First it was the friends stuffs problems. Now dont tell me there'll be the 'third-person-prob' ?
and i know,if it's goinna happen it surely got to do with me.
Right?
I'm sorry boyf but i think this is too much for me to handle.
and for now i dont think i need my precious time to think who's in between.
i know you know.
and i'm aware of it too.
But trust me-
no matter what,I can never unlove you.
I love you;160108

Like finally i get to finish up my blogs template. Gotta agree that i am not really satisfied with this blogskin choosen cause first its pretty common and it has pink in it.
Loool :D
alright,i should not be so mean to hate pink. After all,pink was what i first wear when i'm like 3months young?phaaaarharrharr!

School was fun just now.Day by day our friendship is growing stronger &im so glad that now we're like back to the sec oneeeee [:
ohhmygee,i effing miss 1E2 luhhh! I can easily recall all the sweet moments together as a class.
raaaahs/i miss all of those monkeys mennn. -.-"

Got back all my common test papers back. &i did very badly for this term. However i did improved in every subjects but the marks ive got were not really satisfying though.
but at least,i manage to pass all the subjects.
Yes,all includes Maths too!hahahhh.
uh huh,after all-i dont really need a miracle to pass or should i really say that it was the most awesome miracle ever that had happened to me?
Lol.I take Rahimah;s words.
"you gotta believe in yourself"
&Ms___ words - TAKE PRIDE IN YOUR OWN WORK.
Basically the two subjects that i've improved on were Maths&Science.
i last passed Maths was during primary four i think.
&for Science last year EOY only.
for both subjects i scored 25 out of 50.
hahaha!i know,very whaaaaat kan??at least i did try to pass both papers.
This coming Tuesday i will be sitting for a re-test for Maths.
slightly different paper. &this time around i am so goinna at least score 30 marks to meet the target sat by Ms____.
Congratulations Rahimah,Hannah&Safinah for the 'very greaaat improvementt'
and Rahimah is safe from the re-test!whooosh :DD
I think that for all the subjects i got C6 except for Malayyy.
not think,but i am SURE (:
Time flies very fast,in no time Mid year will be arriving sooon.
i am learning not to procastinate my work and stop,stop,STOP STUDYING LAST MINUTE.
:D
thank you Ms Shereen Wong for your efforts for making me love MATHS (:
muchly appreciated yo![:

Just now F&N pretty sucks. The whole class dont dare to talk. &i dont wish to talk about it.
After school i had to attend the forum at Geog room with other class comittees from both sec one and two levels.
Mr Boyf was frigging irritating sitting beside me. -.-"
and thanks to Koko for voicing all the suggestions discussed in class.
It seems that the forum only meant for Koko and Mdm Ros.
loll :D
Ate lunch/very very late lunchh after the forum.
hang out at the ODA planning to do my malay homework but i am very tired to stayback in school.
Bid goodbye to friends & off back homeeeeeeeee.

Congratulations Siglap!YOU GUYS DID IT {with Ahmad face expression!lol }
but this mr someone didnt score!
Lolllllll xDD
and im currently waiting for him to go onlineeeeee -.-
hahahh!
Damnnnnn.
my whole body is aching due to Wed's training!Mr___make our training like @%$#%#@
but honestly i so love his training laa mennnn.
sec one's should be trained like how he did to us.
:DDD
Tomorrow there'll be training againn -.-"
andd i HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF TO DO WARM-UP BEFORE ANYTG ELSE.
grrr!

Alright kiddies,me have to go noww.
ohh!tomorrow is February 29 righttt?haha!The Leap Years :D
looool xD
tomorrow there's training.yeahhh.
tomorrow is Friday.yeaahh.
maybe i'm meeting my primary school toploves.
or maybeee i'm following brother to youthpark for his performance.
or even maybeee!i'm just gg to rot at home.
ehh cmmon tomorrow is Friday.
let the friday brain think insteaaaad :DD

Should i blog?
Idk. im like in the /no mood/have mood to blog.
pfft. I seriously need anger management. Sorry Taufik and im very very sorry APIT SAYAANG.
):

Congratulations to both SIGLAP AND CHAI CHEE!
yeyy:Dhahaha!
too bad,Shiddiq tak scoreeeeeeeee.&dier tak online NOW?!alaaaaaaar.sedih.(must!)
REEEN.SYAAFF RINDU REEEN JUGAAAAAK!!!!!!!

okay.
im in a lazy mood to blog.
i love my classmates today.
lit period funnnn. that poem thang.
Lollll xDD
okayy dah laaa. finish!

I LOVE MY MR.BESTFRIEND SHAAAFIY. after all he is still the same old shafiy i guess.
ily dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
DAN YER,SYAAFF TAU "AS A FRIEND" OF COZ!HAHAHA.
nanti habes kiter kene kejar dgn org2 yer.
&i effing lovve that song.
lets singg tomorrow.
LOL :D

GOODBYEEEE KIDS.
-SYAAAFF

Happy Birthday Rahimah sayaaaanggggg!:D
so today was Rahimah Bte Sim aka MY BESTEST KIND-EST GRREATEST GF EVER bday!
haha,you're fhorteen now&i hope our little friendship will go a longgggg wayyyy babyy!haha:D

