relax syaaff.calm dowwwn

alright,today's the 28 ! i cant wait to know my class at the same time nervous for idk what shit.
hehh.
oh,today i am suppose to start working BUT i am still not sure to go for it or not.
this sucks-seriously.
why am i so fickle minded like my parents?
its in the genes your head!
hah.
lets' see.
ummm-hmm
:\

Ive got a job .
but unfortunately,parents sort of protest.
dont allow me curze its night shift.
sighs.
make them change their mind pleaseeeee ):

ALRIGHT TINA,BECAUSE OF YOU,I'M UPDATING KAYY!hah

am very sorry for not updating,not b'curze im busy or stuffs just plain lazy.
nothing new huh?
since 2009 is coming no,i mean since 2008 is coming to an end(sounds better)ive gotta kick out all the bad,no i mean the not-so-good habits outta meeeee :D
like number one :
PROCASTINATE.
shush!

so whr you wanna me to start?well,i have amnesia so dont blame me if i can't recall every single thing in detail over the pass few days (:

on THURSDAY,the last day of school ):
it was quite a sort of solemn occassion esp knowing that some of my current 2008 classmates were transferred to NA stream,but its okay,we're still in the same school.
i hope we're still talking huh?
:)
during the physical promotion activity,we were all in our 2009 classroom which is 3E1 and surprisingly,there are a total of three times two sec three students retained in 3E1.
mahirah,kau takmo jealous kalau aku masok 3E1 tau!
lol :D
kk,its OLD STORY!heh.
but still,i cant wait for 28 october,cant wait to know which class i'm going to in year 2009!
gheeesh.

After the school ends,me,mira,tina and annah went to whitesands to eat our lunch.
haha,kay i seriously craved for mc spicy that time so they had no choice but to go to mac even though some feel like going to KFC.
heeeeh .
serious shit,tina was laughing out loud the entire moment.
ceh.hahaha and i cant forget mira's weird but cute laughter.
hahh.
and thanks to mira,tina's landyard kene chilli ehkk?
oh not to forget!tina remember that primary school kiddo the one you talked about how bad she was when we saw her tits coming out.
hahaa,not tits la budow,thats nippleeee.
Kk stop it (:
AND,i cant forget that time i was acting like a bimbo talking shits with tina until she smacked me HAAAARD.
bloody bitch laa you idiot!hahahaa
:D
and overall,that was a great end for the day !

Friday had meet the parents session,kay i remembered smtg but dont you dare laugh!
annah text me ask
"Syaaff,MPS at where?"
i was stil sleeping but due to my phone's vibration i woke up and replied her text bear in mind I AM STILL HALF SLEEPING.
i replied
"MARINE PARADE SQUARE?"

HAHAHAHAH.
and she replied "huh?tak faham"
so i was seriously feeling stupidly dumb and called her.
so MPS is MEET PARENT SESSION.
hahahaha.kay dumbo dumbo.
you dont laugh !
:D

Ms W said i seriously need to go for maths tuition and mom agreed.
but idk where can i find one?
at woodlands.cehh.
after mps went to kfc at tamp but i gotta take away coz rahimah waiting for me at opposite library bustop for our softball training.
ate at the bus stop and off to school for training.
training didnt sucks except the part when i spraind both my ankle
SHITTO exactly.
i was doing well during the sliding with socks but when we're with boots and on the grass,bloody toot i cant slide.
sucks much :\

Saturday,today!
whole day rot at home read,eat,sleep,tv,now blogging and chatting.
cant wait for 28 :D
adioz.

