No,i'm not goinna be your sweeeeetest girl anymore

So,he went online.He never say anything at all. yeay bby,greaaaat isn't it?yes.very fantastic(:
ohmy.youdonthaveanyideahowhurtfuliam.
Assignments :

Lit
Glossary-Done
Character Descriptions-Done
Chapter Summaries-Done
Diary-On the way yo!*grins*

Eng
Errrrrrrrr.you think?hahah!

Maths
Two more babyyyy.

Geog
Errrrrrrr.*shakee heaaad*(:

Kayy,thats all bby.whoooh,im so happpyyyy.-NOT)":

thank you eh bestfriend:)

Labels: im nt goinna wait any longer.

Shafiy,get well soon ayye.Ily dude(:

Help.
i cant take this any longer.
i wanna go back to school like a.s.a.p!!!
but i dont wanna see their faces.
i just wanna sit inside the classroom and study.
lol.
rotting at home w tons of assignments just killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
bleargh-.o
k,i'm offf.

shit.they're fighting again )':

I dont think im willing to wait anymore,thank you for everything

Im moving on.
Jealous?haha.whatever:D
im faking all this smiles and all this ':D' shiats.
im in a no mood fo loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for a bestf anymore.
&honestly,from now on i treat all of you just like my close friends.
thanks uhhh ehy:D
fakeeee human beings pretend to be so nice to me.
thank you very much.

Gosh.i cant help it.
uh huh,there goes another tear i wasted on YOU.
fuck off.fuck off.fuck off.fuck off.
and to you slutface-you're such an idiot.
:D
k im sorry.thats not very nice to say.
seriously-im sorry.
)':


SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
lets burst into tears.
will you cry w me?
)":

Labels: why am i still waiting for you?stupid.

I'm not paid to love you-but you seems like the one getting paid.Ouch that hurts

am i just too sensitive or maybe its just you who're not aware of what's happening between us.
i remembered you said thiswont happen again.
care enuff to explain what is this?
why oh why i never learned from my mistake?at the end of the day its still you
i'm goinna look for.
how bout you,my dear bestfriend?
High hopes simply sucks bigtime

ive got no moood at all to do my assignments.suddenly the old me has appeared again-
i dont wish to have all this done the like the old times.
i dont have to procastinate.
& i musnt.
but when i tried my best to focus-i failed.
and what he said yesterday really hurts me bigtime.
i delete your messages.
i delete them after keeping for almost 5 months.
how can i make you realise that i treasure you more than anything else?
tell me how.
tell me now.
**********



♥çĦїßãî partner;imissyousomuch((:
&my other 2E1 monkeys:D

Labels: you think im goinna be jealous-fuck off.

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."-Emerson, Ralph Waldo

Assignments really driving me nuts. its like gg to shopping ya'know. i have so many varities to choose from and pick one and instead of putting it on like how we put on our clothes-ive to complete those assignments.*saaaaaad*

Ive gathered all the unfamiliar words from the Animal Farm-next i'll be busy w my dictionary finding the meanings of those words.So,for this assignment its half-completed &i'm on time!
shaaabooyeyyy~
Next up will be the chapter summarries which ive only completed TWO.how pathetic is that?
tsk:(
tomorrow im gg out to study i guess and off to softball training-pray hard tmr's gg rain
hehh:D
i think im goinna stop literature-ing now-&back to geography later onnnnnn.
tomorrow continue with lit and maybe Maths?
[:
ive to complete half of my assignments before 5th June!

checklist:

Animal Farm-
Glossary half-completed.
Chapter summaries-8 more to go.
Characther Description- oh shit.i forget about thisssss -.o
Diary-after 5TH JUNE (save e best for e last.hoho )

Geog-
Read chapter 7-10.
ARTICLESSSSS!OMGeeOMGee!
Individual research-no prob!hoho

Maths-
2 more assignments to goooooooo.yey!