Okay,YO!Lets start from the beginning of the dayyy.
first two period was GEOGRAPHY.(must WOW)
we're fortunate enuff that just now MrsM was in a good mood SO no naggings&stuffs.
gosh.
after Geog i sweaaar that this is like the most most most disasterous PE lesson ever!
i fugging hate,HATE him to the max!
i mean he's like one moron trying to step big fuck only.
i dont wish to talk more about this.
but seriously i prefer MrB ten times more although he is unreasonable at times.
Pffftt-
After PE,Imah and me quickly change because we're fugging hungryyyyy.Hehh :D
ate cream pasta plus cheesee sausage which costs me twoo bucks altogether.(insignificant info)
Next was Maths lesson.Sat with our groups all.
and i realised something during maths lesson just now.
Shafiy has a so called kinda niceee voice oi.
haha,just realised.I fell in love with the song he sang just now but too bad i forget whats the title.
Gee xD
S C I E N CE !
ohmygayye! i FUGGING FUGGING FUGGING LOVE TODAY'S SCI PERIOD.LIKE SUMPAH.
hahahaa!
MsT claims that i am frigging HIGH just now.
thanks to MARCUS who make me laugh non-stop!
&i realised one thing too today during science period,
Aaron is NICE actually.
HOHO ^.^
like seriously i lovve today's science period to the max.

MATHS COMMON TEST.
err,its a -can-pass- paper but for me NOOOOO.
well chances fo me to pass is very slimmmm.Very very slimmmmmmmm.
it takes me a miracle to pass ehhh!
:DDD
okay whatever.
so Earthlings/i'm off to chat noww.
gooodbye anak-anak.

Labels: i love you, Mr Boyfriend

Half and hour more to ten pm.
time flies very fast.Superb faaast.Extremeeely fast.
Hoh!
just finised my english 'last-minute-homework'
i got nothing more to post.
im very sick now.
i miss my toploves very much.
&thank you Ama,thank you Shiddiq,thank you Reeen fo making me smile todayy.
i lovve lovve lovve korangs sumer.
REEEEEEN,syaaff miss you to ayye.

okay earthlings,im off to maths AGAIN.
ciao x.x

From sorethroat next running nose next fever next headache.
AWESOME right?
bleagh,tomorrow is Maths Common Test&im already sick today.
well actually its like two days ago.
Darrrrn,i so want to get an MC but i guess taking the test is a MUST.
i dont think there'll be any RE-TEST &if there is
i so dont have any guts to take it alone.More stressfull!
i dont want to swallow any pills-but few seconds ago mum just remind me!
UGH. i hate this mennnnnnnn -.-"

SO basically today im just staying at home sit down facing my tons of maths worksheets.
trying my best to concentrate but i cant.
One because of this stupid flu and i miss bf like lorryloads.
seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
yesterday night i cant sleep like wth@!$#@%@#%
tomorrow is monday.
i can meet him.
YEY.
tomorrow is monday.
there's maths common test.
NOO!

think on the brighter side.
c'mmon.
yeah right.
as if i'm going to!
BYE EARTHLINGS.

Labels: At least I have a positive attitude about my destructive habits.

yo earthlings!
sorry for not updating yesterday.Am extremeeeely tired&chatting with my three toplovves always keeps me busy from doing anything else. I so lovve them ehys ;DD

So-yesterday had softball training.We had our team captain,Batrisya,two asst.captain from sec one and sec two.Honestly,if i knew they're going to take advantage of Bat,i would rather volunteer myself becoming the captain mennnnn.Lol,but nevermind- I AM SO NOT GOING TO LET *CERTAIN* MORONS RUINS MY SOFTBALL TRAINING DAYS :D
hehh :P
yesterday training pretty sucks because i cant really throw the ball from first base to second.Seriously,i so so suckkk in it.Bahhh,nevermind-practice makes perfect!Supposingly,training ends at four thirty but because of the new equipments arrived,training ends at five plus instead.We're still not sure about the jersey BUT PINK IS CERTAINLY OUT.
Ugh-
After training,straight away to bf and friends at ODA.Waited for Luqman but end up we didnt went home with him.
Pathetic.VERY!Taufik was restless and keep on persuading both me and Apit to find Luqman.
korang hidup/mati fikir rokok jer ehy?!
Pfft!
they send me until my 168 bus-stop&all three of us start punching each other.
HAHA.boyfey dont have the guts to punch me, :D
and taufikkkkkkkk,serve you right lorh kene tumbok.
:DD

Inside 168,i am so fuggin mad and restless.First because i am sitting at the side where you are very very near to the bus-driver that kind of thing(LOL)&there's no,NO,NOOOO air-con because its like one old SBS bus.
it's so suckish because there're so manyy human being crowded and standing in front of me.
Stare at me as if i;m goinna give my seat to them.
Stupidity doesnt count as handicap.Grr!
due to training,i am very tired,hungry and sleepy.
so i dont care if they wanna look or stare or whatever to me.I just shut my eyes and pooof,to my lala-land :D
Reached expressway it started to raining,and when i woke up at Jalan Kayu its raining so damn heavily-and its seven pm i think.
Reached woodlands inter around seven forty five waited for 901 and thank you 901 for the very extremeee niceee sensation of the air-con.
HAHA :]]
stepped into home,mum asked if its raining.
haha,kind of cute when she ask questions that she know the answer to it.
Lols.&mum busy-ing herself in the kitchen prepare for my dinner.
GEE:D
brother went out of the room with this hot pink blouse-no,its not blouse but idk what isit called.
whatever the girl's wearing nowdays with the tights that want.
HAHA.see,i so suck in fashion,luckily i have one superfreaky brother who knows at least something about fashion!:D
he bought for me that "blouse" which cost $48 and a gold butterfly necklace at $18 from Forever 21.
gaaah,i swear this is the first time i get something almost $50 bucks thang from brother.
aww,im touched.
HAHA.OKAY CRAPS.
thank you brother:DDappreciate it lots!
after bathing,went to eat dinner with both brother and mom.
den off to laptop and chatted with .
SHIDDDIQ,my cadbury chocolate stealer!HAHA.
Adie,Shiddiq and Reeen always make me smile everyday.
lovve lovve ya'all!<3>
went offline at around ten smtg after shiddiq went offline.
den called boyfey chit-chat here until my eyes cannot take it already!
i went into my room den hp vibrates.
adie text.hahaa.sms with him until twelve smtg den i never replied his last msg.
Hehh :P

T O D A Y .
not goin anywhere.
M A T H S common test is like damn friggin S O ON!
die.die.die?
idk.
oh btw- i did very badly for my Science common test.
like superfreaking badly.
scored 25.5 out of 50.
i know i suck.
Okay till here.

