Social studies and El paper One down,many more papers to go-.-
dnt bother to study .
ready to fail :O

Not in gd terms with b.
i removedddddd his pictures and ALMOST tear it down :((((((
kay,forgive me for my moodswings.but seriously,im not in gd mood nowdays.

reality check.
i want YooOoOoU to call me tonight.

forgive me for my lame post today.
bye.

What a pity that you dont' realised how hypocrite your bestfriend is. I dont wish to add on fire in between the both of you but one day you will realise that your bestfriend is the person you'll hate the most. Its kinda shocked for all of us to know what a REAL backstabber she is...

Exams in TWO more days & i dnt give a bullshit about it.
im ready to face the music..

Sometimes we get carried away by the little little things around us.
We tend to forget HIM.
Sometimes when we're too mad over someone/something-we start cursing.
We tend to forget to say HIS name.
Sometimes when we're too happy getting what we wished for-we start screaming.
We tend to forget to thank HIM.

all i'm asking for is another chance to be a better person.

Thanks lovelies,Aqilah & Diyana for today.
&yan,please be patient okay babe?its okay if they don't treasure you that much or always blame you on lil stuffs. You still have your wonderful,caring friends around you and you sure know we love you alooooooooooot ^^
cheer up love :))

and oh. thanks to Shiddiq and Zul fr making my day too.haha :D
zul,you're so good at making up weird but 'famous-kind-' of names ehy!
&diqqqq,can't deny!you looked hot today.muahhaha,tkmo kembang ehhhhhhhhhhhhh ayam
:)

okay,here's just a quick one aites.

school's been in a rush almost everytime.teachers rushing here and there especially maths.-.-
this week full of class tests &chem test just now pretty much an ass since ive got mixed up between ionic and covalent bonding!
tmr physics test-dont pretty much care since ive got no blooody interest in physics at all &IF im willing to change for the better,it'll be of course AFTER mid year :P
Humans? SS doing okay,Geog?a big NONO :(
can i have Mrs M back?but actually Mr M is a great teacher too,only that we need to be way independent student.
tomorrow hopefully,there'll be no extra classes or whatshits since im meeting bbygirls at TM.
AND
i miss that bloody cute innocent looking boy.muahahahah.

/i dont mind if we dont talk for long,but each time you called-i'll be smiling all day long~
(still smliling:)))))

Okayyy dudeeees,im off now.
i'm still in lve with Zbaby^^

first and foremost,before you get all excited because you think you've won-im being frank that i changed my picture because i admit that it's really not appropriate.

im not eager to know which loser spammed my blog but what i know for sure is its from my school since you talked about my hair...
its funny cause since when did i said my hair taste like curly fries?haha!and yeah,i am a geek.
aku kental,memang pon aku mengaku.aku tak ckp pon aku ni popular or whatnots.kau knaper?
lagi satu about my FLAT BOOBS. why are you being such a psycho looking at ppl's boobs?!ohmyy.Maybe yours is way much flatter than mine,thats why you are eager to look at ppl's boobs. :)
Alright,im ending here. you warned me to "watched out" right? why don't have the guts to talk to me in real life?

Such a shame that most pathetic losers are always malays.

yes i know. how untidy i looked in the above picture :)
and this was taken two hours ago...
thanks ibu for the famous amous cookiessssssss! :D
today i starved myself indirectly-meaning,its not that i refused to eat but sadly,there's no food to eat. don't talk about having lunch at fast food or whatnots cause i'm currently saving cents and dollars!
STILL,i burned my precious 3bucks on TEENS mag.but lemme tell you,its worth my three bucks cause i have the giant Zac's poster ^^

okay.thats all gundu(s). imma off this stupid lappy &continue my social studies mindmap..
ohmymyyy,im feeling sooo dreadful 0.0

tell me now,who am i falling for?

" and syaff, i cant deny that zac is hot. haha. "
above is quoted from Aqilah's blog.muahahha,so much of you girls saying "aper yg hot sangat pasal zac?" "eee,dier tak handsome laa babe" TAKE BACK YOUR WORDS or better still, EAT THEM UP. muahhahah :D

seriously guys,even if you're not a Zac Efron fan-you should go and catch the movie 17 Again. A great balance of comedy,family bonding,love and a lil of friendship i bet. IF you're a Zac Efron fan,i suggest you dont go cause you'll end up snatching him away from ME cause he's just too hot to handle,way,waayyy to hot. Alright, Aqilah will surely give me one of her disgusted look while reading this. Rrrright babe ? :)

i don't wish to elaborate more about the movie but one thing for shure,i dont mind watching it more than once. and yes,i just cant get enough of that charming blue eyed guy &i think its a really good show. After watching the movie,i thought i shouldnt get attach right now cause ive got a long more way to go,more people to know. BUT! im not saying that those who're attached now wont last,its just that from my point of view that relationships now will make me regret very soon. Cause,im not the one who can commit to just one guy right now. thinking back,im a heartbreaker- :\

I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT. I HAVE TO. I MUST,I MUST.
i think i see a watermelon,whenever i looked into the mirror. no kidding mens.
i looked fat cause im short.
so its either i lose some weight or gain some height. GROW TALLER. which will take me like forever?!
heh.