English-
three more assignments plus book review -.o

AM I DONE,AM I DONE?
:DDDDDDDDDDD/

k,bye fellows.

tell me i'm your bestest girlfriend still-

Labels: take a bow [:

Ohmy,i felt terribly guilty. Nurul Syafiqah Bte Omar,if you're reading this-i'm sorry for not wishing you on your birthday babe,i lost your no.Can you puhhhlease text me your no.? :\
HAPPY BELATED 14TH BIRTHDAY GIRL-you always rock my world babeee(:

So today had softball training.It was raining and i was praying that training goinna be cancelled as i had absolutely zero.zerozero energy for training :(
we had indoor training in the hall -.o &oh great,most of the time we were running aka hopping and skipping like bunch of monkeys :D
but i did enjoyed today's training esp.the exercise bout rotating w the ball.or whatever you call it:D

Tomorrow,i'm goinna be busy w Geography. read textbook,make notes,and i have to work on the Animal Farm assignments -.-
the whole day at homeeeeeee or maybe im gg to study alone in the library ((:
ive got nuttingg much to post and oh,i might nt gg to go online that often anytg just tag here alright?:D or better still-texttt memememe :D
Okay kids,time for bed STUDYYY -.-
ciao.

"Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.'
Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.''
♥

Hi earthlings.today is another boring day and i reckon that everyday starting from today will be a boring day 'cept the days im gg for Softball practice:)
practice will start this Wednesday-i cant wait to get out from this house but i cant bear the heat later on in the field -.o get ready to get attack by spinning rollercoaster headaches :

Completed my english online assignment just now and did only two chapters summaries for Animal Farm. Yesterday night did 2 maths online assignment and finished reading the Animal Farm novel:)&did only 2 chapter summaries.hehh[:
Butttttttt,still i have lots more assignments to do :

• 3 more English online assignments + one book review
• 2 more Maths online assingments + maths practice paper one
• 8 more Animal Farm chapter summaries
• 11 character descriptions for the 11 animals.(arghhhhh)
• Produce a diary base on the character choosen-Animal Farm.(Old Major maybe?)
• Glossary of unfamiliar words&phrases-Animal Farm.
• Read Geog textbook chapter 6-10
• 10 Geog articles about Global Warming&Pollution(noooooo.i hate this :\ )
• 5 unfamiliar words and write own comments for each article ^ 'phaar!
• 2 individual research about anytg related to Geog(yeyyyy[: )
• AND I THINK THATS ALL? :DD

Ive gotta to complete all this before the 3rd week of June Holidays.Ohh,study group anyoneeee?

Wednesday's & Friday's morningggggggg.

:)

What i needed the most was to love and to be loved

New skin again. i dislike the phrase 'going home' in this skin but i love the colours.Simple but very fresh bright bunch of colours :D
im bored of dull/simple skins already.

Yesterday was just basically rotting at home,read Animal Farm and did the June Holiday Study Time Table. aha,smangats kan?but i think its fo my own benefit since ive always procastinate my assignments(: I can't wait to finish up my assignments and enjoy my holiday.results tells me that i can only enjoy a week of the june holidays.So maybe,i'll be out only for study-groups not for funnnnnnn :\

Busy doing my work yesterday mom keep on asking me questions,like i said after the meet parent session,i don't like to talk to my family members since i prefer keeping my mouth shut cause im very sure that once i start talking there will be an argument between me and mum.
So i just kept quiet and say nothing much yesterday.She went on asking me questions,yet again.I easily get irritated but really-yesterday i was in a reaaaaaaaaal bad mood. i was practising my maths and ive put my status BUSY in MSN and even warned the contacts NOT TO DISTURB.
Still,there are morons who dont understand english & continue disturbing me and nudge me non-stop. Please,please dont get to my nerves. i just ignore but once i cant take it,i'll just vomit all the nasty things you dont wish to hear from me .
i told mum that i dont wanna talk . but because i was in a bad mood i screwed up and told her in some sort of rude manner. and her last few words were
" k la,adik takyah cakap ngn ibu lagi. jgn tanyer ibu aper-aper,jgn bebual pon ngn ibu"
she said not to talk to her anymore,dont ask her anything anymore.
Best ehy?that really adds in plusplus points to my bad moooooooooood -.-
till now we're not talking.
Ughhhhhhhhh!

