thats it. i had enough of her attitude,seriously.
i dont understand what exactly i did that makes her show her frigging fcuking attitude towards me.
i dislike her very much.more than i dislike the colour pink -.-"
she's really pissing me off!!! i cant take in any longer.
ohmyy.ohmyy-
i had enough.

-Another bad day-sighs-

Labels: what kind of _____ are you?

I miss laughing out loud with the people around me-
And,i even scribbled Kakak Q & Shasha's name on a piece of paper. when i recalled back all our wackiest,most LOL moments and our hot hot crushes(:
I miss them.Really.

School?hah!i'mhavingmy****periodrightnow.
i don't really like talking to ppl when i'm having my period especially.
during mt sat one corner with Qeem and Yantao around me.
bhaaar.why must you go away when i needed you the most???
i almost give up-really.
i miss chatting with you.i miss laughing out loud with you.
and of course,i miss you very much.
):
screwed up for maths test just now.idk what's happening to me.
having period,everything seems so messy.
i don't enjoy my life anymore now.really-its so messy and not that fun anymore.
more frowns than smiles.
ahhhh.

Down with fever and headache again.
spinning and spinning non-stop.
stomach cramps hurts real frigging lots.
i'm so sick of missing ppl and so sick of myself.
so sick of my emotions that controling my life.so sick of the irritating people around me.
so sick of...
many more-
i'm just tired.
i need to rest.

Ps/Irwan,apology accepted.and this is my blog,i have the right to write anything i wish to.Okayy goodbye for now.

It took years to build up trust but seconds to destroy it-.

Irwan totally ruined my almost-wonderful-day today.Why,oh why must you do that Irwan?i dont wish to argue much about it,but i hope you know its your fault and you have to apologise.I may forgive but never will i forget.And may you feel the sense of guilt seeing me shed those tears just now.I'm not joking,whatever inside my school bag is obviously my property & YOU,don't have any right to take anything out.worst still,you read something thats very,very personal.No use locking the classroom if my own classmate checked my own beg.
sighs.

Hannah,ah yes.I miss you too hunneyh.Although we're in the same class we don't really share secrets that often anymore-like we used to.Well,i'm happy that you're always happy with your Santez Family(: but no worries,if you have any problems rolling i'm always here for you okay darl?&thank you so muchhh for making me feel better after that incident.
Honestly,i appreciate it alot. [:
iloveyouluhhhh.

Didnt talk much to people around me today.And Qeem,i'm sorry if i dont really act like i used to.was totally pissed off just now.So sorry.
ohh.
i also didnt say anything to mr.bestfriend. not even a Hi or a smile-at least.
tomorrow there's Mt.
i'm not looking forward to it.
whatever-i have to face it sooner or later.

Summarise my day in one word :
SUCKS.

Ouch.hurt again.
and now i am really in second place trying to get that second chance to be with you.
now that you belong to her,hope is what i cling onto.
i love you.
i really do.

i feel so suckish and shitty inside. i know there is an explanation behind this feelings all but i dare not to explain. what the hell am i thinking?idk and i will never know.
i can really feel that i dont know much about myself either.
and this sucks.
i hate being such a sensitive and emotional girl.
but-i cant help it. when this period of time comes,i get moodless easily.
very,very easily.

okay. i admit.
i'm jealous.
nope.
i'm very,

very,

jealous.

Get it now?
and jealousy kills.ouch,very.
seriously,i dont know whats my feelings towards him.
it cant just be friends neither can it be more than a friend.
okay,wth.
i dont know whats getting into me.
exams coming in twelve more days and i'm still here talking about all this love stuffs.
but really.
this really make me cry.
ever wonder why girls always mention your girlfriend name when chatting with you?
go figure out.

Labels: colour me jealous.

Alert,two weeks more to exams.
yeah.okay thank you.

