D

We listened to their conversation all along and he is serrrriously friendly! he asked if we're from secondary school,our age,our stream and said we're so cool to still keep in touch with each other (me and qilah) and said BOOKWORMS ARE GOOD *ehem* :))))
He told me that dont enter NYP unless the course i'm taking will be digital media or smtg to do with it, and told us not to end up in ITE or we'll behave like them-hooligans!
OMGGG YOU'RE SO NOT A HOOLIGAN LAA!

He used to be in SP but maybe he fooled around thats why drop to ITE.hah!
he said, "its not that im stupid ok,the poly doesnt wants me" hahahaha :D
and and and what makes me moreeeeee intrested to get to know him is when he told us HE READ BOOKS!omvffffgggg! IT IS A BIG DEAL ok! cause,its so hard for me to get to know GUYS WHO READ BOOKS ^^ omgomggg.hahahahahahaha :DDDD

When he's leaving,he bid goodbye and told us to finish up our food and not to waste them:) said takecare and yeahhh,OMGGGGG.
right after that,me and aqilah smile2 already to each other. Haha! cause you see,most of the ITE guys want to act cool,one bloody mat rep talk macam phm and stuff. BUT HE!hahhhhh*grins*
aqilaaaaah!!are you still smiling now?! i am!!!! xD

keep on smiling and we both hope we could meet him again.
walked and walked and yeah,the heart still melting.Lol :}
went to tampines mall and guess what ?
AQILAH TOLD ME HE'S THERE,INSIDE THE MC'DONALDS!hahahahhha.
almost,screameddddd,ALMOST k,ALMOST.hahahahaha :D
his friend spotted us and he said "ehh,the two girls,the two girls!"
we just smiled andddddd he waved back,waved mcm very smangat gituk!!hahahahahhaha
kkkkkkk,melts awayyyyyxzxz.

Toystory guy,i hope to bump into you again :)

You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cuz she doesn't get your humor like I do...
I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

'But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer Captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see,
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin' the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
Haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say your fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heelsI wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know
Baby...You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh'I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams

Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time How could you not know
Baby...You belong with me
You belong with me
You belong with me...

Have you ever thought just maybe...
You belong with me
You belong with me...

Books im craving for : Bad Behaviour & The Chocolate Run :)

aqilah,you quiet ehh.i know you've read the chocolate run alrdy,don't need to make me jealous!*rolll eyessss* hahah :D

As expected,everyone said that i looked weird/different with the new specs.Most of them said dark colours don't suits me &yeah,most of them dislike it. Haha! nevermind laa,sooner or later you guys will get used to seeing me in tht black specs :)

Got back Home Econ paper just now and i'm very pleased with my resutls ^^
scored 40 over 50 and yeah,all the hard work paid off. dude,i pass kay!despite you irritates me while otf when i'm trying to revise my notes. muahaha :D
we have yet to received our Chemistry paper yet -.-

Attended the Financial Literacy course for the second session just now in the afternoon &this time around i did not participate when playing the board game. Dozed off instead, and Mr Mark was like " chairman,do you want to go to the toilet and wash you face?are you ok?get up alright"
i sat up straight but as soon as he walked away,i went bck to sleeeeeep :)

Met aqilah for late lunch just now and tyvm sweetheart [: went to Times to check out the cost of The Chocolate Run but unfortunately,the book wasnt there. its okay-hopefully this weekend,we can head to town and go hunt for that book. Im getting all sexcited just to get that beautiful book. If only i can buy five books at one go... *grins*

can't deny,im falling head over heels already -.-

LAUGHS,cause of the new spectacles,two cause of the full moon face-.-

Frankly,i think the course we attended just now don't seems to benefit any of us. Like what Dory said, "the lamest course ever" :P
BUT,i have yet to apply the "get what you NEED and not what you WANT" easy said,very famos statement,but teenagers who actually did obeyed only seems to be a handful or so.
i better pen down what i need to get this weekend so i will unlikely to buy stuffs i don't really need :D

Idk whats with me and Iz. sometimes its there,sometimes nope. :\


gotta go,a proper update tmr i guess.
omgayy,you so keypooooo like wtfvv.