I gotta blame myself for what happened. but really,whoever who nudge me yesterday and irritates me non-stop, DONT THINK IM GOINNA CHAT W YOU PPL ANYMORE.
cause you people just dont understand simple English like :
-I'm busy,please don't disturb.

Idiotic human beings.

Labels: dont try to seek for my attention by doing all this, it makes me hate you even MORE.

Cuz i'm in a no mood fo llove.

Uh huhh.idk why am i posting this but this is just come straight to my mind.its been almost two months not involving in any rlationships.Maybe i prefer staying single cuz it rocks like woaar.
at the same time i want to but to think again,better not.Results seems to be better when i'm single!ahaha -.o
Plus plus i am still waiting for the perfect time and the almost-perfect guy :)
and right nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww-
i'm not only in a no mood fo love,but i'm in a no mood to chat w earthlings too:\
SO PLEASE.DONT CHAT W ME CUZ I'LL ONLY CHAT W THE PEOPLE I HAVE TO.
buzz off morons.
and YOU-dont be irritating please.
*
I miss Aciikkkkkkkk.
I miss bbygirls already plus classmatess
:\
i've always dislike holidays-
A L WA YS .

Labels: its irritating., stop it

Mr Bestfriend is back-i love you.

hi kids!sorry for not updating yesterday-too busy plus too tired.alright,lets begin w yesterday stuffs-whoooooooooosh~

So yesterday was the Meet the Parents session.mom came to school. Mrs G discussed more about my health than my results -.o Hahhaa. she kept complaining that i have to eat and tell my mom NOT TO FORCE WHAT I NEED TO EAT. cause sometimes i just eat the food that i want
:D
Mom brought up the issue regarding shifting school.Mrs G nearly cried,me too )':
she said she hate to see me leave and let my mom think again.
so you kids thing i'm gg to stay or leaveeeee???
)':
Results?aha. not that bad and not that good,so-so.Okay here's my results :

English-C5
Malay-B3
Maths-F9
Science-B3
Geography-B4
History-C5
Literature-B3
L1R4-15
L1R5-19
-Class position 1. Level position 54.
Remarks- "Syafiqah communicates confidently with superiors and peers and is able to rally people with her persuasive ideas.She is able to lead by example and commands the respect of her peers.As a member of the newly formed softball team,she has brought honour to the school through discipline and teamwork. A well-disciplined,trustworthy and responsible leader she is committed to doing her best and is not easily discouraged by setback. A pleasant and diligent class manager who is cheerful and friendly,she has developed a strong working rapport with all."

Maths results was really really disappointing-but i know i will and i MUST do better for EOY :DDD
mom?to be honest she didnt even congratulate me or praise or such thing.nevermind,like i said-i'm doing well for my studies is because i wanna make my teachers proud:)
this june holidays i have alot,no,ALOTTTTTTTTTTTT of assignments. andddd its online work!
phaaaaar-/-
so thats all for Thursday!

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR TERM TWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :DDDDD
haha!yeah bby,holidays are hereeee.hoho!last day just now was a gooooood ending for the term.
i'm sure to miss my cute and cheecky monkeys[:
during the free period}history-.-{the whole class transformed to an Animal Farm!hahaha.
but thanks to Joel and Wen Siew for helping.
and my cutipie Yaseen,dont and NEVER LET ANYONE BULLY YOU OK LOVE?
:DD
kesiaaan laa sayer ngok awak )':
-
i love today.i love my classmates alot.haha
OHHHHHH!
I SAW NINI HERLENA AND HADINA AND HUDA JUST NOWWWWW YO[:
you girls are super adorableeeee
:D

Okay kids,enough for now.
i am already missing their monkey buisnesssssss.
doooooom!

