Baek uh Carya ! :D ader bakat ehy kau jadi top scorer (:
Siglap won. yeapp, 5-0 against Greenview sec. whoaa,so much of saying Siglap nothing eh?
-.-

Me and boyf is getting better than ever. like finally i manged to love him like i used to.
kkk,he's really serious bout it and yeap. i think i will try my very best to accept kim just like best,bestfriends :D

and oh em g. boyf really cracked me up in the bus just now when he forwarded me this girl messages to him. walandeh ! if my gf read what that girl texted my boyf,surely they will find her.
HAHHA. tak eh,im not a fanatic girl at all.
sukerhati kau laa nak panggil mataer aku sayang ker darlink ker.HAHAHHAHA.
omgggggg.

and baby,thank you(:
iloveyou laaaaaaa.

KIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
why the fuck are you doing this to me ?
blooodyhell.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

kim,for you.

Colour me G U I L T Y .

Hi. [:
got back our argumentative essay just now and Alhamdullilah i passed! eventho the marks weren't that high i'm glad i passed but truthfully i am disappointed in myself. Its okay,19 over 35 now,improve later on :]
Bad news,i failed my indices class test! scored 11 over 25 :\ and all thanks to my carelessness.
like getting positive answer instead of negative,forgot to add brackets and stuff.
dang me.
Just today then i realised,how clumsy i can be :D

School's kind of boring actually since my opera singer,Teenargh went to Victoria Theater to rehearse for Cest La'vie this coming Saturday.
wuu,everybody been asking each otha what are they wearing and all.
actually...i dont really feel like going.
but i have to. i must ! haha, must support Mira and Teenargh ~ :DDD

and yes im guilty.
im guilt because he loves me very much but i'm not loving him like i used to.
he texted me and stuff bt never did i bothered to reply.
baby,i'm sorry.i just dont think we can make it thru but..
the thought of breaking up is just too..much? i know i love you
but i just dont know why i dont love you more than him.
but for now-i think just let things be this way.
honestly b,idk if i love you still.
xx.

Okay readers,suddenly today i feel so motivated to blog. It's goinna be a damn,dull boring shit post but no harm reading and no harm stopping (:

Yes Shiddiq,yesterday's assembly talk was meant for people like me. People whose thinking were never positive at all. I've learned alot from yesterday's assembly talk-suddenly i'm motivated to be a positive thinker,to view things in the positive way and make an effort to change things to positive. I want to stop being such a negative thinker and yes,from today onwards i will really try my best not to give up.
gosh,its i'm only sec three and idk what will 2010 be. yes, O'levels *woo*
:D

I received my english class test back just now and i failed. Yes, i failed english.
well,when i see it in a positive manner, i think its time for me to pull up my socks and work harder. Start taking things seriously and don't be too over-confident.
for this case, i already expected that i will fail. And i just got lectured by Mrs ___.
i have to really wake up and put studies under my MAIN PRIORITY right now.
and Shiddiq, i think its time for me not to be obsessed in love anymore .
:D

Its not a good start for me this year but i'm hoping for something better for the upcoming common tests. Hopefully i will get better results and i MUST improve .
So far i only pass my Malay and Social Studies class test-thats bad huh?
i wont give up.
i wont .
:)


DONT GIVE UP SYAAFF. DONT . DONT. DONT .

i'm not the happy kiddo anymore. not the girl who will laugh the loudest. not the girl who will shout and scream and happily singing at home.

NO WAY. i'm goinna make some effort to CHANGE.
to change for the better,to improve my suckish life.
don't talk about love anymore-i dont wanna blame him for what has happenned.
maybe shiddiq is right,i'm sucha negative thinker and never optimistic at all.

frankly what i want now is.
the late night calls made by qeem

reality check : i have a boyfriend named Amir not Qeem .

REASONS WHY I'M DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.

• i'm with a guy who doesnt loves me as much as i love him.
• i broke my promise not to get attach till sec four.
• i lied to some people.
• i cannot control my moodswings when having my period.
• i am so weak when a guy hurts me badly.
• i never stand up for my rights.
• i flunk all my tests.
• I AM NOT MOTIVATED TO STUDY ANYMRE.
• i dont care what's happening in school. ( about studies )
• I'M NOT OVER Q YET.

REASONS WHY I'M HATING MYSELF.

• I LET PPL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME EVEN AFTER GOING THRU THE SAME THANG OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
• I LOVE A VERY MUCH ALREADY.

REASONS WHY I LOVE AMIR.

• for now i'm too blank to mention any.

REASONS WHY I DONT REALLY LOVE HIM THAT MUCH.

• he asked me stupid questions like if i mind we breaking up.
• he keep on saying we're not compatible.
• he's still in love with his ex.
• he dont love me as much as i love him.

REASONS WHY I REGRET GETTING ATTACHED.