/edited at 10.45pm

how many times have i told you about not getting insanely in love with someone?
aqilah,you're so right.

taken during the year 2007 (!!!) :B

aw,i miss every single one of you :(

when was the last time all seven of us went out together? was it last year or last,last year?
see,i can't even remember!but i know its been ages since we last hang out together exchange stories. miss,misssss,missssssss you awesome people vmuch !♥

i slept for almost five hours in the afternoon,cause i woke up at 6am just now to collect my bursary. can't wait to get my cash and i'm off to buy new novels ^^
planned to go Orchard tomorrow but seems like only me,aqilah and helmi can make it.
see how laa kayyy .

colour me regret,like seriously.
it sucks alot when you're no longer the irritating guy i used to know. last night when i put down the phone, i don't see myself smiling anymore.
serves me right kannn. i know :(

i dont know you but i want you.

Im giving up already,even if its the hardest thing to do. Goodluck :) iwmyc.

but you said "sorry,i'm not interested" .

Life has been a mess lately.Back to the old depressing fifteen year old girl struggling with her dreadful life thinking hard why must all the bad things happenning to her(?)People don't ask for bad things to occur in their life do they? True,life is full of ups and downs but how many actually are willing to accept the naked truth that the reality holds. We can choose to feel what we want,to choose our own happinness,to make an effort to always be optimistic but sometimes you just lose it. You can't control your emotions, you can't face the reality. And now,i'm just hiding under my shadow,protecting myself from another heartache,another disasterous thing to hit me.
But how long must i continue to hide and not face it? And do i have the courage to really face this unfateful life rather than escaping from it ?

Lately,i've been busy offering a listening ear to those people who's facing bgr problems until i dont have the time to think about my own personal problems. Sometimes,people don't have any idea how painful your life is. My bad for bottling it instead of letting it out. But sometimes,not everything can be shared...you just need some space for yourself. Right now,i really need some space to breathe properly. To think about what's going on in my life and where am i heading next. Even though the truth hurts, it's always better than the best dressed lies. If you're in my shoes,you rather hearing the best dressed lies and carry on to live with it instead of hearing the naked truth that will keep on stabbing you numerous times. It sucks.

In life,we always dont get what we want and things that we don't wish to happened always occured. There's no way to escape from facing the reality and even if you wish to sleep and never to wake up again,you'll always have bad dreams,nightmares that might even scares you more than reality scares you right now. The harder you try to escape from reality,the more painful you'll feel. Problems can't be solved if we keep on running away from it,true.But how much relieved will you feel after solving it ? will it bring you any good or it'll still remain unchanged even if you don't attempt to solve it. (?)

They come and go. How much sacrifices does it take to make a person stay with you till whenever? And how satisfied are you if the person you want to stay didn't go away because he's forced to and not because he's willing to ? Do people buy friendship/relationship? I never understand why people can get married and stay loyal to one another for years. Right now,i still don't believe in marriage yet. Of course,im way too young to think about it..

At this point of time,i just want you to know that i treasure every friendship made and i never force myself to befriend anyone. Sorry if I ever offended your feelings . I'm more egoistic than you but with you, i learned to be patient and after all,you're such a nice guy,seriously.

I'm not in love,anymore. and dont know when will i ever be .

seriously,im over it.

Kris,i will buy your album. i promise you.

Just a quickie update for now cause MAYBE im updating again,later after knowing the American Idol results. omgvgggggg,pleasee,pleaseeeeee let my cutiepie in! i know,that sexy adam will sure go to the finals but i want to hear cutiepie to sing again. Yesterday,he totallly.TOTALLY melt me *grins* okay hush.

had a fvkingggg bad morning today. late for school,drenched-soaked in the rain,shivering like mad girl. oh btw,thanks fit for the umbrella,but the wind is wayyyyy to strong just now.tsk :(
had soccer training just now,and im getting used with the blistersssss :\

okay,now i wanna watch hannah montana(haha)suite life of zack&cody umsss den idk.
kkkk byeee!

i'll wait.we'll see.