Goodbye EARTHLINGS:D

Labels: You are a waste of flesh.

Today's lessons sucks to the max.Total of seven periods with Mrs/Gh!I hate Thursdays,alot!
Early in the morning,the whole class get scolded and stuff.&the best thing is that all three of us,Wen Siew,Me&Koko have to take the blame-which pretty sucks.
But its so true,we're responsible for the wrong/doings.
And,this year i really can feel the burden being a asst.manager.Ughhhhhhhh-
nevermind,lets just drop this issue &i so hope there wont be any more complains received. -.-"
and today Mrs Gh scold me alot of times because she caught me sleeping in class.Not paying attention to what she's saying.Gheezee.this is just the introduction i guess.
but blame her for the boring lessonssssssssssssssssssss. :D

We had last minute Geog test just now.And another classmate of mine went out of control.
pfft.Oh gaysh,dont tell me,tmr Mrs Gh goinna scold the three of us again?!
noooooo pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee?=\

AFTER SCHOOL IS SUPERDUPERGOOBER FANTABULOUS.
hahaa.
i love today comma after school.
haha.
adie came to siglap agaaaain and i know smtg!haha.okay lol.
cant wait for next tuesday laa seh :DDD
and farsha,thnks for the treat.
i love farsha.
i love reeen.
i love imah.
i love irah.
okayy gooodbye.
eh waaaaait.
shiddiq scored one today.
HAHAH.
okayy bye {:

Labels: HANNAH/mekah or what?LOL.

I know i ever mention that i will NO LONGER,NEVER post anything about friendship stuffs anymore but i guess there's still something left.

TO HANNAH.
Obviously your blog was referring to me and i am so aware of it.Why dont you just put my name then?bleahs.So now this section here is so specially for you.
First and foremost,don't hate Mahirah and Rahimah just because they choosed to be with me. I know you hated me but dont drag them in for God sake.
Secondly,you get the whole fact about us leaving Tina alone.THAT IS SO BULLSHIT.
she was with Amira and Feeefit all the time and sometimes when she saw us she just walk away,i may not be the only one noticing this you may ask Rahimah.And we've admit we backstab her JUST LIKE HOW SHE BACKSTAB US. We dont like to mention things that occurs in the past because this whole shitstuff begins this year,so whatever Tina did to us last year were just history.
Thirdly,so what if i'm a nerd?i am sure thats something that YOU SHOULDNT BE JEALOUS OF.LIKE DUHHH kan?You are such a popular girl in school and ive got nothing more to add in.
Fourthly,YOU BREAK WITH AIDIL BECAUSE OF ME HUH?!
i am glad that you admit you did jump to conclusion-thats the LEAST that you can admit la kan.
but hey,if you really really think i FLIRTED WITH AIDIL,YOU ARE SO STUPID.seriously.
i dont know what Aidil said or explained to you but why would i flirt with him when my boyfriend is just BESIDE ME?and fyi,I warned Aidil to stand far away from me and I EVEN WALK AND STAND BESIDE APIT just because i spare a thought for your feelings but you never appreciate it and never even think about it.Nevermind.
I dont know why on earth must i be the reason you broke up with him,because i know and i swear I NEVER FLIRTED WITH HIM.
You even said to Apit to tell me to stop flirting with SHAFIY AND KOKO?!
haha,excuse me Hannah,dont you think like you are much much closer with SHAFIY THIS YEAR?!and to me,you ARE flirting with SHAFIY-duhh its so obvious.
and you are very aware that you're a bitchy girl.Because now you are very close with Shafiy i got no chance to share my probs to him anymore.I dont mind him getting close with you because that is so totally his right.But please,i never flirted with my bestfriend or should i say ex-bestfriend?
Fifthly-when you are mad do you go around smiling and laughing at people?I was fucking mad at you because you never even ask me ANY SINGLE THING and straight away assumed i flirted with AIDIL?!shitt-stuff.Of course at that very point of time i was damn angry and thats why i cant control my anger and talked to fifit like that.
After Mahirah and Rahimah calm me down,just then i manage to talk to you nicely.But you take it like as if what i;m saying was just a joke.
Next,i know that my friends hate me but i dont go around making people HATE THEM,bodoh.
and since you said that Rwoker GF'S CANT GO ANY FURTHER.
WE'LL END IT HERE.

QISTINA//
here's for you.
So you think we are ignoring you huh?please la girl,you was with fifit and amira all the time and when imah was walking towards you,you dont even look at her and walk away with fit and mira.
you know how the three of us feel about you now?
YOU ARE USING US.USING EVERY SINGLE FREN OF URS.
when you're with your class,you only go with fit and mira and ignore imah.
during MT den you talk to her BECAUSE YOU GOT NO ONE TO TALK TO.i doubt.
and during CCA den you start to hang around with us.
RIGHT??:P
you even mention to us end of year 2007 you are not goinn to let any of our secrets to your new classmates but you did.
and you trust them more than us.
i thought you are innocent in this case but it seems that you're the main point.
i dont know how much you exaggerate things about us to them.
but we certainly dont mind.
and yes,i owe you an apology for all my backstabbing you time.
but i guess you deserved to be with that whole lot of ppl den joining NERDS like us.