Today is F R I D A Y already babyy!superb fast isnt it? time flies EVEN when you're not enjoying the things you do. -.-
Okay lovelies,i have to go now :)
assalamualaikum.

siglap won,yeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D
im just too tired to update. okay bye!
im gg to date the hottest guy on earth tomorrow ^^
who else? my Zbabyyyy laaaa *winks*

Seriously,im not waking up at all. Wtf am i thinking ? missing you when MYE is coming damn,damn,dammmmmn soon. Foolish,i know. :( but can't help it.

and what sucks the most is when ive realised im NOT the only one missing you.
when i said move on,i dnt even know,what am i moving on from? you're right. i think i do have feelings for you even when its freaking ridiculous!!!
and i dont think you gave me any hopes,its just me who get carried away with your text messages.

fccccccccck it. i miss you :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

youknowimreferringtoyousir.

psychic psych psychoactive psychiatrist psychedelic psychologist psyche psychobiology
eugenics eulogy euphemistic euphoria euthanasia epitaph epithet epigraph
obdurate oblique obliterate oblivion obnoxious obscure obverse obtrusive

today i've learned more than just one pathetic word.

Is it time to finally move on ?

this is someohow frustrating dude-.-
when Diyana can make it,Dee can't.when Dee can make it,Diyana can't.when both of them can make it,Aqilah and me seems to be busy!
so tell me now,how on earth can we go out together girls?hah!

as usual,studied at mc'cafe downtown with aqilah only since yan can't make it due to someone i particularly dislike!aqilah is irritating im telling you-.-she was the one who planned to get going early cause she said she's got alot of stuffs to do but in the end,she only did her newspaper report and left the rest undone!hah.Can't put all the blame on you cause you desperately need help in Amaths and no one seems to come to rescue.muahahaahah!:D
did my one and only english assignment and off to yan's place to see her newborn niece.
extremely adorable &yeah,i feel so pure and clean kissing her cheeks.
of course she's sin-free!k wth.
:]

didnt stay there for long,we walked to my 168 bus stop and while walking thousands-kay,lied.not thousands but it certainly do bring back few memories of the olden days!cehceh.hahaah!
the playground shelter-where we used to hang around
the big clock-our meeting point-.-
the park-our cycling cum jogging days!haaha
at 855 void-deck-we used to study there,right qilah?haha.

and out of randomness we were talking about the ex-boyfriends and stuffs.
owells,Yan had the weirdest taste ever.like Q,Nadhir,Raymond!laughs.
Aqilah-okayy laaah.lol
and Yan,my ex-farihin is way way better than your nadhir kay baby!muahahhah:D even Aqilah said so ^^

Ahh.the old days,much misses!
&thank God we're not in the same school or else we'll always have conflicts among each other.
and yes,we've pretty much grown up.
remember how pathetic we are to have the same boyfriend?!
hahahahahha.

Goodbye,takecare.
♥

I knew it. I've already sensed these coming & still,i choesed not to bother. For countless times,i've told myself not to take the risk cause i sure know trouble and shits will come sooner or later.Still,i'm stubborn.I choosed not to stop what i'm doing and get all stubborn headed. So now,i'm begging for forgiveness from each and everyone of you.

Mira,ive realised that my attitude sucks.fucking sucks,that none of you girls can tolerate anymore.And i'm not here making any of you to show me some mercy and forgive me right there and then.I never expected any of you to understand me,cause i myself dont pretty much try to understand you girls.I dont wish to explain any further as none of you wants to hear anything that comes out from a bitch's mouth. I got that.

Call me a flirt,a backstabber,a bitch-if that makes all of you feel better.Let it be. I dont pretty much care anymore-i remembered talking to Aqilah saying that you can't possibly make everyone happy and satisfed when you,yourself dont get any joy.I'm sorry,i'm not the greatest friend any of you wished for cause i dont really sacrifice my happiness for all of you girls.And,am deeply sorry for not realising what a bitch i am all these days.

I don't need to defend myself anymore.I wont stop any of you from talking about me and i will get used to it sooner or later. But please,allow me to just say a word or two-

I never had any intentions to make you girls jealous by getting close with those guys you had a crush on.Maybe to me,i'm naturally close with them but to you girls,i'm abit unusual and seems to be more closer to them even after you girls told me you girls had feelings for them.Forgive me for not being able to understand your feelings. I'm just wondering,all this while,do you girls actually understand me?Its okay if you don't cause i never expected that from any of you.
Again,im seeking for forgiveness and this is purely sincere.