Labels: juneeeeeeeeee holidayssss yoo:D

God,please help me to be strong always.Guide me to the correct path-protect me from any harms.Ya Allah,berikanla kekuatan buat hambaMU ini.

whats w me?not only my close friends aware of my behaviour but classmates too.they say i'm becoming more quiet and dont wish to talk to them.I'm sorry guys-not my intention to avoid any of you but i just dont feel like talking.Really.

anyways,just now watch Congkak w Santezs,Rahimah&Mahirah. fun though shouting here and there[: i dont wish to elaborate more about the movie,wanna know go and watch oky?:]
&oh,thanks girlfeys for the fun times.i really enjoy today!
thank you<3>

i wanna cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
ayah and makbu,thank you very much for the messages. i'm glad that you're proud of my achievement. mom?well lets just see what she'll comment during tmr parents meeting.
-.o

Ive gtg.not in e mood.too tired to type.
I love you girls.
&akkw-ily:)

Labels: where are you mr bestfriend?

Mom,i think its better if you dont need to attend my the parent's meeting session.
You dont need to take a half day off or whatsoever shit!
i dont know what kind of results will you appreciate?i think ive did my very best for this year MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS. but do you even care about my grades and stuff?
i'm very disappointed in you mum.
very,very disappointed.
&thanks to my girlfys who always support me and give me encouragements to keep on focusing in my studies. i love you all.
Mum,i want the old you back. the Mum who will be very proud of her daughter even is she just pass any maths quiz or other subjects test.
but you're not the 'ibu' i used to know.
Now,my first priority to do well in my studies is NOT to make any of my family members proud since they dont even care.
but now,i want to to just proof to myself i can do better than this. I can .
I don't think this will be something that i can forgive and forget mum.
i'm very disappointed in you...
but i still love you ibu.
i do,can you hear this soft voice whispering?
i love you ibu.
i love you...

Sometimes i wished that you were not my bestfriend.Than,we'll get to know each other better and your love towards me wont be equal to a love for a closefriend. But,if we were strangers at the first place i dont think i will be able to smile and laugh everyday till today.Cause,your existance in my life meant so much to me. you never fail to make me smile everyday. And because you are my bestfriend,you give me hope to continue living this fcuking life of mine. I'm thankful that we are meant to be the best of friends.
But have you ever thought of this feelings killing me?every now and then,i'm just whispering to myself-
love is pure and kind,it is never jealous.
However,i failed to control my own emotions.you got me into so much misery. No,its not you.
but its me,myself who put myself in this situation. and oh,why must i even fall in love w you at the very start? it's so stupid. Very. all this while ive been living in my own fantasy world. dreaming about getting w you. Ive tried forgetting you and start having a crush on other guys cause they say a new love can heal a broken heart. Unfortunately,not all broken heart can be healed just by a sincere love from a total stranger...
You've got everything that i wanted from a guy.In you,i believe the word perfect do exist.But at times when your action hurt me,i lost control.I feel like hating you and ignoring you will be the best solutions.Its true like youve said, i cant resist you. Not even a single second.
whenever we get into fights and starts irritates each other and when you mention you wanna find a replacement of me-i cant describe the pain. feels like you stabbed my heart countless times.I thought,i wil never forgive you for doing that. for playing such a stupid joke on me..
but when you text me to apologise,my heart melt right away.I forced myself not to reply and keeps my hand off the phone..I failed.
I am sure you're aware how much i love you. but the only thing you were not aware of that my love for you may be more than just bestfriends. i dont need you to know what's my real feelings are. and i never have any intentions to ruin your rlationship although it makes me feel suckish.
like a total loser,seeing the guy i love the most happily in love w someone else.
and i never thought I'd cry to see you happy.its just weird isnt it?
but trust me,i will never ever ever ruin your relationship. i promise not to confess anymore.
&i'll just bottle this feelings to myself.
i promise Mr Bestfriend.
&i hope you'll last long w her okay?((:

Labels: i dont mind so long as you are happy i will try my best to hide this disappointments.Ily Mr Bestfriend.

I think ive changed. i'm becoming more quiet nowdays and i hate people asking me questions. I prefer to appear offline and dislike anyone chatting w me except for some. Thanks Tinaa and Maheraaah for today. you girls really make me back to chatting mood [:
I can't wait for Wednesday like seriously~
oh wheeeee[:

Watched Hana Yori Dango. very nice drama series,thanks to Mahirah for recommending it to me yow[: ilyyyyy luh huns.
so i guess im back to watch it later on?
ive got alot to post actuallly but im realllllly not in e mood to talk about anyone.
esp him.
yes him.