School was fine.
not goinna update much
i love himmmmmmmm to the core of the maximum.oh yes(:
i dont think there's a need to publish this post but too bad i'm goinna press the enter button soon.
okay crap.

SOULS?hahahhahahahah.that's a total crap laa Irwan.Seriously!
and i love him just like a best friend. [:

Labels: how can i live without you ?

Cause i have a great day today![:
thank God i'm not goinna begin my post with a 'bad day' today.I'm absolutely happy about today & cant stop grinning! *grins* haha :D

Lessons were as per usual.I didnt manage to concentrate at first during the first few minutes of Maths but after waking up to reality and with the help of Rahimah & Yaseen,i regained my concentration back.Lol,and Imah,the answer is -5.3 not -5.8 hahaha :DDD
Lit was superb because my group managed to finish up all the five essays.Thank you to Safinah too for the last minute touch up [:
well Shafiy still sick and i hope he's coming tmr.
Reaally Syaaff?
No.
Yes.
Nope.
yeah,Nope i mean.
-.-

Had our NAPHA test or whatever you spelled it just now.
didnt feel any single bit of tired at all seeing him all along.
like he's the best best friend on earth.Hahaha.
and poor thing your hp lost ehhhh.
*sad face with the AWW*
hahaha!
okay,both of us cant communicate now.
i'm not goinna online to chat just to blog.
and we cant sms ):
BUT.
im happy bout today.bout how you FINALLY come up to me and really did talk to me like in the best-friend-manner.
i was tensed at the first moment for idk why?but soon i realised this is what i've longing for.
i love you.i really do, Mr Best Friend [:

Labels: ive made up my mind.forgetting him is the right decision.with Mr Best friend around i dont need them.

Cause i have a bad day.
I'm sorry Nabila sayang.
I'm sorry Khidhir for not looking after that bag of yours and now .
i cant possibly liking any guy right now ?
And,i dont trust anyone,anymore.
Not after what she did to me.
Not after your own friend betrayed you.
Goodbye Love.

Labels: and i'm so stupid to love you in the first place.

Labels: secrets

And tomorrow is Monday.
i'm left with English performing task and need to study for tomorrow's home econ test.I hate theory lesson, too many stuffs to memorise. -.-

Brother will start his poly-life tomorrow.Gosh,idk why am i the one who's excited about it.He mention that he saw Yaseen's brother.haha,i cant wait to tell Yaseen?Lol.
alright,since brother goinna start his poly-life tomorrow,he said that most of the time he will be using the laptop.I'm sure when i go home i will not see this laptop often.Brother said i should thank him as my exams are coming so he's helping me to clear the 'distractions' .
damn,exams coming and i'm so not ready for it.

He really pissed me off.
text him at 4:30pm yesterday and until now he still havent reply.
haha,dont tell me i like him?
NOOOO.
i dont.
Do i?
:DD

Labels: i think ?

Argggh.whatever,i gave up finding new skin.Maybe its because i'm too lazy and my laptop isnt in a good condition right now.damn frigging slowwwcoaaach.worst than a tortoise-.-
i'm still sick,head spinning & turning.medcine all finished except for panadols which i'm NOT going to swallow any.and yes,i'm such a coward to actually swallow big pills.(panadol is somehow big :] )

in the morning i was damn busy finishing up my homework.
what i did this morning:
2 Lit Essays.
English Informal Letter.
Malay Practice Paper.
Art homework.
&now,i hope,after i'm done with blogging,i'll start on my ENGLISH PERFORMING TASK.
oh yes,it was due on last month i think.haha,but it seems that the whole class has not yet started!
Anyway,i somehow miss Mrs G!hahaa,and obviously i miss yesterday so much.
ohh,my voice rocccck now.(nt bcoz of ystd but just now.having a silly shouting competition with lil brother:D)

Went to the hospital just now to visit my grandmother's sister.yeahh.
was frigging hungry that moment and i can faint at any point of time.head towards the foodcourt and ate one whole plate of chicken rice(again?) and chocolate sundae ice cream(again?)
Lolll.
Mum must be happy to see me finish up the whole chicken rice!hahaa.This days,its hard to see me actually eat my meals.