Dearest Mr Bestfriend,Mr Chocolate Stealer,Mr Big Bully,Mr Kick Ass,Mr Stubborn Chicken,
i cant help it but to shed another tear for you.
i cant bottle these feelings any longer dear bestfriend.
i cant force myself to hate or dislike you because
deep down inside my heart i know that you're the one i seriously need.
i thought you once said you'll always be there for me when i desperately in need.
and i thougt you once said you'll stay with me throught thick and thin.
you,my dear bestfriend used to be the first to congratulate me for m achievement.
and you my dear bestfriend used to cheer me up whenever i'm down or pissed.
and you my dear bestfried loves to steal my chocolates.
boy,i miss those moments when we were extremely close.
never fail not to chat with each other since year 2007.
and i still remember the very first time i noticed you in the school hall.
and i still remember those promises we made.
and i still remember that you're the guy i waited for nearly 2years.
i knew we wont be together but i never expect anything much from you-
what ive wanted was just a pure,sincere friendship.
indeed,you gave me that but what a waste,we're drifting apart now dear bestfriend.
i told my girls you're different from others i told them you're not like other jerks.
until that one particular day,i called you one.
you dont know how is it like to be in my shoes,stop saying you understand my situation coz you dont!get it?you dont ):
and you dont even remember our deal made.
i never get into love anymore not because i want you but because i am honest and loyal to our friendship.
i fulfill my promise,how about you dear bestfriend?
its that easy for you to accept your ex back just like that.
and yes dear bestfriend,ive moved on.
but what really made me hurt extremely bad is because i dont see the old you anymore.
where are your sweet messages asking if i'm alright?
i;m not jealous at all seeing you with her.but terribly hurt.
when you're with her,you treat me a if i'm just the wall.
oh,now even when you're not with her,you treat me jus the same.

Dear bestfriend,i really really hate to say this but i cant help it ,
i miss you.
i miss us.
i miss our beautiful friendship.

Alright kiddos,you may,i mean,you SHOULD just ignore thee previous post.
frankly speaking,i am in a good mood. NOT!
idk why oh why must i have thee unpredictable moodswings, fuck it.fuck it.
in the past,when i'm having moodswings,vomitting vulgar words used to cure,used to.
but now?nothing seems to be rrrright :(

HA.HA.Ha.
fuck it.tmr will be the last day of school and i wanna be the happiest siglapian separating w my classmates ):
but according to Ms W,most of us will still be in the same class nxt year.
what a relief or relieved ? whtever :D
and tmr im getting prize.
HAHAHA,sexcited or smtg?but but i'm over the moon when Mrs M talked to me just now morning.
Gee,i kind of miss 1E2 kecoh(s) too :(

I was in a bad mood just now (infact i still am) but did smile looking at past pictures.
i am of course,too lazy to upload it.
but i favourited some esp the ones during MUAR TRIP 2008.
even though,it brings back some sort of bitter moments fo me ):
haziqhatta,iseriouslymisstalkingtoyou

020808.the day when i finally felt the bond between 2e1 :D
when alot of rumoured 'lvestories' matchmaking stuffs and of course the day when i start bonding with vanessa & dawnna.
even though we always bitched about each other in the past and ever hated one another,i am lucky to have known beautiful byotch like you girls!haha,kidding.
but seriously,you girls taught me not to judge people by the way they act.
even though first impression is ultimately important,dont straight away judge them.
get to know them,they're nice people.
i will miss you girls (:

2E1 rreally taught me to love more and hate less.
in the beginnin i effing hated most of my classmates,but as time flies.
i recognize the hidden beautiful stuff in each of you [:
2E1 may be the rascals and the troublemakers among the sec 2 express but i thanked you guys for the great and most wonderful time throughout 2008
:D
lovelovelove.

&besides friends from 2e1,i also miss BRACKETS (:
i still rmbr the outing to VIVO,my birthday and i missed the one during Ama's birthday!
thank you girls for the sweeeeetest times,loved[:

not to forget,in 2008 is the year when i actively participates in soccer whereabout.
LOL.
and annah,i am sure we really enjoyed our fun times watching them kicking balls.soccer balls.ehem!
hahaha:D
and all the crush crash stuffssssssss.aw,missed!
:]

the two things i badly want before 2008 ends are:

• talk to haziq and be friends like how we used to be
• make myself believe that shiddiq and i are stil bestfriends

Labels: 2008

Damn it damn it damn it

to skip cca for hsm or not ?!
damn it damn it.
sighssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

this is fucking irritating.
cant catch it on sat tix cost x.
watch it on friday at 2pm at e-hub but ader cca!
fuck itttt.

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW :B

have you ever wonder why are we drifting apart dear friend?

Aha!i superlves today :DDDD
&the best dangs thing is that i get to meet MRS GOH (!!!)
alright,sexcited enuf?hahah!
honestly she look kind of diff,prettier luh!even Bernard agrees!haha.
"finally you know fashion" kay lol (:

i super fugging lve the singapore bienalle or whatnots 'lle' !
art pieces there were effing coooooooooooool :]
ive got not much photos taken and i am toooo lazy to upload. (nothing new huh?)
:D

SOFTBALL TRAINING CRAPS ! ):
now training getting more shittier curze of the 'penalties' stuffsszxzxz.
and oh,my fcuking stamina just not working today
hehh .
rrrrrrun babyyy rrrunnnn ~!

aku nampak kau beh aku jeling kau beh aku salam mataer kau den aku tanyer kau 2E3 dah keluar blom.beh aku tak senyum pat kau and aku tak suker kau

i wonder,why do people strikeout even though they know readers will surel read it?
heh.