GoooodNight earhtlings.
oh!i love Aciiiiiiiiiiiik to bits and pieces :]

I was wrong.It doesnt seems to be a good news for me.Maybe he needs time-or maybe I need some time to think about this.Falling in love is not an easy thing especially w your _______.?
I think i'm through w this.I'll just wait and see.
wait.
and.
see.

I'm dying to ask you this question

Changed to a new skin again. the links area looks very messy and i dont have any idea how to clean it up. I'll just leave it that way i guess (:
So yesterday wasn't that bad after talking otf with Annaaah dearest!&Tinaa made me smile too.
not to forget Michelle twinnie too. She went to give me a kiss wink through MSN. thats so sweeet of you hunneyh!thank you again.Chatted otf with Annaaah for quite some time,nearly three or four hours otf. it seems that we both are going through the same thing right now.
I'm confuse myself either to stay or just move on w/o someone like him.
day by day its killing me. there's so many questions pondering inside my head but none were answered . I have no guts to ask him afraid if it'll affect our friendship.
Annaah,it seems that both of us were wrong. of course his girlfy miss him more than i missed him.
&im not surprised if he miss his girlfy more- i'm just his closest ms.besfriend-
what do you expect from him? :\
Oh.Thanks to Nazmi too for accompanying me the whole night yesterday chatting w me.
i had so much fun chatting w him (: He really made my day ystd [:
Last long okayy kawan?i miss you and other jyps dudes too.
esp Umarrrrrrrr )':

He'll reach Singapore tonight.
i wanna run away from here. i want to avoid all my friends.
but running away wont helps. instead it'll iinvite more problems in my life-I'm so sick thinking about all this. I want to change the whole me.
why cant i be like other ordinary girls?why can't i just move on w/o him?
why must my life depend thoroughly on him?
and why must i fall for ______.?
Idk.
Idk.

Don't i deserve to be happy ? i'm just 14. not 40 yet .
and why must i be so young to think about all this shits?
why do things like this bother me so much?
I'm moodless now.
feeling very useless.
you may not understand why am i acting this way bestf.because when i used to be with Apit,my love towards you never changed a single bit. Instead it grows even more...
please-
tell me you need me.
for once.

Its not easy seeing the person you love is now belong to somebody else

Labels: why should i?

Mr Choc Stealer,come home quick

Down with fever and stomach flu.
not in e mood at all.
and tmr is Saturday!Mr Choc Stealer will be bacccccck,like yey!
well,only that piece of news cheer me up.
He'll be home soon.
He'll go online soon.
He'll text me soon.
Imy.

Cause i never love someone whole-heartedly.

what am i to you?an aeroplane paper freak?!

i had enough. i think its not worth being nice to someone like you. why must you treat me this way?only call or sms me IF you have no one else to talk to.Now that youve got to know her,im glad you did find a replacement of me. why cant you use the brain God gave you to THINK ?
what a pity,you are already coming to 16 years old but fail to appreciate people.
maybe thats what you really are.
and thank you so much for treating me like a freak. im not desperate for your love&dont you compare me with the girls you know. im not like them AT ALL.
you are just so idiotic?okay?
im not jealous for sure but why cant you appreciate me after everything ive did for you?
picking up your calls even though im tired.
replying to your msg even though i know you only msg bcoz of boredom.
this is final upper sec boy-
i will make you feel like what im feeling right now.
after all this tears are not worth to cry for someone like you-moron.
So just fuck off from my life.

/thank you Aciik,Tina,Feeefit&Maheeeeraaaah.Iloveyou'all.
Mr Bestf,i need you now. pleaseee )":

Labels: just wait and see fcuker.