FIFIT//
lets be honest now.
yes i do hate you right at the year 2007.during that time when you wanted to join the brackets family i dont actually like it but for the sake of others i dont mind.
and i get along well with you.
it seems that you only know pointing other people's mistakes but do you actually aware that what youve said or do might hurt others?
dont talk about the stuff where people change and stuff.
thats so sickening la kan.i'm too lazy to type all it out.
so feeefit,may you last long with your boyfriend.

AMIRA//
gosh.i thought you were like the one that i can trust the very most.the one who will always listen to my probs.
but just now morning i was so badly hurt when i wanted to walk out of the classroom you were with diana and when i walk you were shifting behind avoiding me.
from there i sense that you are just like them. easily get influence.
and amira,i dont understand why must you avoid me when i dont hate you even a single bit.
that suprise me the most.
maybe you hated me alot but its just that you dont wanna tell me.
its okay amira,i understand.
last long with Fred.

AMA//
another heartbreaking story.
why AMA?!WHY?!
just now when i saw you,you were like totally ignoring me just like them.
gosh.it hurts liek damn fugging alot.
you were really innocent but suddenly you are no longer the ama i used to know.
i mean,its like you saw me but when i smile you looked away facing the others.
ama,hanis has the feeling that youre ignoring her too.
dont drag her in just because she's close to me.
anyway ama,thank you so much.

MAHIRAH,RAHIMAH,HANIS.
maybe you girls also hated me before.but i dont care now.
i only have you girls right now and thank you for giving me another chance.
because i know ppl need second chance to learn from their mistakes.
thank you hunns.
i love you all.

HANNAH,QISTINA,AMIRA,FEEEFIT,AMA.thank you so much for all the laughters and stuff.
much appreciated.

and now i shout that i may be hating you girls but i dont wish to do that.
because i believe that i'm not perfect. i make mistakes.
thank you girls.

RWOKER GFS NO LONGER EXIST.
gooodbye.

Labels: going our own ways.

1. im ready to fail english common test.
2. i wrote out ouf point.
3. no suggestions.
4. wrong format.
5. less than 200 words i doubt.
6. im ready to fail english common test.
7. im such a coward.
8. i wanna run but there's no way to escape.
9. i cry alot.and i feel so much better after crying.
10. I LOVE REEEN.LIKE TO THE MAX OF MAXIMUM.
11. im such a coward.

Labels: Dont jump to conclusions gfs.

here is something i forget to blog about in the previous two posts.
yesterday night i called boyf. We talked about stuffs and suddenly idk what brings us to talk about freedom or such.
He said that my girlfriends thinks that i'm controlling him and they even pitied Apit for not having any freedom at all.
is it girlfriendS or girlfriend.?
from what i know its just one girlfriend who told that to him but idk how many more girlfriends thinks the same way too.
So you guys think im controlling Apit?
bullshit.Seriously!that is such a bullshit men.
Maybe you guys dont know how to diffrenciate CARE/CONCERN and CONTROLLING PP'S LIFE.
My boyfriend wants me to care for him.He dont mind me asking where is he,what time will he be back.Cause he understand why am i asking him all that stuffs.
but hey,the most sad thing is that why cant YOU just go straight to me and voice out-telling me that you think i'm controlling MY boyfriend's life?
Lol.
and you know that he knows that i'm not controlling his life at all.
i dont care who he wants to be with at any moment.
but what i care the most is that i dont want him to be home late wasting him time at voidecks like a rubbish trash.
Get it?
so,anytime if YOU think i'm controlling MY. boyfriend's life come to me and say it right through my face ok?
i dont mind.

Goodbye Freaks.

Labels: You're ugly-please go away.

The date is still February 16?.
it really bugs me alot when things like this is in a mess.
The previous post should be 17 instead of 16.
ive tried so many times changing it but still-the results remain unchanged.
-.-"

Just ended my History revision,copied down few notes so i'll probably be reading it otw to school tomorrow.I wanna go school late nowdays but i cant.
Mummy keeps on telling me that my skintone has changed.
very very dark already!baaah!
its true though.And little pimples has bravely come out from its shells.Lool!xD
i need to get my facial cleanser asap and my face lotion.
oh yes,i really take good care of my face.
but too bad,pimples is part of maturity!hahaha;D

Been eating chocolates lately.
i mean just yesterday,i treat myself with cadbury chocolates and Mars bars plus ice blended.
&now,beside me are some chocolate wrappers mum received during the CNY.
ahah.although its not the original taste of chocolate-i just tuck it in.
baaah!i'm frigging frigging bored.
called Aqilah but no one pick up the phone. Still sleeping i bet.
when you're totally in the mood to go out,no one is free.
haha,my boyf?ive been giving him sooo many excuses.
oh well.i think its still early.
(:

Tomorrow is Monday.
i cant wait for school since rotting at home is such a waste of time doing nothing.
ive got no mood to read my library book.
no mood to chat and thats why my status is away.
got no mood to text anyone or call anyone.
i replied none of my messages except just now morning when Anna text ask for hmwk.
boyf keep on texting but what a pity i just leave him alone.
seriously,no kidding i'm so lazy to reply ppl's sms.
so,anything urgent just give me a call alright.
and please make it sound urgent or else you'll hear me swearings and stuffs.
oh gosh,my voice now is in the mood to sing any rock song.
baaaah.all this due to eating too many chocs. ;D

Gheeze.
can any of my toploves go online puhhlease?
im fcuking bored right now.
but hell no,im soooooo not in the mood to chat with my contacts who's not close to me.
i think i better go get some sleep.
rather than typing words that i dont wish to like the word
fuck or hell or whatever.
ohh i just did.