I failed as a friend,as a lover and as a daughter.
forgive me for my unreasonable attitude all this while.

Mira,thank you for being there for me when i needed a friend.
now,you can continue to dislike me for as long as you want.
But,ive still got no hard feelings against you.

goodbye.

Labels: saying sorry wont make things better.

Olla :]
yesterday honours day ended at 1pm,planned to eat at eastpoint with imah before we go to syahirah's place but in the end we went to her place and cancelled our plan to eat at eastpoint.
ohmy!her twin brothers were extremely adorable and very,very cuteeeeeeeee:D
i cant upload yesterday's pictures cause my laptop bluetooth is seriously shitting on me-.-
on the way back home,received a text from fiy asking if im free tonight to watch movie.hah!
reached home,ate,bath and off to tampines.
watched the movie Knowing with fiy,saiful and aqilah.
ohmy,the movie is damn,damn,damn,gooooooooooooooooooood!but the ending is kind of not that great,rating will be 4/5.
:B

next movie : 17 AGAIN.
my baby so hot ^^

Alhamdullilah!
finally i managed to clear up my blog template's mess &all thanks to my very itchy hands for editing it and poof~everything changed to disaster-.-
lucky,now everything's back to normal(:

i actually waited for Ahmad for ONE bloody hour just now at Tampines and learning on how to be patient,i tried to control my anger an calmed down when i see his act innocent face!hah.
proceed to SSC &met few of his friends there.
its interesting that now ive been socialising with bunch of people and its great to meet new people everyday.
expand my circle of friends but still,i'm limiting myself to whom i'm mixing with(:
Met Amirul-the suckaa, &another Amirul-amirul hakim.He's very friendly ! :)

such a waste Diyana cant tag along just now,if not-it'll be a SADD reunion for the four of us!
its okay,at least i get to meet dearest Dee,still the blur-rest among all but still ilyssm gf.
&seriously,we shall go out together sometime after MYE. Diyana,you better bloody tag along i tell you!muahaha :D

Alright humans,i'm off now.
till we meet again,
Assalamulaikum.

Blog is in a mess,will be back soon. with a new,suitable skin i hope :)
anyways,i enjoyed today very much. met new people and thn god,they're all friendly people!
yoursmileiskillingme.seriously-

its already april the fourth,Happy 15th Birthday Fizah babygirl!
i was kind of amazed by how fast time flies,its already your birthday and it seems like you're still new in Siglap!i still remember your first day in Siglap,you sitting beside me&folding me the paperheart:)Enjoy your day today to the fullest gf!♥

today's saturday,tomorrow sunday-the day after tomorrow will be Monday.
maths assingments still not completed,geography research not done yet and ive got home econ test nxt week.I can only remember the defination of Vitamins-the rest...still progressing:)

will be heading to Republic Poly afterwards at 7pm with ibu to watch brother's what performance thing-im not that sure.and for the sake of supporting him,i now owe my ibu 15bucks for the tix-.- seriously,i dont like April-stil early,pokaikia already.
&there's no work. ugh,this is so frustrating...

a friend of mine called just now and i was kinda surprised. it was unexpected to hear from her cause we were'nt that close at all.&what gobsmacked me most was when she said-
"hello syaaff,i know this is weird but im desperate.i need someone to listen to me,can you just listen to what im about to vomit out?"
I was speechless for a while but i managed to say yeah,okay-go on.hah!

she told me that she felt she's being used.not physically laa,used as in you knw how guys sometimes treat girls like tissue papers.she said she's been close friends with this guy for a long time-(sorry to say,but i know that guy and S___,i think u shud just forget him.not worth ur tears!!!)she's been there to hear every problems that guy's going thru and always there to cheer him up.At first,she tried to convince herself her feelings for him are just like close friends but she can't lie to herself. Of course,she likes him more than just close friends..and everytime he had a hard time with his gf,he'll go to this friend of mine and spit everything out.But hours after that,when his gf "melts him with the sweetest words you can think of-.-"(you know,girls can be sweetalker too huh?) he totally forget about how much he's mad at his gf.Aha,thats natural-we humans forgive each other easily especially those special ones.But what made my friend felt being used was when that guy automatically ignored her for days..never text her..she tried to get his attention but neh..Thats not close friends S___,think babe,think!
AND.when he's mad at his gf again,he'll find my friend..and the cycle repeats...