Im not ready-

Ugh.Darn it,i just burn five bucks at KFC for late lunch just now. wth -.o
it seems that by the end of this week i left with zero bucks!&Imah said we're gg to watch movie this Wed?phaar.Nevermind,this is the time to dig my savings out. [:

School was okay. Slacked most of the time except fo Maths . Learned basic stuffs bout handling the video cam.during English period.Had fun zooming at various monkeys in class :D
watched movie during MT class &Qeeeem was being absolutely irritating saying that "brad pitt will be home this friday" fuggerzxzx -.-"
but thanks anyway fo the tissue :D hahaah.
tomorrow there's an outing to the museum which i'm not looking forward at all
since the best excursion mate,Shafiy not here ):
its oky,i hope Anna coming tmr!

Idk if i love him like i used to. but whatever this feelings im facing,i will try my very best not to get into rlationship again. Coz i know,this feelings will soon fades away?and i dont want to hurt him for the second time. it just sucks big time for him,been there (:
MQ?uhmm,a crush maybe?whatever. I still have to work my ass off for EOY exams.
Mid Year results doesnt seems to be satisfying although i only get to know my results for Sci and Geog.
uh well-for the results,i'll post it when ive got back all the results for each subjects.
Probably by tomorrow i'll get back all my exam scripts backkk.yeayy bbyy!
i hope History wont disppoint me like how im disappointed in my Geog )':

Abel make me laugh today ! (:
such a cheecky guy luhh him.
-
Alright kids-till here.
imissyou

Labels: just dont care-

I miss him even before he leaves

Early in e morning when i'm on my way to class i already saw Khidhir waving at me.
hahahah :D
&i went to take class file at the office-mr bestfrnd was there. i wanna break down right there at that very moment but i hold back my tears and ran up to classroom. :\
Since Mrs G not around first two periods seems were relieved by relief teachers whom idk whats their name -.o
Received a msg from Mr Bestfrnd!omgeee,im sooooo glad and speechless,i almost cried.haha,kan anna?lol:D

"Syaaff!Hehh.Awak jager diri awak baek baek kae kat spore.Hee.Saya tk pegi lamer sngt laa. 4 hari ajer. Ok laa. Takecare tauu wak. Sayaaaaang syaaff (:"

Ahhh,i miss him like fugg already now.seriously,and how can i survive next year?tsk )':
I misssssssssssssssssss you already Mr Bestfriend !!!!
k,stop it syaaff.

Ohhh,will you just stop staring at me like as if i owe you any money ?
pleasee laa,i dont even bother about you anymore right now.
you already got yourself a new boyfriend and i guess if i were to like him* you dont have to interfere anymore.
but in case you are so curious still,me and him* are just bestfriends. Okay?
sluutttttttttttttttttttt -.o

Anna,takecare k lovve?
eat your medcine and rest well .
:D ilyyyy hunn.

Labels: sayang awak jugak (:

Sorry Aqilah

I screwed up today like hell lot.
isuckbigtime.Right?
thanks to double S who makes me smile wideeeeeeee today.
imsogoinnamissyouboth.
<3>

Labels: 2xsh

Always knew that when we said goodbye,
It wouldn't last forever,
Always thought that I'd run into you,
And we'd get back together...
Now you're here just like I imagined,
But never once did it cross my mind that you could move on...

You've found someone,
It breaks my heart,
Cos you're so inlove...

Chorus 1
I wish that my touch made you smile just like that,
And I wish that I had you the way that she has.
Cos I still remember the love I left behind,
Oh I wish I was her and you wre mine.

Verse 2
I think somebody's tryna talk to me,
But I can't hear a word they're sayin,
All I can do is stare at you,
I don't even know why I'm stayin.
Nev er thought I'd cry to see you happy,
Its just I thought that your happiness was right here with me.

I know we're through,
Its no use,
Still I can't help but feel...
Chorus 1
Chorus 2
The way that you hold her I wish that was me,
There's no place on earth that I'd rather be.
Cos I still remember the love I left behind,
Oh I wish I was her and you were mine.
Bridge
I used to be right beside you.
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart.
I put our love up on a shelf,
But now its gone cos you belong to someone else...
Chorus 1
Chorus 2

Labels: a dedication for you.