*SCREAMSSSSS*
/edited at 6.38pm


nopeeee.didn't went out the whole entire day. rot at home,watched tv,surf the net,fold the clothes and listen to good music. -.-
somehow,i prefer going to school. at least i can find a way to entertain myself rather than sitting down staring at the ceiling.

dudessss,the previous post i was just merely joking.like for real! (ive deleted it btw)
sooo many of you people asking me which bestf am i falling for!*laughs* look,ive learned from my mistake-ive fallen for my bestf twice and ive sufferred enuff already.for me,bestfriends getting together will never work. so,take a chilll pill ^^

tomorrow,school will resume as per norm. aha!cn see some of you sighing already(hear,i mean.)
tonight im goinna keep my eyes glue on the television cause cutie pie Kriss will be on tv!!!
whoaa,im so sexcited already. Aww,dnt worrry baby-i will still lve you till whenever.
HAHA :D

you are more than aware that i have this tremendous crush oh you right? but you know,it kinda like you know..ridiculous and impossible. but nevermind,these feelings still here:)

i miss working days :(

its true you know,i really miss working with Mahirah last year. its so fun,getting to know more people,enjoy good food,listening to people singing and sing along,looking at people(ehem)HAHA!
I remembered the very first day of work,both of us were crushing on our ketua kendarat,M;)
and the part when i actually cried because of the pressure of wiping the plates ALONE.
but the highlight during our working days were Budi and Islam. aw,i miss Budi vmuch! his never-ending lame jokes,random questions and the part when he lied to ppl saying that we've been together for 2years already when actually we just know each other for less than 6hours!
and Islam,with his very,very -.- face! (mcm irfan kan dier!haha)
ahh,cute times.do miss it vmuch. really looking forward to meet you awesome peope again.
OHOH!remember A___r?laughs."Mat Nor",kak Hasanah and her boyfrnd?
never fail to brighten up my sunday ^^

okay hey. yeah,told ya i will change my skin sooner or later. &now,its transformed.^^
i had all the signs ystd but still,it never came-.- so yeah,maybe i was really hyper because you called dummie!:P
I want to go out so badly but afraid that i might not have enough cash for thursday and friday.
thought of spending my afternoon at Starb (who knows,that cute guy is there^^) but...
nevermind,i'll just make a cup of hot chocolate w whip cream on top . yeah,that will do.

Have you ever feel neglected before?or used? it pretty much sucks isnt it?sometimes i wonder if all guys really take advantage on us. Ive heard alot,aloooot of stories from my gfs and all of them were almost the same story.It irritates me alot,ALOT when a girl burst into tears and go a bit too emotional over a guy who doesnt treat her the way it should be.Maybe we shouldnt blame the guys entirely cause we girls should have been clever enough to know which guy is suitable enough to make friends with.

i want to date guys who write poems.

from strangers to friends to bestfriends to lovers to 'enemies' to friends back and currently : strangers

hi-5 me if you agree that my previous skin is way more better than the this-.-
its okay,i bet im goinna change it again the next day since there're no sch tmr:)
planned to go bowling with Rad but still not confirmed yet. I wanna watch movie but im not sure what movie to catch. Going with who don't matter anymore cause i've got no problem watching a movie alone. hah!maybe that's what i need eh? watch movie alone-yeah,shall think about that.

babygirls are having their major papers so i cant possibly meet them. :(
good luck ayye,Qilah,Yan and Dee ^^
somehow,i thanked God that all of us were from different schools. im not surprised if we were to argue over small stuffs when we're in the same school. ive bloghopped for the previous hour(s) and i felt so lucky that our friendship is still strong. thank you for being the best among the rest!
not to forget,imah too :]

now if you can excuse me,i got some things to attend to. haha,menyampahh laaa-.-
goodnite loves!

until finally,i believe in falling in love again.Qeem,you taught me how to be strong. thanks to ___,im finally getting over you.Finally.