Labels: Excuse me, I think you are mistaking me for someone who gives a da*n

oh hello kids.
yes,ive changed my blogskin again.This time around i simply go with simplicity.Simple enuff?
Supposingly today is my busy day-unfortunately all my plans messed up and i'm very fcuked up.
Maybe,for this year,staying at home during weekends is my kind of thang?-.-"
i seriously craving for caramel frap.{fyi.
i guess today is another boring day rotting at home with my usual life's routine.
rhaaars!

Common tests rolling in sooon.Like very soon.
Tomorrow will be English CT&History class test.Still have few more to cover for Hist.
English?tenses.tenses.tenses.
oh yes.
i'm still not sure if my Science test is on Wednesday or Thursday or Monday?lol.
okay,i left my stupid school diary inside the locker.
how intelligent is that?
ve-ry.

Toploves not online now.
so i guess after blogging,i'll sign out &back to my History.
Chapter three seems to have alot to remember.
i think i prefer the SEA rather than the SINGAPORE HISTORY.
okay,as if you cares.
and oh.
i really think-i want Mr Bob back as my Hist teacher.
put it this way.
would you rather listen to his naggings ALONE or failed your history and hear naggings from your mom,dad,aunties,friends?

Goodbye Kids.

Labels: Find a job you love and you'll never work a day in your life

A month now. &im hoping that we;re goinna lasts for many many more months!
and Happy One Monthsary to both Shafiy&Nabila plus Herni&Khai :DD
hoping that you guys will lasts fhore many many more monthssss also!
Gee (:

Fugg.fugg.fugg luhs kan.
million apologies to Kakak Q & Shashaa!
i cant make it today cause of the stupid stomache pain.
Sorry sayangku's i hope i'll get to meet you girls like damn fcuking sooooon!
):

Basically today i did nothing except chatting,and tv-ing.
and i reaaally enjoyed watching some videos at youtube.
EHEM!to Tina,if you're reading this ^^ dont think negatively.
HAHA.
i enjoyed watching videos/baby laughing.
and i cant stop myself from laffink even though the babies are not telling me any jokes.
Gee (:
arent babies just wayy too adorable ?
oh yes!

NOW.
i'm still chatting with Shiddiq and Mahirah.
ahaha,my all time companion !
loool.
and oh,im touched by this someone who seems to really appreciate me.
i guess ive just found another guyfriend who really does appreciate my help.
thanks yaw ;D

Alright kids.
i'm done for now.
&&HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADIE HOTSTUFF.
loooool xD
GoodNight Kids.

Labels: 160108♥

Alright i swear just now was absolutely fun with my gfs :DDDD
first&foremost,big big thanks to Rahimah fhore making the effort to make fhore all the Rwoker Gf's flowers :DD
i superlovve that beautiful blue flower syg!thank you so muchhhh.
&not forgetting,Mahirah too!thank you darling for that cute lil cookies!Gee :DD

Recess in school just now superfuggin rwoarks like die die one!
Hahhahh.All of the Rwoker Gf's put our flowers inside our pocket and walk proudly?
LOL!
and everyone were looking at us-like we're clown like that?haha!
and some even asked who made those(:
&oh!we were like the 'kendarats?'
Looooool![:

and,thank you Mr Boyfriend for that necklace!
twoo more days and we're one month old.
hahahaa.
and i hopw we're goinna lasts for many many more months!
Insya Allah!


I love my Rwoker Gf's to the max(:
&I Love You Boyfriend[:

Labels: Happy Valentine's Day ("V")

I know i'm at the fault. But it seems that everything is still new for me boy.
i still think that i have the freedom to be with them.
But maybe i'm wrong. I know that you're just hiding your real feelings.
I'm sorry if ive hurt you more than once sayang.I'm sorry.
This few days i may not really talk to you that much and i know you're aware of it.
I may not reply all your messages and i hope you'll understand.

Him.
i know that you're ultimately jealous of him.I know that somehow the way i treat him like my own brother may be a little bit over-limit.
I know.I'm sorry.
maybe i still wanting to know more about him because from my view he needs affection.
and if you think i'm not the most fit person to share my love with him i'm okay with that.
yeah,he do have his own girlfriend by the way.
but still,i think this feeling is too much controlling me.
i dont want to leave you or to lose you.
maybe i just need some more time to really fix myself.
I appreciate that you really understand this situation i'm at.
but you do not convince me enough that you're really fine with it.
i know deep down inside there's somethine that you wanna say to me.
i know boy, i know.

I'm sorry if ive been keeping things from you.
I thought its for our own good but it turns out that i shall tell you everything.
to avoid misunderstandings in our rlationship.
i promise you,he will not be our third person.
i promise.

I love you Dearest Boyfriend.

Labels: cause no one can replace you syg.