I dont know whats with me.
suddenly i feel like having a boyfriend back but i dont think thats a great idea since exams are coming.
furthermore,ive not yet meet the one i've been dreaming of.
and there's alot more guys out there for me to get to know with.
something really tells me that i'm gg to get attach soon but i'm goinna prove it wrong.
I HOPE.

I miss him so badly ):
get well soon love.
i miss you.
very much.
i miss you badly ):

Labels: let me hear your voice.

Congratulations GVSS :D
although,all the shoutings and swearings came out from our mouth,it seems that we're cool bout it huh?Lol.
Yeah,for sure we were sad and i'm proud of myself cause i managed to hold my tears from rolling down!
And Siglap soccer dudes,i'm so proud of you guys!congratulations to you all too. Never regret coming to VJC to support you all just now.
I superfriggingfreakingfcukingeffink lovve today!:D
all thanks to toploves guyfs&girlfs!
Shafiy,get well soon bestfriend):

It was such a tiring plus fun day!If i were to post everything i think some of you guys will actually fall asleep.So make it short and simple-Pointforms :D

• went to school for HONOUR'S DAY.
• enjoyed the concert &Hanis was bloody hot &Feeefit were cute with that outfit!
• went to have lunch/breakfast i mean, with Santez's and Khidir & Rad [:
• slackk at near Radiah's placeee.
• camwhore.camwhore.camwhore.(Pics not with me yet ):
• went to meet Yousuf&Shafiy. Omgee,shafiy was so weak,i cant even look at him afraid i might just burst into tears again!
• reached school,bus was late.YES!
• reached VJC[:
• supporter's bus came.
• Freda and Qeem were there too.
• match started.
• gossips with EHEM*haha!
• DEMI ROCK LIKE HARDCORE ONE. lol.
• GVSS WON ,congrats!
• PHOTO TAKING SESSION?!hahaha.
• SHIDDIQ!OMGEEE-.-" MR BULLY!!!
• hop in to bus
• melt because of that particular eye contact,LOL.
• reached school.
• bid goodbye to everyone.
• went home with Tina and Miraaaa ("v")

Okaayyye. I guess thats it ?haha.

Demi,you roccccck okayye!

:DDD

&i love today.

&i love the whole soccer team plus the supporters?haha.

aahhh,you guys rock :D

Siglap Majulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah![:

Labels: Get well soon love.

Finally Mr BestFriend did turn up today but another bestfriend of mine was absent -.-"
SHAFIYYYYYYYYYYYY):
i hope he'll get well like ULTRASUPERFRIGGINGFCUKING SOON!
tomorrow will be the BIGGGGG match :\
Good luck soccer dudes.
SIGLAP MAJULAAAAAAAAAAAAAH :]]

School was normal as per usual?Yeah,obviously more and more troublemakers creating trouble.
all the same people.I agree with Mrs ___. No one can replace Koko and NONE of us should act like HIM. Its so true. Now,most of them are trying to act cool or brave or whatnots!Its super irritating and annoying seeing them with that kind of attitude problem. If they are brave enough to fight in front of teacher,tell me how can i CONTROL them?
Stress.Very.
I'm trying my best to help the teachers out but it seems that nothing will work.
troublemakers dont seem to bother listening to the teachers,and there's no way they are going to listen to ME.
Ughhhh.Idk why must they do all this?to show that they're brave enough?to admit that they will be the next "koko" ???
Whatever.Seriously.