meet the world's most irritating bestfriend!bt he's sweet:)

like seriously,im a very fickle minded person-.- been searching for blogskins for the past 2hours or so,favourited a few but after taking a second look at them,none caught my interest at all.
either too simple and dull,colourful but boring or combination of both.
In conclusion,i think-im not just fickle minded but very fussy too (but not when it comes to food)
:D

exams are officially over for me and there's no school tomorrow!And good luck Anna,Tina,Mira&Fit or your art paper tomorrow:)
went back home straight after school,planned to buy bubble tea but they only have it at 9am onwards. AND YES!ITS SO PATHETIC TO COME TO SCHOOL FOR JUST 30MINS-.-
During the LC,i was half dead already. even before stepping into the school zone,im already half dead walking like zombie...

I knocked off 7mins after the papr started.Ridiculous,i know!and i did panicked when im left with less than a minute to shade my answers in the OTAS sheet.Most of my answers are basically common sense thing-probably not the right answer cause i never paid attention to the whatever you call it-.-

as for now,im very hungry but too tired to eat.Shiddiq,take note-ITS TIRED not LAZY.
there's a major diff there. :D

btw,i think Hugh Jackman is sexy.
Kriss from Americal Idol is cuuuuutte.(very!)
but!
you know what im goinna say next-
Zac baby is the sexiest & cutest ^^

Cant deny,i miss yv :(

hi hello noobszxz,good morning :]

had a very hard time falling asleep yesterday.read Not That Kind Of Girl and fell asleep at 3plus in the morning with the lights switched on still :)
i still havent bath yet.HAHA!since im going out soon to get the cake for ibu,might as well mandi skejap lagi kaaan,save water^^
im still sleepy and its drizzling at woodlands.so cooling,can put me back to sleep.
and you know what dummie?i really dreamt of you.awww kan?!*laughs*

sighs.still hours more to go to Sakura.haha!
kay,now i think i better find what to wear so mum won't nag at me for taking a long time to get ready.
:]

fall for you.

i feeeeeeeee so l.o.w

since im feeling very,extremely down right now. i will prefer my entry to be in these very,extremely small font.
if really,its bothering you alot-then might as well dont read kay(:

went out only for an hour or less to print ibu's pictures fo mother's day card tomorrow (and im sexcited fo tmr.-but im still down now.shush)
so confirmed,tmr we'll be celebrating mothers day at Sakura-orchard. i know,i know. ive been mentioning about the sakura thing for days already right? hah. its just that i can't wait to feed myself with the sushisss there ^^ (im not smiling.im still not smiling :( )
abang just completed the mother's day card & yea,both of us started talking to each other already:] (still not smiling.)


have you ever fall in love with someone you shouldnt fall in love with ? -the stiff dylans

Alright,now you can go and sleep.

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I.
am.
going to.
P U K E soon...

&Aqilah,hot chocolate with whip cream and served with mout watering cadbury black forest bar is not as HEAVENLY as i thought. -.-
i feel like there's a thick,very,very thick layer of chocolate stuck'down my thrrroat.
Everything's so thick and,and..ahh nevermind.

Mother's day coming and i can't wait.
BUT.
brother and I are still not talking. i didnt know what went wrong,i tried to delete my ego and tried talking to him but what i got back was just a stupid face with no expression.
uggh-these sucks to the core .

Actually,i have noting to post about.just exercising my fingers..i shall go and read my book now.
call me,call me im addicted to that Rain's song already/!hah.

Hey friend,this one for you:)

Lately,we've not been talking like we used to.We don't chat anymore & we don't exchange stories anymore. You know,everytime when i go online,i will pray hard that you will come online cause i just love sharing everything with you. Even if you don't know how to solve my problems out,you'll be there offering a listening ear &always makes me feel better. And what humour me the most is when i discovered you're sucha bitch ! haha:D we can talk about anything,anyone and yeah,im so happy back then...

But now,things changed.Something's bothering you and i dont wish to know what is it but i kinda kills me that we're no longer chatting. You may think its not a big deal but to me,it is. Feels like i lost a listening ear & really,im feeling so low everytime both of us go online but we never chat.
But whateve it is,i really hope you'll be the old you back &we can both bitch about anyone/anything again.