Nothing special in school today.
oh wait.
actually there is!
I TALK TO REEEN TODAYYYYYY:DDhahaha.okay Reeen must be proud again okaye?lol.
like seriously i got nutthing to post.
and i cant wait for tomorrow to come!
I hope tomorrow goinna be the REAAAL CONFESSIONS DAY! :/

and mr T is acting very very weird today.
he called me three times but i was in the toilet.
i called him back.he wanted to tell me smtg
but he said once he top up his prepaid he'll msg me.
daarn,i'm frggin worried IDK why?!
phaaaar!
nevermind.
&yeah,today we dont talk much.another IDK why?!
today like not so geyrek.
im looking forward fhore tomorrow.

&i dont have any other way to escape from reality.

i superlove today.oh yes i do!
thank you Rahimah & Mahirah sayangs fhore accompanying me to the library today :D
i so love korang very much.
&i think about the friendship shit thing we've come over it already alright?
like i said,i will be the old me back but for now just let me follow the flow of the things that's ahead for me.
no matter what i've always love both of you.
yes,all of my Rwoker Gf's<33.

So!just now,i went out with them to Bedok Library.
borrowed some books thereeee and oh myy, i was having such a hard hard time choosing the books!
first i picked this book and when i realised its already four books,i asked one of them to eliminate them,when i'm down with three right after i've put down that eliminated book and pooof!
come again another interesting book that catch my attention.
phaaar!
how i wish to have my own library .
gosh.i will spend the whole day reading : D
after choosing four books base on the cover -.-
we then headed to LJS.
fuggshit,there's so alot of happy moments down theree :D
once things get ultra better and as per norm,i promise thath we're goinna havee more
and more happy moments cherished together gfs!
after having our -not-so-LJS-lunch(because the food taste diff&the price went uppp!)
three of us sat fhore a while and read our books.
phaaaaar!after reading certaing pages of those books,ive realised two of them were suckish.
like seriously!:DD
so we went back to the library after that and returned those books and i went to borrow otha books.
:D

\\"Di manakah bolanya?"
//"DI SINI"(imaaah pointing to tht guy's ahemahem!
HAHHA!!!
i bet only Mahirah and Rahimah understand this?LOL.
very freaking funneyh laa imahhh!
&another thang she spotted today is this one book title which makes me laffffff.
its something like
"BOYS ARE LIKE CHICKENS BUT WE WANT THE EGG"
geee.
very cooooool rite?lolll.

After all the laughters at Bedok.
both of them wanna go to causewaypoint.
hahaha.
so we all went there and went to look for things.
phaaar!
the perfume is on sale la sehh -.-
i so love it.
the smelllllll
hahaha.
ohh.
i think i get him something for valentine?
prr,idk?

Okay.
i love today.
I LOVE RAHIMAH.
I LOVE MAHIRAH.
i love today :D

Labels: thank you Gfs :DDD

Gee. I woke up at seven today(:
&i'm proud of myself?haha!
seriously,yesterday was super frigging fun chatting with REEEN(:
didnt knew that we have alot in common huh huns?
and ACIIK made my day too!
plusplus Shiddiq : D
haha.okayye -.o

err,today i'm planning to go to Bedok Library
that's the reason why i'm waking up early today :]]
ugh.
i hate all this menstrual cramps !!
and i hate to go out during period period.
lol?whatever.
i hate hate hate period :DDD
ehh.gotta gor now.

Labels: ugh.period

I swear REEN&ACIIK RASCALS rock my world.
hahaha.they are the rascals i hearts the most!
&shiddiq,i love you bestfriend.
hahaha.
today,REEEN,ACIIK&SHIDDIQ make me smileee wide wideee.
<333!

Labels: aciik, reeen, shiddiq, thank you eh.

Yesterday seems to be very suckish.
I hate yesterday alot.
just because of moodswings.paaaaaah!

Firstly as per normal i will start with Rwoker Gfs.
all of you think that ive change.
yes i admit that ive change too.Maybe i'm not really close with you girls nowdays.
and to Hannah,i dont know why must you think that i am proud to be among the Ntech students.
i am proud to have every single one of you as my friends.
i'm very very sick of explaining already.
seriously sick.
it seems that nothing can change the situation and everything is repeating like in a cycle huh?
so now i shout,you girls can say whatever you want about me.
you girls can hate me as much as you want
but only God knows how much i deeply treasure and love all of you.
and fhore shure Rwoker Gfs wont extinct.God Willing.
so i hope this will be the last very last time i'm dealing with this.
from today onwards i wont really care what perceptions you might have about me.
oh hannah,i scold vulgarities now not because i'm starting to learn to be mean but i guess i felt alot better vomitting those words out rather than keeping it inside and burning.
so yeah.

TODAY.
just rotting at home.Planned to go out but this stupiddd menstrual cramps appear.
fcuking pain and i'm still shouting like a lunatic.
gheezeee.
I want/need to go to library.
i'm out of books to read already!-.-
stupid stupid cramps/aku benci!haha:D
Helped REEN with her background thang!
&seriously REEN IS NICE.
sorry huns for judging you way too early!
iloveyou laaa sweeets: D
and i miss SADD alot. Aqilah is busy working .
hais,wthhh kaaaaan.its been almost two months we've not met!
i miss you laaaaaaaaaaa gf!
HERNI SYAZWANI HOTSTUFF;syaaff miss kamu jugak sayang!haha{:

alright.i dont think i have any interesting news to post about.
well i;m off to chat with SYAFIQAH;MY SUPERCOOL TWIN.haaha:D
and i loveee her blog title!
SYAFIQAH IS THE SEX.hahahah.

Labels: honestly, you sucks.like seriously(:

Feeefit,no worries,i love my Rwoker Gf;s too.
but hey-i dont wish to deal with all this shits.
you dont like come to me and say.
i'll face it.
but i hate reading each and everyone's post just to find out what happenned between all of us.
paaaah~!
so yeah.
I may be rude now,coz i had enough patience tested.
ive got patience but it will soon runs out too.
say hello to the new me i guess?