Guys and soccer-i'll invent someting to separate them.hahah

Its almost midnight and im not asleep yet-the best thing is there's no school tomorrow.
but still,i have to wake up early in the morning to go to the bank.
yes-early in the morning like seven am.
Shitthang-.o

Currently chatting with Aidil and Shiddiq.like omgee.before this,waiting for their reply seems to be like forever.like duhh,they're watching soccer.
guys?hahaa.After ManU leading 2-0 Aidil went to chat with me.
but before that he said,PLS DO NOT DISTURB.
and now he mention:
YOU MAY DISTURB.
hahaha.wthhhh kan dier?and oh,he was being super frigg cute laaa wanna be my superhero!hahaa.
we were chatting and his pm was "I am scared"
den i asked what are he scared of.
he said its a secret -.o
And he went on asking why and said "if i'm scared you want to protect me?"
hahahaha.lmjo!
i then said how can i protect him when my ownself is unprotected!hahaa.
and Aidil said-
"u protect me-i protect u ah"(in mly laaa)
HAHHAA.cute righttt this tall guy?
loll.have fun at Malacca and Kl right you guys.
:DD

NOW.
doing ntg?waiting for the guy's reply.soccer,end soon pls?ahahha.

God,bring me somewhere else

How is it feels being the youngest?when everyone blames you for nothing?
he's being so unreasonable.i hate this,infacti hate him being like this. He's older than me,why can't he understand being at my place?-for once.
i had enough tolerating with him.Always get those shoutings from hell.
i hate you fucker.Why can't you just let me alone?i think you dont seem to understand the defination of the word respect
respect begets respect
you expect me to respect you when all this while youve been treating me like your dog?
i have patient but its running out.
I had enough.ENOUGH,from you.
fucker.

So,another boring day today.No plans,sister went out to study. I am so not looking forward for holidays!
can't imagine how does it feeels rotting at home.
i hope Softball will start very soooooooon-i miss softball like mad.
i wanna get my ass down to the field,run till idk where and shout as loud as i want.
Ahhh,i cant wait.
No school tomorrow &im not sure if the outing to Penin is still on.
phaar.im sort of not in the mood to go out but neither do i want to stay at home doing nothing 'cept getting scolded.
Just bring me somewhere else cause i can't stand it anymore.
fugg.

School will be damn frigging bored since toploves gg to Malacca&KL.
wtfishhhhh):
miss me k,korang?hahaa:DD
NOW.
i'm stuck inside my room sitting and typing and wiping away the tears away.
sometimes,i feel like i wanna get married right now.
get my own house,husband go to work &i'll just do my work at home.
nehh,housewife is such a bore.
better still i go to work!
Ohh,why think so far about getting married-the only way for me not to stay often in this house is just to make an effort to carry my bum and legs outtttt.

Maybe,watching movies or just chilling at Starbucks would be great.
Anyoneeee?

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i miss bloggingisnt it obvious?

exams over many peeps are online now.but none of them chatting with me except Anna.
i am still waiting for mr.bestf to go online. he said he's goinna online at around nine.
someone care to tell me what's the time now? :/
i think im having a bad day today. well,not today-at this moment.
&please,dont talk nonsense next time and please deliver what you wanna say clearly.
I understand simple English.

I cant think peacefully right now-almost everything i did today wasnt right.
i miss him alot. its been for more than a week since we last chatted. I text him almost everyday but he couldnt reply.(ppaid low) I feel wrong being the one always chasing him. Not only that-
i feel tired too.
tired of trying to get his attention that i really need a shoulder to lean on right no.
trying to make him realise that i still exist in this world.
How long must i live to do this?tell me.
he has a girlfriend now but is that an excuse for us to getting far apart each day?
obviously his girlfriend is way more important than me. Duh -.-
i understand-but arent we still friends,at least?
i really miss calling MR BESTFRIEND each night .
i really miss smiling at the computer screen reading what you type.
i really miss saying "I HATE YOU" although i meant the opposite.
Where have you been ? we do talk in school but i can feel its not us.
its not the real us.
Do i deserve someone better than you to be my bestfriend?
i dont think so-

Its almost ten now& i am still here waiting for you to go online.
when will it be ?
i will wait.
and
wait
and
wait.
imissyou