Goooodnight

Labels: happy birthday :D

To fall in love our to lose evrything out

yeah yeah here i go again blogging.
sorry uh,cant help it i still need to hunt for interesting novels so i will blog less
:D

ehyk,i think Taylor Swift is effing gorgeous.
she's one sweet pretty lady huh?
haha,dangs it i'm stilll strrrraight kay!
:D

kay uh.i gotta pack up my stuffs for softball tmr.
bloodyytooot.
:D

Dangs it,lucky my sis told me! :DDDDDD

yey,aku happy giler barbie~!
i told sister that ibu told me we CONFIRMED shifting to Bukit Panjang
&ive got no choice but to transfer schooooool.
ytd i was already pulling a dangs long face,even till this morning.
ibu can't stop asking me which school i want to transfer to.
i just kept quiet.

hah!lucky,im clever enuff not to be pranked ehys.
lucky enuff ive not changed school.
because sis told me that ibu was just pranking me,we're still shifting to wdlands area and the best thang is that its nearer to interchange!€
wuu la kans :DDD

SO THESE MEANS.
i stil can see you.
still can see you
still can see you
still can see you

IMAH,SO MUCH OF BID GOODBYE.hahaha!
:D
k bye.

Mummy,i dont want to.

thanks mahirah darling,for accompanying me just now ;D
had fun spending my sunday w you!
gee.
wait till i get more more money,we go shopping together again aye~!
lve(:

and fugshits.
ive got a sadstory to tell
nope,im not goinna tell.
go find out yourself.
{something gotta do w MEMEMEMEMEME ONLY.}

MARCUS TANG,STOP SPAMMING :D

Finally,im happy today :DDDDDDDDDDDD

Van,things are okay now between me and them .
the girls accept my apology and they apologise too. so yeah.
and oh,im sorry once again .

the most happiest thing happening right now is that
i seriously have moved on.
like finally
no more buts or waits !

&im in love with this cute guy [:
(lve)

Jalan raya w mt classmates yesterday had a lot of lil misunderstandings.
damn it la kan,everyone wants to be happy but turn out horrible. (for some)
so sumer binget ngn each other.
aku pon binget ngn diri sendiri.
k now im apologising to everybody yg jalan raya semalam esp Fifit,Tina,Mira,Annah,Hanis.
and laen2 k.
up to you guys to accept the apology or norrrt.
what i know,ini sincere apology.
k no more hard feelings,but i understand sumer maseh binget.
aku pon.
:\

Mr bestfriend,
ive moved on.
so goooodyeee kay
&last long!
:D

Labels: very sorry

why am i wasting my tears on you shiddiq?
goodbye.

please,i wanna be happy tomorrow.

I LOVE TODAY MORE THAN YESTERDAY

big big thanks to Aciiiiiiiiiik♥
for making my day today!

so ive watched House Bunny just now (:
super nice and funny and somewhat touching.
i laugh alot today!
i like.

&oh,ive learned two new words from aciik;
"satsat" and "legong"

kay,i like meeting aciik but i dont like walking w him!
hahaha.
he's like one mat rep -.- and of course wdlands kan bersepah mat-mats sumer stare aciik semacam.
friggggig scared luh ehyy nuurul!
next time must meet somwhere else.
chinatown uh aciik?
hahaha!

Next movie HSM3!!!
aciik blanjaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D

kay i lve lve lve lve Aciik♥

Labels: Aciik♥

Because things happened for a reason

I lve my life.
I lve myself.
I lve today.