Labels: this is why i never trust anyone.

haha.i hate all you you.yeah all of you,like seriously.
you guys can eat shit with vanilla ice cream on top of it.
can imagine?
if not,just look at the mirrow cause that's how you look like.
shit with vanilla ice cream on it.
HAHHAAH.

I cant take it anymore.
At times,i want to be self centered like her,i want to b selfish.
whats the use taking care of their feelings when what they craved to do is to hate my feelings?
paaaaah.whatever la ehys.
i seriously dont care how much you guys wanna hate me.
yeaah exactly.

TO HER : YOU ARE LIKE ONE BLOODY MORON.YOU ONLY THINK YOU CAN SHOW YOUR "ATTITUDE" TO MY FRIENDS HUH?!AND YOU ARE INDEED WORSE THAN *THEM"SO WHAT IF YOU CAN GIVE ME THAT BLOODY LOOK?HAHA.I'M NOT AFRAID,NO I'M NOTTTTTTTTTTTT.yey(:
i'm proud of myself.

TO ANOTHER HER:YOU LOOK LIKE ONE FATIMAH ROCKER WITH YOUR HAIR LIKE THAT.GO AND COMB LA IDIOT.HAHA.SO WHAT IF MY HAIR IS FCUKING UGLY?I DONT CARE COZ I GO WITH ORIGINALITY NOT LIKE YOU BODOH.bodohbodohbodoh.
kau pikir kau dah start maki aku sumer aku takot ngn kau per?eh cibai laa sial.
like seriously,your words are just peanuts to me.
and if you dont want to be with that whoever you're with now,so what?
all of us must praise you for not avoiding rwokers gfs like ME huh?
so you think i'm the bitch who ditch my rwoker gfs?
haha.
whatever la assholes.i dont give a damn fucking shit about it.
blueeeeeeeeeeeeek:P

i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.
fuckers.
goodbye idiots.

Labels: how long will you both go?

I swear the concert just now sucks.
yeaaaaah,like seriously!
haha,i know i'm very bad huh?it sucks because its just more of wasting time getting nagged and some technical problems.
paaaaaah~!
what i enjoyed the most :the WUSHU and the male teachers singing!haha.
okayy bye(:

after school simply sucks to the max of maximum like to the core of the whole core.
i know i'm talking crap.
bear with it ya'all.
&seriously i got nothang to post.
paaah~!

PS:Girl,i know you;'re acting like a big fuck right now.So you think you're become a bitch right now by just embarassing me infront of our friends?oh please la dey,i'm dont give a fucking damn care about it alright?go ahead and make yourself look like one bitch.But too bad,you're just ACTING LIKE ONE WHEN YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE RIGHT WAY TO BITCH OTHERS.
ugh,bitch.yeah you;re a bitch. i mean acting like a bitch.
oh whatever bitch.
bitch!!!:DDDD
paaaaha,i know today i "bitch"alot in my blog huh?(:
but seriously,this girl is so acting like a bitch scolding me stuffs but VIA JOKING laaa.
i dont care ok?!say whatever you want cause you know being sarcastic is totallly my job fucker.
deal with it.

READERS;i'm not a bitch if you think i'm one than too bad laaa.
i dont deal with fake bitches like HER.
so grow up,comb your fucking messy hair and just then you can come to me and shout at me.
okay best?okay good.
bitch-.-

TO YOU:
i know you wanna tell me.
but you;'re just afraid.
oh wells.
too bad,you're two minutes late boy.

Labels: stop acting like a bitch when you dont even know how to do it.

I admit i'm too much.I'm sorry boyfriend,i should have known your true feelings instead.
I'm very very sorry sayaangg.You have the right to be mad at me.
Thank you for giving me another chance to proof to you that i'll change(:
&i swear i dont have any more crush/love feelings towards faaand.
i treat him just like how i treat iqmal,luqman and taufik.
and doing your part,you should talk to them so they'll know their limit.
I love you.I'm sorry.

I dont wish to talk about what happened after school.
but felt guilty seeing them argue.
baaaah.just forget bout the whole thang.
me,fendi,luqman,taufik,iqmal are FRIENDS.best of friends.
-.-

Happy 13th birthday irritating brother!
haha
finally you're thirteen.
may you'll be moreee mature okay?
jgn majok majok mok!haha:DD

Labels: boyfriend score fivee(:

Like seriously i dont really need to blog but i just feel like doing it.
&honestly i've got so manyy assignments to complete.
Geography test tomorrow& ive not been revising my work.Ugh-
Science test just now was so DISASTEROUS. I'm sure to fail it;like durhhhhhh?(:

I dont wanna be their victim anymore especially Taufik that moron!haha:DD
the cutest clown ever but very ultra cheeckyy.
and please will you keep your hands to yourself cute lil thang?!hahas!
to mr boyf,am very fuggingly sorry,but what Luqman said was true.
you should have stop them and not letting them do what they want(:
to Iqmal,apology accepted i hope you'll know your limit of fooling around alright?
thank you Mr Boyf&Luqman fhore accompany me back to Woodlands.
<3

I miss Aqilah my bestest girlfriend.
i hope you're doing fine syg.
&all the best fhore your studies kay hunns?
although we're like very far behind we do have so many things to catch up right?
Insya Allah i try to make myself free one day and we're hang out okayye?
life's getting veryy busyy huh?
=\
and obviously i miss helping you out with your room.
when will we be able to have all that fun ehys?
tskkkk):
imy.imy.imy!
and how far we may be from each other i've always love you Aqilah bestfriend(:
<33333

okay earthlings,i've gotta cut my shit right now and off to homeworkk(:
toodles!