S____,im not here to make u feel more down and hurt but maybe he's not using you.he's just treating you like a normal friend.whenever he's got a prob,he feels comfortable vomitting it out to you.Its like you're the perfect listener..but i know it hurts,when he totally ignored you and forget about the things you did when he's okay with his gf already.IT SUCKS BIG TIME doesnt it?:)i think you shoud just treat him like your any other guyfriends..dont waste your time over a guy like that.He may be a good friend,but not your boyfriend kind of material.
cheer up,there's more guys for you to make friends with &who knows soon,there'll be a nice guy for a nice girl like you(:
takecare babe-and dont hesitate to call me next time in the future!
♥

when i talked to her just now,i feel like i'm talking to myself. i feel you babe.
she's got over it,now when's my turn?soon i hope.heart says go but i never changed-stubborn as ever.

01. Who was your last text from and you replied?
-Rahimah Bte Sim :]

02. Where was your default picture taken?
-err,i forget.

03. Your relationship status?
-dating zac efron :]

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
-people come and go.so whadya think ? :]

05. What is your current mood?
-pissed actually,ignore the smiley emoticon like this one :]

06. How many siblings do you have?
-three brothers and a sister.

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
-Shahrul Muhaimin,Khairy Haziq,Zati Alyani,Khairy Alfian.

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
-KKH with Diyana and Aqilah!

09. Have a crazy side?
-hah!of course.

10. Ever had a near death experience?
-yessssssssssss!

11. Something you do a lot?
-eat. :D

12. Angry at anyone?
-myself.myself.myself !!!!

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
-Vanessa Hudgens.

14. When was the last time you cried?
-few days ago. :]

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
-my family,close friends.yeaaah.

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
-give me another chance to see the next day.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-this irritating guy uh i forget his name. Hai smtg...hahaha :D

18. What is your favorite song?l
-mostly english lovesongs.

19. What are you doing right now?
-chatting.blogging.

20. Who do you trust right now?
-my bestf.

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
-my cousin.

22. Have you kissed someone in the past few days?
-yes,my mom.

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
-HAH!no one.

24. Describe your life in one word?
-reality. Correct whaaat.sometimes it sucks,sometimes the sunny side shows up :]

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
- mr bean,the real one i mean. Haha :]

School has been great lately.Not that exciting but ive got no more bad 'emo' days in school :D its already thursday,tomorrow will be friday and soon it'll be the weekends!yeyyyyy,NOT! i've got maths assignment piled up already waiting for me to start dating them one by one-.-
CME project coming up and Geog too. Shitttt,tomorrow im going to humilate myself infront of the whole school reading a book review for like more than 5minutes. im sure more than half of the will be asleep as soon as i start reading ! hah :]

Just now was great. went to meet aqilah at pasir ris inter and decided to visit diyana at KKH. :)
its been a while since we last met and laugh out loud together!out of many,many places to meet,we ended up having our 'another outing' at KKH-.-
anyways,Diyana!please takecareof yourself oky love?and dont be too down over things thats happening to you cause life w/o shits is not a reality :D dont worry,i'm always there for you. and mean it this time aroud (: sayang kau sangat2 :D
Aqilaaaaaaah jugaaaak!haha :)))

nothing new luh,of course another sleepy day today.a very,extremely sleepy today-.-even when called the AmMayhem,i told them i was sleepy for like more tha five times.and i actually didnt requested for the song Halo. when Ms Vandetta asked what song would like to hear, i can't really hear her clearly so i said "hello?" she assumed i wanted the song Halo.hahaha-being to sleepy,i just go with the flow and say yeah,im requesting for the song Halo.
LAUGHS! :D

slept at 2.30am woke up at 4.30 am.
2 hours only you knowww.but i dont mind at all :)
thank you.

hah!Mr BEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.
:]

today i learned how to be patient to people who stepped on my toes w/o apologising.

Weekends almost here humans,assalamualaikum.

Another damn,damn sleepy day today.had english re-test just now,and what a waste-i went to sleep after attempting three or four questions.I'm only left with ten minutes to complete my summary,and out of 150 words,i wrote only 70plus.Tell me how the hell am i going to pass the re-test?owells,serve me rrright! :\

Today bestf and i played a lame game-.-we're forever the most lame-st bffs ever!imah,we still need to list down a few more fruits you know.I think we only have around 20plus in the list.and!we have not yet match the fruits with the names:)you're so mean,do you know that?:]

During PE just now had the actual 2.4 test,sadly i cant remembered my time but its i between 15mins to 16.Not A :( its okayy. I am freaking not looking forward for standing broadjump!and pull-ups!-.-

im not sure which teacher nominated Sean and me to go to the India trip.so sexcited but its not final yet.i have to write a proposal on why i should be selected for the trip :\ somehow i felt discriminated or should i say loss spirit when i see i'm competing with E3's and E4's.They certainly got brains to spark their proposal!but im trying my best to write a good proposal cause i'm really keen to go to the trip. (: Sean,good luck dudeeeee :))

i think i'm done for today.

Today, i learned how to be patient dealing with people who tried real hard to capture my attention.