I have to re-do my art assignment.haha,Mr__ said it was fine actually but i thought of re-doing it cause its so three year old kind of art work,like what Hannah mention . Lol xD
oh yeah,since Shafiy was absent,she sat beside me the whole daayyyyyyy[:
Poor thang,Hannah have to stayback?Hhahhaa.
and Hannah,that tikuuus isnt unfair or unjust.{quoted from MINNIE from ZEEP?}
okay crap.
And yeah,Hannah,dont forget Lit homework. You never brought home you textbook right?
hahaa:D

Uh huhhh.Nothing interesting in today's post actually.
and to Vanessa,if you're reading my blog again,please taggggg hor.
Looool.
Poor Rahimah being teased by Haziq and gang.
haha,Haziq is getting more and more irritating day by day.
Like just now,he's being such an idiot by saying
"Mrs __ is ariving in ten seconds time(pause)Approximately."
LOL.
okay,Vanessa know about this right?
HAHAH:DD

Lucky,i stil have them to make me smile in class.
but i sure do miss Koko.
):
Syaaf says : "Haziq ily"
Haziq says: "Fcuk you"
HAHAA.
GUYS ARE GUYS.
alright,goodbye kids.
I'M SO NERVOUS FOR TOMORROW.
I SWEAAAAAR :X

Best of luck Siglap soccer dudes!
xove,
Syaaaaaaaaaaaaaaff :D

Labels: I cant stand the sight of him. Pffft.

How's my new song?From the Veronica's (:

And,today,again,my head is turning.Worse i guess?this time maybe more than threehundredandsixtydegrees.Alright,i dont wish to elaborate about this any further like i did in the previous post[:

School was okay just now. I personally love recess time and Hounour's Day rehearsal!I dont know why Mahirah said that she cant act like her ownself when she's with the boys all?I'm sorry to mention your name here but i dont think i want to talkback about you any further.I'm not angry or whatnots,but i hope you understand that the reason why i went recess with them just now just because i feel like to.And furthermore,we're all a group of friends right?So i guess why not just talk and be yourself-IT wont kills you know.&after all,when we go recess together,you're often quiet just like today morning.But whatever it is,i'll like to apologise if i make you feel uncomfortable sitting with them just now.And i hope you can just tell me what you're unhappy with since i'm more open minded now and i dont take any offence by what you say(:
Alright.Enough.

Lessons were as per norm.Learnt a new topic for Maths. Can see that classmates weren't really looking forward for the lesson now.And what's with Bernard?APK -.-"
Each day,more and more problems with classmates.
All showing attitude,true colours,and rebell alot.Ouch.
i'm not showing any good examples and i dont know if i'm soon going to be *one of them*
ugh.whatever :x

Sick.Didnt went for softball match today.Anyways,congrats for making improvements every match[:
work hard and i'm sure by national,we'll rock their ass [:
HONOUR'S DAY REHEARSAL WAS FUN.
haha,especially with Ahmad Khidir beside -.-
hahaa.he rock like one hardcore kiddo!
Cant wait for Friday!Big match uhhhhhhhh.
final:Greenview vs Siglap {again!}
ghaaaaaar.
i'm so nervous. VERY. haha. okay crap.
Like what Mr Bestfriend say
-"CLASH OF THE TITANS"
loooool :D

I know,today's post like a total crap?
cause i'm too sick.
too tired.
too 3getf4ug0[382y4-918243%$@!#@QE!
to
B
L
O
G
:D

Labels: Goodbye Kids.

My head is turning like @$#@%@#$!@.

almost 360 degrees but i'm not sure where's the other 0.00000000000001 degrees go to.

whatever-you get what i mean,i'm having a bad headache right now.

bus rides just now seems to be like the rollercoaster rides at Hong Kong.(no,ive nt been there-but according to sister's elaboration about it,i guess its totally the same kind of feeling i experienced just now.)

Am i exaggerating bout my condition now?

Nehh,i dont think so-cause all that really explains how i'm feeling right now.

on the way home just now,i felt like i'm floating in the air not aware of what's happening around me.

all the strangers were giving me 'that' look like i'm drunk or something.

when i'm in the Causeway Point toilet-i felt like staying there.

lying down just shut my eyes and keep my mouth shut.

the sound of girls laughing while applying thier lip gloss,the flushing sounds-all that were added to the noise pollution.