♥

but still, i dislike today because according to my schedule (idk if its spelled correctly?) i am supposed to meet my a-year-older-than-me-sexy-twin today!
but her neck hurts -.o
haha,get well soon bby,we'll meet on monday okay?
:D

i have to get out from the house to keep my mind busy so i went out alone to the library at civic and browse for books.
next headed to Starbucks and meet my lvelvelve Mr Caramel (:
like finallyyyy!!
met mummy aferwards and went to look for her bag.
instead,i bougt myself a dresss. (hahhh,duit rayer uh beb)
its cheaaap laaa,cost 11.90
see,i go for cheapp things (hush)
and seriously need a new pair of palm shoes w/o heels (!!)
*insert face 'my birrthday coming'*
haaha!

went home and sis asked me to tag along w her go jalan rayaaaa.
m effing tired but like i said,i need to keep myself busy (:
HIDIR SUPER IRRITATING laaa,nothing new!
but i lve today cause i neber crrry
:B

im tirrrred and m sexcited for tmrrrw!
m meeting aciik handsomeee!
♥
hahaha :D
lveslves.

Goodnight.

like the plaster...

yesterday was horrible.
damn,damn effing horrible.
thanks uh ehy...

IM SO SICK THAT I FEEL LIKE VOMITTING CURZE IM LISTENING TO MUSIC
shit happens.

Why you little...

why must it be his name ehy?is it so obvious that i am referring to him?I guess.
seriously,exams are over now and my mind is totally not into studies already,duh i need a break too kay.
and yes i did studies for the exams so of course i deserve a break.whtever.
now that my mind not as busy as before,the only thing im thinking about now is
our friendship.yes,my friendship with him.
i'm not that dumb you see,i already smell something fishy a month ago.
or maybe two or three weeks back.
we seems to drfit bit by bit and only text each other for two days.
NOW that we sort of 'contacted back' i still dont feel it,you knw wht im talking about?
bleah,who cares by the way?
nevermind,i'm just typing for the sake of letting it out.
i thought you werent the same as other guys. or should i say jerks.
im not directly saying that you are one of them now but it just breaks my heart into gazillion pieces when i heard about it.
why is there such thing called promise if no one bother to keep it?
thinking back,its dumb of me too to actually belive that I WILL FIND THE PERFCT GUY.
trust me,you wont.no,seriously.trust me.
even when you're married,your husband may not be the perfecctto for you.
you will of course find someone else who is better than your husband but of course laa you wont run away with that guy.
DO YOU GET WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY HERE?
*dont you dare answer,nor or whatever*
blacksheep.
Alright,honestly im extremely disappointed is of course not because of not getting you but its because you broke the deal.
as a friend,as a best friend(if i'm still one) i should be happy for you.
but i never knew that your happiness make me cry

whats love w/o you ?

Labels: promises are meant to be broken

Aha!I know you miss me *grins*
and i'm back humans after tiring myself out at the sets w my beloved husband Zac.
everything turns out to be great there.
we had a blast almost everday with the crew and all.
kenny's sweeeeeet(:
before the farewell,he gave each and every one of us our photographs from our first HSM1 auditio to HSM3.
awww.
i am already missing creating chaos with Ash,Monique and of coure Lucas!
...

exams are done.yeaaap.
d o n e !
oh well,i dont wish to talk about how well i can cope with the papers.
wha concern me the most now is not to fail english and overall.
art paper just now was OKAY.
im proud of my work.hah,its been a long time since those words come out from myself.
anyways,Mdm Nasyitah choosed a few students from E1 and E2 to perform Gamelan on this ig tuesdaaaaay.
i'm oh so very sexcited :D but wait,i 'm nervous because i always screw up during performances.
hehhhhh.
andmonday,we have to come back to school to rehearse.
ahh coool :]

life has been grrrrr.eat.
yeah,most of the time im throwing my temper around and eat non stop to releaase stress.
maybe im 44kg now?haha.oh dont ask me about my height.
short as everr -.-"

ive got plenty time now to enjoy myself and i cant wait to keep myself busy.
HSM3 cming bby and im so goinna catch it like duhhh.
and oh of course the first para i was just shitting on you,readers .
Gee,dont you miss my craps and nonsense?
*wait,dont answer-.-*

classmates oh classmatesssssss.
i sort of miss shafiy and haziq.
aha,here i go again huh?
i just miss talking to them but yeah whtevr,i hope next year i'll stil be their friends.
haziq?not so surrrrre.

Maybe i'm letting go but i cant afford to;
what would you do if the person you trust the most tell your friends your deepest darkest secret?
what would you do if the person you hate the most starts being nice to you?
what would you do if your bestest friend betray you?
and lastly,
what would you do if the person you love the most is forgetting you?
but my heart says 'just wait and follow the flow'

Labels: and it hurts