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Haha.first up i would like to apologise to Izyan if she's jealous seeing this! xD
omgeee. i am already missing them so badly-the two teachers. they are really my favvvvvv.
not only they make me love science&art but they really appreciate all our work .
kan Anna? lol.
ohh,i miss this day too. 11 APRIL 2008 :D
so many fun moments happened,right Anna?hhaha. sumer Anna ehh ?
k diam :D

I will really miss MR AMINUR'S LESSONS!! what i'll miss the most is teasing him!haha,poor Anna now that he's boyfriend is GONE . tsk ):
hahaha!chill kay Anna,no joke no funnn.
(whydoesmyenglishsucksinthispost?)
ignore that. i bet i just post for fun. to express how muchhhhhhhhhhhh i miss them both .
well Anna,now Mr Khairul is gone,there'll be no teacher to praise me and stuff yo!
sedeyhh):
i really hopeee to see them again in Siglap but by then i will...

Confirm science lessons will not be as fun as before . Anna and I will probably sleeeep during science lessons kan?and no more shouting and LOL in class.
i sure to miss Mr Aminur saying- "come again"
hahaah!too bad Anna,he's goinna get married next year.
i will try to get his email or what and i will make sure he invite us to his wedding.
if not i will FORCE him.
see-i can be very evil. Very,very evil :D
Is Mr Khairul married?haha. ehh dont think out of the box. im just asking..
he lived at Woodlands kan?see. i am the lucky one. who knows i might bump to him the next few days?!hahaha.
and oh! if we wanna meet Mr Aminur, me,rahimah and anna can go to Bedok Market every Saturday 8am!
:DDDD thats what Mr Aminur told us right?
ahhh damn men.
they're gone now.
and i am missing them already.

They both are really special teachers. Seriously !
goaaarhhh. k,too heartbroken to talk already.
hahahh. Its okay,i have Brad Pitt now.
tsk):
but we're drifting apart. nvm.
i am waiting for Zac to accept me again.
hah!right.
dreaaam big big k syaaff.

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Aren't you kind of glad i'm back blogging?hehh.

After 232435657181234 days not blogging(kay lied-.-) I'm finally back to blogging,like hurrah!
exams are over and as expected i screw up alot on Maths. i gotta admit that all papers are tough this year esp ENGLISH!Mrs Goh mention that only a handful of people pass.
This is so killing me,for real.Fail english is like failing all your subjects.
the only subjects that'll save me is my humanities. I don't really had a hard time completing the History paper except for the two SEQ. I jsut keep on writing aware that most of my content doesnt make any sense.Geography? question three if i'm not mistaken about the wet rice cultivation-ah yes,that one.My mind go exteremely blank cause i focused more on plantation agriculture and high tech farming. K,all the best ehyy Syaaff -.0
had my last paper just now,Literature. I don't write much for the Four Little Tigers and the unseen poetry is quite hard i guess. I badly badly wanted an A for Lit but after just now,i think i'm aiming for at least B4?

Felt relieved today since exams are over but what worries me the most is RESUTLS. i am expecting a real damn bad results with at least more than three subjects failed?idk why do i always screw up during exams.Its like all my efforts studying turn to ashes. Ive always panicked easily &as a result i cant think properly.
I'm not happy at all today-seriously.Although exams are over i jut felt relieved not happy
i am very extremely majorly hugely (wth) SAD.
Mr Aminur and Mr Khairul has left us today ):
today is their last day at Siglap and lucky i got to see both of them . Rahimah made a card for Mr Aminur and Shermeen and her bought chocs for him too and the card signed by MOST of our classmates.I did wrote something and printed our class photo .
He was really shocked to actually received it and he was speechless at the mom?haha.
too bad,we dont know that Mr Khairul will be gone too. but its okay,i still have his photo with meeeeee.*laughs*
Like seriously,i'm so goinna miss them.

Time flies very fast.Very,very fast. Now its already May-
i wanna make sure i capture all the happy moments in Siglap for all as i can .
i wanna make sure i will not forget any of them .
i have to make the right decision &
i know,this is the right one fo me.

I miss you.
ps:thanks to Maheeeeraaaah for finding a new skin fo me[:

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