How much more must i write just for this?

NOTHING MORE SYAAFF. -.-"

School sucks for now.Almost all the teachers were having mood-swings and stuffs.I bet they're nervous too knowing that we're goinna sit for our exams soon.Like real soon.
In about 21 more days?Sharks!
Honestly,ive got no mood to blog now.
Simple reason-
I'm sick.
Dont feel like going to school tomorrow,but i'll be having my last softball match tmr.
and i dont think i have the energy to get to the game.
sighs.
Lately ive always fall sick and idk why?
i listen to my doctor's advice about taking regular meals each day-but it didnt work?
i'm still sick.
I dont wanna come tomorrow.
ouch.
I'm sick.
Alright,go to bed now kids.

-PS/eh Apit,aku tak carik pasal ngn kau,kau jgn carik pasal ngn aku la bodoh.Attention seeker btol.GI mampos laaa bodoh.Kau ingat kau banyak tinggi?setakat rambot mcm Mat Rep,suara mcm abang2 jgn pikir aku takot ngn kau atau kawan2 kau.I hate you.I really do.

Labels: I hate you, i swear.

I've discovered a new hobby today-
Bubble blowing.
Blowing bubble.
Ugh,whatever-you get what i mean (:

Finally after more than three months not contacting,met my Ayah just now at my aunt's place.
grandparents went back to Singapore but will be leaving on Tuesday-back to Kelantan.
aww,i'm so touched meeting my precious ones just now.
i miss them like effing much-only HE knows[:
All of them said that i'm getting skinnier-.-"
but i dont think so-but at the next moment after staring at the mirror,i sort of think my cheecks are no longer that chubby anymore.Hohohh.
Good i guess?so there'll be no more pinching pinching of cheeeecks!;D

Ayah also mention that i'm getting dark already.Told him that i joined softball as my CCA and he was kinda surprised?he also said that i'm already like a boy talking about soccer and stuffs?!
hahaa.Ehem,told you-i'm obviously a SHE-MALE :D
i got moreeeee to post actually but i'm so lazy to type any further.
Grandparents gave me $25 bucks?haha.
i guess,its time to to get a new watch for me to ensure Yousuf will not show off his orange watch!
Loooool xD

Can anyone buy me that bubble bottle thingy?$1 onleyhh[:
please,pleaseeeeee?

Labels: I love you all.

OMG.YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT?
AS SOON AS I PUBLISH THE PREVIOUS POST-
HE TEXT ME AGAIN SAYING
HE'S SORRY BOUT JUST NOW.
WTF KAN?HE'S SO WORLD!SAYING THAT I CAN DELETE HIS NUMBER AND STUFF.
LIKE I SAID,EVEN IF HE APOLOGISE TO ME,I WILL ACT LIKE I DONT UNDERSTAND A THING.NO WAY I'LL BE NICE TO HIM LIKE I USED TO.
ITS TOTALLY UP TO ME TO HATE HIM OR NOT.
okay readers,sorry for the caps!
:D