• too many to mention.

adorable isnt he?look at his yummy cheeks ! thats my softball coach's son.Yes,son not daugther(:he's just four but he can really switch place w his mum curze he really talk like a coach and he can pitch and bat ! ahh,talented kiddo :]

LOUD DOESNT MEAN GOOD

thats what ive learned from coach today.im so proud of the c'div girls cause they didnt lost teribbly to TKGS. last year the score between TKGS and Siglap was 43-0. yes,we got dinosaur egg. but today,the C'girls were awesome. we lost to them by just 3 runs. yeaps,score was 6-3.and we were talking about TKGS here. :Dthanks to Nadiah who awesomely tagged out 2runners at one go.bravo,bravo.Good job!can't wait to watch you girls play for Nationals :]

i'll post the pictures some otha day alright?

:)

Labels: IMAH UMPIRE CUTE KAN.HAHA

i knew it right from the start. the very start .

Finally,after so long-finally i got the chance to spend time with dearest bestf (:
i seriously missed doing 'evil stuffs' with her!&yeah,its been ages since i heard her laughing out loud in bus 81.
thank you for your time &stop saying i hate you okay giler! you knw i love you more than my baby.
HAHA.

speaking of which, -.-
aiyahhh,this boy really get onto my nerves. he waited for me and i waited for him but in the end we didnt go to school together cause we dont see each other -.-
tonight,i have to give another lecture to him i guess.

I FAILED MY GEOG TEST FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE,I FAILED GEOGRAPHY TEST.
since yesterday Mr Milath told me that i did very badly for the test,i knew that i'm not goinna pass the test but my score was terrible.Like fffff terrible !
out of 20,i scored only 7.yes, S E V E N . ridiculous,i know!
Like he said, " i dont want muggers, i want thinkers "
its kinda true actually-i was memorizing the texts insted of understanding the chapter.
i just hate rivers,since sec one ya'know/! :(
or should i say that i dont really love geog like how i used to .
for now,i just hope that i will pass my ss test or else -

i screwed up maths test just now.
i hate quadratic equations.
i hate cross method thang and yeahh whatever you can think of tht related to quadratic equations.

hotstuff is botak now! hahaha.
kay rad, MARIO HOTTEST :D

MEET MARIO AND CHRIS.

i think my babyyyyyy is cuteeeeee even i once admitted that his bestfriend is wayy wayyy cuter but i sill think my babyyyyyyyyy melts my heaaaaarrrt faster than his bestfriend ! :D

kay sorry.too hyper uh today.

firstly,fags geography test.so much of meanders,waterfalls,gorges and blablaaa.in the end,topics that i never memorize hard came out and pooooof,i'm ready to fail -.-
COMMON TEST YOU KNOW :(
tsk!

secondly,thank you teenaargh for the thang! i love the colour :] thanks ehy giler! :D

thirdly,thank you to my usual happy pills for making my day and sorry to rahimah and mahirah for the irritatingness in me today since i talked about hazim alot just now.haha!

fourthly,fags you lower sec girls,stop staring at me laaaa morons!nak amir sangat gi uh flirt ngn dier bodoh!-.-

fifthly,i love amir like damn,damn,much :D

• hazim has a girlfriend.
• i think i like purple more than blue.
• tina is now an officially a part-time opera singer :D
• ive got geography test tmr
• i dont really like geog that much now
• hazim is fxking hot,dont you think so?
• and NOOOOOOOOO,I DONT LIKE HIM.
• i just find him hot
• MARIO HOTTER ^.^
• i love my new phone *winks*
• i'm hungry.
• fadhil's jersey is number 12.TWELVE.
• HAHA,shupp you asshules.
• i feel like changin my numbe to : 92222222. whoaa?
• oh,thanks qeem for the troberlone. (whatever you spelled it)
• TODAY IS FXKING HOT.LIKE DAMN,DAMN HOTTTTTTTT.
• i want to drink honeydew sago
• i want dunkin doughnuts,BADLY.
• i miss playing badminton
• I WANT LAST YEAR'S MUAR TRIP :DDDDDDDDD
• I MISS SEC 3 CAMPFIRE NIGHT :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
• hazim has a girlfriend.
• he thinks im jealous,for godsake ! -.-

nothing much for today,stayed back after school to complete some assingments &laugh out loud with usuals happy pills AND FINALLY GET TO CATCH UP THINGS WITH DEAR GF,IMAH!had opera singing training just now with Tina and hell,its so hilarious. I think we should do it more often laa eh babe?[:

whoaa,suddenly i forgot i'm attached :O

I marked a total of 77 text messages.
And slowly gathered all my strengths to delete it.
But i fail again,not once not twice.
I just can't do it-never will.

I read all of them.
Some made me laugh out loud
Some turned me to be so emotional.
Some made me realised-
that nothing can actually last forever.