Labels: Aqilah, i've always love you.

Rhaaaars!yesterday night was effing fun luhs!
its just like the good old times like in the year 2007(:
sister was really in a hyper mood yesterday&we end up talking shits.
haha:D
oh wells,yesterday i called him and we talked otf.
but then something came up and we were like shouting at each other and i went to give the fon to my sis to talk to his cuzzin instead.
i'm like wth kaaannn with him?!
i guess he's just too tired.
Next i called him again and i let out my feelings laa.
i said that i had enough with his shitstuffs.I mean,he should know that both of us have moodswings.
&i think i've been veryyy veryy patient with him already.
and so i nearly cried while he hold back his tears and thats so obvious!his voice was extremely difffereeenttt{:
he was speechless at last and what he mention was just sorry and thank you.
after a few minutes we're back to norm!:DD

talked otf for like two hours or moreee laaa actually.
while sister keep on irritates me bcoz she wanna use the fon!haha.
its soo fugging irritating la sister:Dhaha!
me and sister were like arguing about who's butt is hotter?!haha/!
but i truly admit that i'm fcuking FLAT:D
well it doesnt really matter fhore me(:
but it does to mr boyf.
WTHHH:D
so yeah,yesterday night was like veryy yeyyy fhore both me and sister!
especially the -handphone-note-thangy!haha:D

NOW.
i'm ending my post soon and i needa start on my geography homework.
in the afternoon going to Bukit Panjang to grandparent's placeeeee.
and tomorrow is M O N D A Y (:

Labels: so what if i'm flat?haha

Idk.
i really think he's the perfect guy for me for now at least.
in future?i'm not sure.
maybe right now we have to go through so many things in order to make this relationship real strong.
but sometimes i just feel like shouting and screaaam to the whole world how badly i want them to stop talking about us.
but hey,its their right to talk about whatever they want right?
in just one thought i feel like ending everything in just a second.
but the next minute i realised that both of us had waited for each other for such a long time
&i cant probably throw things easily.
i'm confused.
am really confused.

I gotta admit i do still have feelings for him but i'm trying my fugging best to treat him like my any other friends.
Seeing him just make me think back on how hard i tried to win his love back again after the break up.
&dumping him for another worthless guy was such a stupid move i've made in my life.
and accepting him now?
i dont know.
after some days i can feel that my life has change.
my freedom gone.
i can feel that i'm tied to a pillar.
i dont know.
i dont want to lose him.
i cant afford to,but this is just too much for me to take.
no matter what happens i hope things will get back to norm asap.
i certainly want this relationship to last.
but at the same time i'm afrad of having high hopes.
who knows it might just crashed down the drain?-

Syaaff.

No plans for today i guess &in i'll off to do my homework shortly(:
went to my aunt's house just now as my granny has just got back from Malaysia.
rhaaaars,i miss her effing lots la kannnn!
glad to see that she's still healthy but at the same time keep on worrying about both me&my brother.
Gee{:

When i saw her cried just now i was so touched that i nearly cried but i hold back my tears(:
teens nowdays always refused to listen to their parents or adults right?
well,it goes the same way for me too.
but as days pass by i realised that parents always wanted the very best for their kids.
its true that sometimes you feel like screaming back at your parents when they keep on nagging.
i guess we have to wait until we're in their shoes one day.
and then we;re goina realised how worried our parents are when we always come home late(:

Just rottening at home now and chatting with some peeeeps.
i've been longing to see my Jengs&Babes but all of us were busy with our stuffs. =\
&i definately craving for LJS at Bedok inter.
Mahirah darling has always asked me when wil we go to Bedok Library!
schedule is fugging tight with remedials and extra classes.
ugh-

Time flies superbly faaaast!its already february now and common test is soo soooon!
oh wells,not only the common test but CLASS TEST is on Monday-4th feb for science,and Tuesday for Geog.
topics still not revised yet.
plus english situational homework?
aaaaaah.
i always keep this in mind:
"Susah-susah dahulu senang-senang kemudian"(:

Alright i don;t think i can delay my homework any longer.
tooodles;
Syaaff.

Labels: study.study.study.

No matter what happens,he is still my bestest friend/classmate.
I cant resist him even though ive tried my best no to talk to him.I guess he's able to notice the 'different' way i re-acted just now.I may be over sensitive regarding this stuff but at least i hope he really knows what i meant when he mention her name instead of mine.

Reached early in the morning at Fit's block.Waited for Apit,Luqman and Taufik.bahaha!
he's still mad at me. ass.ass.pantaaaaat!:D
In school nothing much early in the morning.
Lessons as per usual.Still sleeeeepyyyy.Any suggestions on how can i make myself WIDE AWAKE?
phehhhhh!=

After school had class meeting with the Ex-co members.
after that,went to meeet apit den he wanted to go home with ayid alll.
haha,bodohh peh Iqmaaaal.
:PP
its raining in the afternoon me and my softball's rwoker gfs were soaring and yeying!
haha.
&the best damn thing is when all of us were drenced like terribly drenched.
haha.
can see our bra all
like wth onleyhh/!:DD

Met Apit and tampines library bus-stop and he's fugging stubborn.
accompanied me all the way backk to woodlands. ((:
and NOW.
i'm so giving up finding new skin.
gee!
i gotta go.

Shafiy,are we best friends still?
-Syaaff.

Labels: Happy ten month anni to Feeefit dearest and Aniq