I dont understand him.I really don't.What's his motive behaving like this?to attract attention?to gain sympathy?to hope i'll accept him back in my life?I dont know and i dont wish to.
This is so frustating.He knows my temper pretty well and i now that we're just friends(no longer)he keeps on getting on my nerves.I regretted saying i miss him badly and blablabla,after all i'm somehow ashamed that his my ex-i'm mean?whatever.I dont give a damn bout all this shits but i admit part of this is my fault to actually be with him.Used to. -.-"
He called me just now and when i heard his voice,it was a total TURN OFF for me.I feel like just hanging up the fon and continue reading my magazines.What a stupid move i've made-i went to chat with him instead.
Ugh.All the time we wasnt talking but we're arguing over stuffs.He's too much.I sort of agree with some people saying that only his voice breaks but he's still immature for a 14 year old GUY.
I told you i've got patience but it will runs out whenever i cant tolerate with such a three year old attitude anymore.Even a three year old kiddo is so much more adorable and "clever" enough than him!Yes,i really hates him right now and i cant find any way to love him like i used to or just treating him back as my friend.I told him i wanted to hang up several times already but he keeps on irritates me TRYING TO BE SARCASTIC but fails to do so.Stupid guy!
wtffff.-.-"
I'm so pissed off with him and hung up.He text me few mins later saying :
"Oit..haha..thankz for spending ur last time talking to me k..haha..btw we nt friends anymore cause i'm nt suit to be ur friend or a best friend k..haha..so just forget me,my bday n my hp n house no.Plz delete itz for me k stranger..haha..bye.."
He mention that he's not suit to be my friend or best friend?haha.And the way he text me like as if i'm goinna waste another precious free sms of mine to reply him saying like i'm sorry or stuff.
Call me mean or bitch or whatever-i dont really care.Honestly.I know what i'm doing and i know which type of person will make me smile instead of crying.He used to me my BOYFRIEND.
Can you actually picture me with a someone like him?Ok,i think i'm being so bitch right now by actually trying to cover my mistake for accepting him at the first place.Yeah,i'm so stupid to love him or such.And i'm so stupid to actually let a guy like him love me.After all i realised,i dont need his love and vice versa.You can just get out from my dictionary and find some other girls.Obviously there's alot more bunch of plastics and geeks and superstar or whatever laa,that's way better than me.I'm mean.I'm mean.I'M TOO MEAN FOR YOU.[:
So dont you ever try to fake a smile to put up one in front of me when you see me in school cause i'm not going to actually give you this "sorry" look.I'm very stubborn-yes i am.&when it come to all this shit,i dont want to waste my time dragging and keeps on thinking if I AM THE ONE WHO'S AT THE FAULT.
i told you,i changed and this is me.If you think i'm no longer your sweeeeeeetest ex-gf,than buzz off.I dont need your love so long as i have my MR BESTFRIENDS around me.
oh and one more thing,why must you sound so JEALOUS whenever i mention his name huh?
WE'RE OVER.You dont have any right to stop me from calling or contacting anyone i want.
I'm so sick and tired of your childish attitude already.I tolerated enough of your nonsense.
You are the one who finally made the decision that we're no longer friends anymore right?
so yeah,i'm so OKAY WITH THAT.
Now i scream Syafiq and Syafiqah are total strangers.
IF YOU APOLOGISE TO ME,I'LL JUST ACT LIKE AS IF I DONT UNDERSTAND A THING-I DONT THINK OUR FRIENDSHIP WILL LASTS ANYWAY.
GOODBYE.

Labels: Dont try me.

Previous post sucks pretty much isn't it?I'm goinna delete it soon i guess.
Finally,its Friday today-this few weeks ive been struggling in class coping with both studies and the responsibilities.Idk how many times must i mention about responsibilities in my posts?Not acting great or such but i'm here to shout that i gotta admit i wasnt that responsible enough to look after my class.Every class has their own "monkeys" and i'm not actually blaming fate for putting me with the -almost-all-monkeys-in-a-zoo-class.Because i believe that these monkeys are actually the one who'll make me smile from ear to ear when i'm feeling down.They'll always know when is the really right time for jokes and they sort of know my mood pretty much.I guess they've learned that whenever i'm all quiet and almost cry they'll cut the nonsense out but still making everything look so indirectly!Its so cool seeing them still irritates me but at the same time cutting their crap and nonsense.Mind you,i'm not a crybaby-but when i cry,i felt tripillions better than ever.Even by crying,i manage to concentrate during lessons time.Last two days,i was frigging sleepy and i can't take it anymore.Tears just ran down my cheecks and suddenly after that i felt so awake.I just realise it.Some sort of cool but a bizarre kind of thang[:

Exams coming in about three weeks time-and my class got so many more to catch up.Obviously we're of track for Maths.No more fun and laughter in Maths lesson anymore since we always get scolded.Not only during Maths but almost all the subject teachers were complaining about 2E1 and started to dislike us.We are not actually blaming them,for sure.We're aware that all this started because we're not co-operating with the teachers.Not only in terms of studies,but regarding the attitude too.Most of my classmates has started to show their rebellious part,and its very,very,very irritating and frustrating.As a class manager i can also feel how the teacher feels when they keep on arguing with us knowing that they cant win actually.But just by vomit out those harsh and sarcastic words,we really feel offended somehow.I dont wish to treat my classmates like how i treat the primary school kids last few years.It sucks and no one will ever listen to me.I'm here trying to tolerate with them.Knowing what i should or should not do.
I'm sorry if you guys think just now i made the wrong move.You guys were aware that we'r supposed to stay back for Maths File Check since Ms__ were mad at us.But all of you insisted to abscond as a class.I'm so stuck hearing you guys trying so hard to persuade me to absent myself and abscond with them.
Joel said it was the "ONE FOR ALL,ALL FOR ONE" motto.However,thanks to Rahimah for always on my side.It took me a real hard time to decide to tell Mrs __ that we're actually supposed to stay or just walk off with you guys.
I do think i've made the correct move by making you all stay back.
To me,this is when we use the term ONE FOR ALL,ALL FOR ONE. If we keep on giving shits and nonsense to the teachers,this will never ends.I rather seeing you guys mad at me or such so long as i know i did my part.
I'm not being a teacher's pet here but i'm hoping real hard you guys understand my situation.
Its hard to be the only one taking care of 30 other students.
Make sure your attire,assignments and attitude are right.Its not easy-and i can feel the pressure in our form teacher and co-form teacher.I really do.

2E1,you guys are such a bunch of intelligent students.But we're just too lazy to actually work extra hard to make our condition stable in the express stream.We're slowly slacking and deproving.No more of us actually paying attention to the lessons.I'm including myself in too.
I hope,you guys will not hate any of the teachers although they really mention words like-
LOSER,SLACKER&stuff.
Its okay to be mad at them,only with this,we're goinna work hard and prove to them we're NOT A LOSER.NO WE'RE NOT.
certainly not!
2E1,please,lets change for the better and contribute with each other making our teachers proud.
i miss Koko ):

Exams coming at the same time softball matches keeps on rolling.
Our last match will be on the 9th April-i hope so.Its sort of hard to actually divide your time equally.Training just now was not very tired but now i cant feel the Friday's night energy level.
Idk why.Maybe i need to catch some sleep to cover the previous two weeks not sleeping well and having enough rest?Lol.
Softball is not any easy game like most of you said.Yeah,for now,maybe you guys think that we're loser.But this is the reality.
like what other coaches from other schools said-
"Now you guys get bullied,next year you guys will be the one bullying!Dont get demoralised at all."
And thank you Mdm Su for always encouraging us and such.I admit that i'm being rude to some team mates during the match.When those words dashed out from my mouth i dont mean it at all.I just want you to really focus in the game.And to my toplove,Rahimah and Mahirah-i'm sorry if i'm always giving the freaking fucking ass attitude during trainings!I AM VERY AWARE.
hahaa!
I know this sucks,but come on,whenever i shout at you guys and give faces o sighs or whatever-
dont ever feel offended.
You girls know me pretty well right?I'm always the kid with the attitude problem.Sorry honeys!
I'm trying my best to stop complaining and instead work out on our weakness together.
Start pointing to my own mistakes to ensure we learn something new every practice.
Oh well,i'm stil the cheerful,crazy,hyper and loud Syaaff afterall.
when it comes to buisness,i mean buisness.
LOL!Quoted from Mrs Dian Lye?hahaha:DDD