Your sweet words,your charming voice.
It melts me,it kills me.
I miss those cute times.
Those times you breathed those three words.

Simple but sincere.
Now everything has change.
Feelings starts to fade away
And reality slaps me hard.
Real hard.

for so many times i tried to stay on the bright side
but still,nothing will change
people come and go
but why can't these feelings fades away too ?

Happy Valentines (:
thank you so much girlfriends for the gifts &oh,the cookies you girls baked were awesome.
thank you,thank you so so much!
:D

have you ever hated that somone so much but you do still,somehow care for them?hm.

we're living with all the drama/mama(s) & papa(s) right now. imagine if you record your whole entire life and you know when are you going to end your life,so before you actually breathe the last breath,you watch your whole entire life back. the things you said,you did,things you didnt said or did...sins youve committed..and by the time you want to learn from your mistake,its already too late.

so now,lets do some reflection.
close your eyes,clear your mind and just slowly recall what happenned today.

it was kind of last minute thang to go studygroup with hanis and shad today,sucha waste rad cant tag along since she got tuition today.hah!at least,we bumped to each otha at e!hub but *gives you that aww look* you didnt get to see him just now.HAHAH.hanis said we must brag about it a lil,so yeah. :D

i dont know when will they stop talking. well its true tho what acap said in class just now-i just have to wait till they're bored of it and tired. im hoping the time will come soon cause i just cant face another day more in school hearing those insignificant stuffs from them.
try to be in my shoes,maybe you guys will understand better.

or like i said,this is karma somehow i'm being 'punished' by all those stupid stangs i said or did. okayy fine,i gotta accept it. no way to escape anymore.
but please-just end it. i cant stand it any longerrrrrrrrr :(

cme and brag about it, you think i care ? nopeeeee. not even a single bit.

aku maseh sayang ko tapi aku tak tau ape nak buat skarang

Labels: ahhhhhhhh.fucked up.

saaaaaaaaaaaap!kay i'm so glad that ive got a brother who cant live w/o internet.cause i just shifted yesterday and i thought it will be days before i can finally go online and such but tadaaa!
kay im not that hyper actually,so just shuppp & read.

Labels: suckkaaas.

Seriously,i really need a new handphone asap.
like fo reaaaal,a s a p!!!
:'(

i was over the moon when i remembered tomorrow i Saturday which means no school.
when suddenly Asyraf texted me,asking me if i'm going for the journalism workshop tomorrow.
i dont wanna skip it but i just dont think i can make it :\
fishzxz.

this is not random but its a fact- i really miss rahimah and mahirah.
i wonder how's training today.
HAHA ! :D

define - TRUST.

i never knew that my bitches are way,wayyy,wayyy more crappier than me.
tina and mira,omg.you girls are like the best imaginary people ever!hahahaa.
but still,ilvelvelveyou girls anyway!hahah :D
annah too ^^
(:

lessons were kinda okay just now.i just concentrate during maths and social studies.
freakksz,ive got two tests tmr,home ecn and maths.
and now i wanna confess that i regretted taking home econ :\
but yeah,its kind of too late-dont you think so?

im sensing something bad goinna happen but i just dont see the hints yet.
haha,whatever.
hannah wish she's raven.Lol :D

and ive got training tmr.
bothzxzxz.
-.-

Aduhai,zaman bila mau spam spam blog org nie?spam pon pakailah namer sendiri lain kali yer?
aku dah bagus bobal baek2 ikutkan hati aku nak jer maki berbakul-bakul.
aku ader lah jugak ilmu kat otak sebab aku pergi sekolah belajar,tak macam korang.gi sekolah menggatal.ooops,sapa yang makan cili dierlah terasa pedas.EH NTAH KRG PHM KE TAK PERIBAHASA NI EH?maklumlahh budak......
haha!
aku nak pakai tudung ke tak ke,aku ade susahkan kau?ader aku pinjam baju kau tak?tak kan?
kau kasi anjing pon dier tak nak dekat sia.

kau nak aku define minah rep mcm maner tak?

Labels: HAPPY BIRTHDAY QEEM

Fugggggerr.
now that i'm nt sitting around him anymre idt u ppl will see me smile in class -.-
ahhhh fugggg.
oh like finally,i saw him smiling just now.
HP STILL NOT CURED . :D

So actually,all 8 of thm replied but now,my phone cant received any texts or send any.
if u wanna reach me,please call my hp DONT MSG. ok ?

I MISS SOMEONE BUT IDK WHO THE FUCK AM I MISSING RIGHT NOW.
MAYBE A MAYBE Q MAYBE __________.

oh bummer.
i texted like more than 7 people today but not even one person replied.
macam taik uh gituk eh.
aku kol pon satu orang tak angkat.
baekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.