Good luck for your exams A___S____.
:]

-MSN battle , Young Hollywood.
Zac Efron 80%
Vanessa Hudgens 73%
Megan Fox 62%
Ellen Page 62%
Miley Cyrus 58%
Shia LaBeouf 56%
Jonas Brothers 55%
Camilla Belle 51%
Jamie Lynn Spears 42%
Dev Patel 37%

my sweetheart on top of the list ^^

Alhamdullilah english paper was do-able.Had some difficulties answering the 'in your own words' questions but overall,i think i cn pass.InsyaAllah :)

TOMORROW WILL BE MY LAST TWO PAPERS. waaalaaah~!
tonight im goinna study my everything out for home econ and get done and over it (!!!)
need to revise malay peribahasa (dang,idk where's the paper-.-)
AND!
hopefully,you'll be able to call tonight;)

k,i think there's alot of ! in my post today.
hah.

We're so close yet so far away

Keep Myopia At Bay,Take Your Children Out to Play :]

random?im aware of that. i'm not even sure if its correct but anyway,who cares ?

Nopeee . I didn't sit for my physics and maths paper two just now. Absent from school with a valid MC-.- tomorrow's paper is EL Paper 2 &i have to force myself to drag my feet to school even if i'll vomit in the bus or...ayye,exaggerate much ?

sorry,i still dont have a proper update for now.
can't wait for this coming sunday baby! celebrating mother's day ^^ &dad said we're going to SAKURAAAAAA. forget about being anorexic on sunday kay syaaff :)

okay lovelies,im off now.
dummie,pleaseeeeee call tonight.
:)

Screwed up geography paper. too late to shed a tear isnt it ? its okay,work hard for the next common test i guess. but surely,i'll disappoint mr m. :'(
Chemistry?
i didnt even try to draw. well i did,but i erased it. and yeah...
physics and maths paper 2 tmr.
quick please,i wanna get done and over it!
:((((((

hopes left : eng paper 2, malay paper 2, and HOME ECON.
kay bersurai sumerrr.
:(((

FAIL
why fail?
NEVER STUDY/NEVER PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS
why never study/never pay attention in class?
ALWAYS TIRED/SLEEP IN CLASS
why always tired/sleep in class?
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP.
why not enough sleep?
SLEEP LATE
why sleep late?
OTF
why otf?
....
shut up laa fags!
-.o





tomorrow,maths paper one.
okay byeeeeeee:]

Hi.

i really dnt know how to begin this post (i just did actually) i've typed a few drafts before this and i'm still backspacing,fyi. It really shitting the whole outta me when my backspace key don't seems to function properly...

ive been all moody and hot tempered these few days.the internet connection is a real bastard and i can't listen to songs now cause of the stupid wmp&iTunes.
exams started and i'm in the June holidays mood already-it's not a shocking piece of news if i fail every subjects except for SS and language. Those two are my only strengths..
Maths paper 1 will be on monday &i dnt even bother to remember the formulas...
im sick of studying. sick of facing the textbooks and listening to teacher's naggings.
I want to quit school and get married.
but that will just add more problems to my life later on-
unless if my husband-to-be is Zac bby(:

all my friends must be busy studying.me?still here-blogging insignificant stuffs.whatever-
dont pretend like you DO care about my results.
hah..

why must you feel hurt when you're the one asking for it? why must you feel so down and heartbroken when you're the one calling it quits?

Hi. Im a sucka for love and i dont want to be in love anymore.
yeah right,famous last words.
And in case you're wondering,nopeee-im not in love.

even not with zac...
Bye.

Yesterday was a a total crap.
but anyways,thanks qilah,fiy,diq for laughing at me eh!hahaa.
i know,you guys think im a psycho about zaccccccc,too bad.can't be helped.

Hello you(:
i like you but i dont want you.i cant have you but i like you.i dont wish to,but i like you.


im sleeeepy.