I dont know why am i missing alot of peeps.Natural thing i guess?but i really miss Apit,yes i do.
I miss Fendi too and Marco.
hahaa.Its so weird missing them suddenly.I dont wish to know the reason and i never want to.
I dont really wanna get involve in all this stupid stuffs back when i know i'm not mature enough for it.Missing my ex boyfriend doesnt mean i want him back.
Apit,imyvm):

Am i done yet?I hope.Its almos half past ten now and i think i'm sleepy.But not sure if i'm going to doze off right after blogging.Tomorrow,if nothing come in between i'm meeting Imah to do our -SO-MANY-MATHS-ASSIGNMENT-.
heeh:D
i want chocolate!those two freaks never fails to make me jealous huh?haha!
but you both are always,always the one making me laugh each day.
Ilygsvm.
lol:DDDDDDD
&Mr Choc Stealer,obviously,you're cuter than me -.- (ehem!haha)
but too bad,i think i am more handsome than you.
LOOOOOOOL xD

Good Night peeps and enjoy your weekends.Make the best use of it.
{haa,ignore me.ignore me.ignore me.i'm crapping}
Complete your assignments all okay?Alright,i shall not hold you any longer.
Have a good rest and sleep soundly.
{wthhh -.-"}

with lots of love like axe-owh-x-o;
Syaaff[:

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Bad day.A very very bad day.First it was her periods,coping with the responsibility and stuff.
Next was literature.Then it was the match.I hate them so much and i did cried.
OUCH,IT HURTS.
It really does):
i dont tolerate with childish students like them.Like most of THEM,yes the Green____ students.
I dont give a shit about this cause i know there's stil hope for Siglap soccer team.
Cheer up guys!
TODAY IS A BAD DAY.
BAD DAY.
BAD DAY.
need i say more?
idts.
-sighs-

Oh hello,i miss blogging even though ive just posted two days ago?
Yesterday was Home Econ practical,everything went smoothly despite Bernard who never stopped getting on my nerves by asking stupid question and lazying around.Yesterday,i felt like crying while cooking-not that i'm worried for my marks,but i missed Koko.If he's still in Siglap,he'll be in my group and we promise each other so many things to do,plan and present our meals.But...

Softball match on Monday was 'ouch?. Its true that we're all not expecting anything from this competition as we're very new to it.And,we are trying our best to improve our skills and gain experience.I hope tomorrow's match,most of us will not be as blur on last Monday(:
I wouldnt want to get injured anymore but at the same time being the catcher was so tiring.
The whole leg cramped afterwards-but i'm proud of myself actually-honestly[:

Today lessons were pretty bored especially Eng and Lit -.-
however,Science was effing superb as per usual with Mr Aminur around[:
He rocks like superhardcore mennn.&he knows my secrets too?haha!
and most of us agree that for a teacher,he got the looks =X
It seems that i'm rather confuse with the topics discussed esp.the reproductive whatever you call it.
hahah.Slowly catching up with the other classmates and i swear this sucks to the core.
Maths?
thanks to Emmannuel for helping me out just now with my Maths assignment yaw.
i nearly gave up after doing Maths for straight four to five hours but he pushed me to keep on doing until i feel like puking out seeing the numbers and unknowns all -.-"
i still have yet to complete his assignment!he asked me to write down the steps to solve the Simultaneous Equations-subsitituition method.Right after this,i'm down to maths again(:

Classmates?all are still in gooood condition i suppose?haha!:D
nothing much actually bout them.
co-operating well enuff.
so yeah:D

I told you,its hard for me to throw this feelings just like that.
Let it go down the drain just because you belong to someone else.
but,i'm willing to wait for how long it takes me to.
and i'm not expecting anything in return.
just another chance-
to let me love you and let you hear that
I NEED YOU,I REALLY DO.

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