Thursday, January 31, 2008 @ Thursday, January 31, 2008
Ohh bf.
Haha.it does look pretty weird fo me?
My blogskin i mean.I'm clueless why is the image placed at the bottom of the page instead at the above.
hahaas,but no big deal,i love this skin though.very simple.very Syaff(:
I swear just now was the most -cant-take-it-day- in class!
was terribly sleeeepyyyy!cant concentrate for a while at all.
i'm so restless move here move there.sing this song next up another song(:
oh wells.i'm so sleeepy until Mrs Goh asked if i'm okayy!
haha.and i'm lucky enuff today's ex-co meeting cancelled.
i bet Mrs Goh is tired too:DD
no homework to hand in tomorrow.
yeyyy!finally ehys Rahimah?hahhaa.i'm shure you enjoy your afternoon nap today!(:
as usual i will only concentrate during the last period.For just now case since its Geography for one hour.
i'm so wideeee awakeee!
thanks to Bernard the clown who crack jokes and make me laugh till my jaw hurts!hurhur :D
such a cuteeee humans i have in my class huh? xP
Geography test wil be on 5th Feb.baaaaaaaah!-.-"
Stayed in school until four fifteeen.
&i'm supposed to go back with him and his friends.
so i said when i got in the bus he'll hop in into the same bus as me luh kans.
but too bad,when the bus reached that bus stop he's at its too crowded inside.
anddd pooffff!he's still in at the bus-stop while i'm inside the bus.
shure enuff he was very mad at me for not getting down the bus at the first place(:
but i waited for him at the library bus stop and sent me off back to woodlands.
damn it.
its all my fault.in the bus i went to mention some BREAK UP STUFF.
and suddenly he said okay,we're friends now.
he just remain silent all the wayy till we're from tampines to jalan kayu.
i reckon he saw me cried and came to me.
hahhaa.taaau takot!and i just prooved that of course i treasure him.
blueeek :P
now at home.
doing nothing.
no one to chat with.
or maybe i should say i dont want to chat with anyone.
there's just this stupid stupid stupid negative thots running inside my heaaaaaaaaaaad!):
why am i thinking that i'm losing him as my bestfriend?
yeahhh,i may not know him that long enough huh?: D
dearest friend,i wish to go to you and let out my feelings rite now.
i can feel that we're somehow blocked by some invisible walls.
oh wells.i dont wish to label you as my BESTFRIEND alone.but the good old times began to fade days by days.
i hope you'll realised one day how much you meant to me dearest friend.
fear of losing a friend like you;
isnt pink your favourite colour?(:
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ Wednesday, January 30, 2008
bullyyyyy akuuu jer eh!
At least for today,there's only Science homework(:
Can you all imagine how over-joyed i am knowing that there's only a piece of homework for today?hehh:D
Recently i've rarely update my blog as school life is getting busier than ever!
Homework is a must-have for everyday straight in a week.
On Friday,we always received our bonus* :D
its like un-do-able?Loll.and yeah,my English simply sucks to the max.
I scored only fifteeeeen over thirtyyy for my diagnostic test.
How pathethicccc?very(:
I feel like telling this again,i fell in love with Maths this year.
How amazing?very(:
okayye,cut the crap off!
Alhamdullilah,finally,the shitstuffs among my rwoker gfs are settled.
I'm very glad that each of us begin to understand each other better.
I hope this arguement will somehow make our friendship even stronger.
Let us all together overcome anyyy obstacles in our friendship.
Rwoker Girlfriends<333(:
Another piece of happy news for me is that,
ive started talking to Faaand back.
yeah,its true i hate him fucking lot beforee.but no matter what i cant forget the happy moments he ever gave to me.
I'm glad we're friends back&i hope history wont repeat itself again.(:
Thank you Rwoker gfs and thank you Faaand for accepting my apology<333.
Just now(:
Well,early in the morning in school before Home Econ starts me and Koko sorta panic when our class file lost!
Blame me for being so irresponsible handling it to TAUFIKK!hhaha:D
poor thang,he put it into 2T1 slot instead of 2E1.
bahahahas.very cute kan?
LOL : D
Home Econ seems to be a lil bit boring because our group prepared Tau Suan.
dessert onleyhhh.
but i get the chance to taste the sweet and sour chicken.
:D
niceee.niceeee!
right after recess,daaaamn!
i knocked off immediately siaaa.
ive been SLEEPING througout Ms Tan's class and frankly speaking i dont understand anything about the chapter we discussed just now.
&serve me right,there will be a test soon involving that chapter.
applause for Syaaff(:
bleahs =
But fortunately maths lesson im wideee awaaaake.
why?
because its the last period of the dayyy.
like YEYYYY : D
hahahas.
went to the office to pay my school fees and off to canteeen.
when my other gfs went home already i'm the only girl joining the tech.boys.
FUGGGGSHITHEADDEDD.
get bullied like
@#%#@%@#W%@2!!!
seriously,i was laffink at the same time want to cryy!
hahaha.
taufik is fugging horny la siaaa.
harapkan muker jer handsome!
hahahaha:DDD
super horny siaaaa.
he was like -steaming= all along?!hahaha!
cheeeebyeeeeeee.
very!hahaa:D
bus 39.
get bullied again.
this time W O R S T .
and guys,please dont take advantage on girls.
my boyfriend;thanks ehhhhh?!!!!
{:
iloveyou.
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Monday, January 28, 2008 @ Monday, January 28, 2008
blame me.blame me.
At least there are still Brackets family who laugh and joke with me sincerely.
I dont know who should i trust right now.And when at the first place i dont trust anyone that much.
It hurts to see that you're now left out.Am i being the one avoiding you guys or its the other way round?Idk.
There's a reson for everything that happens.I've always tell myself to be strong and face all this obstacles.
Who knows what i'm facing for the rest of my life.It can be alot lot more suffering than this-for shure.
It seems that getting attached to him doesnt seems to make my life 'think free' ?
Its not that i'm not happy with him.Being with him is like what ive always longing to.Uh huh.
but what hurts the most is drifting apart from my girlfriends.Rahimah,Mahirah and Qistina.
Everything changes in just in a blink of an eye.
Yeahhh.Now,i felt like you guys are no longer treating me like in the past.
You guys became more secretive.
No more the straightforward stuffs in our friendship.All i've seen were just fake smiles and laughters.
And Rahimah,i understand that not only me who's having all this problems,i'm shure each and everyone of us is having problems at home(:
I'll never force you to tell me your personal problems but i want YOU TO KNOW THAT I'VE ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU-ANYTIME.
You said you want to give some privacy for me and him.
Crapness syg!I'm not always with him like its just both of us.
Just now,i wanted to join you guys but Tina seems not to talk to me.Yeaps.
&ohh,Hanis and Ama were there with me too.
Please,feel free to hop in with me anytime you wantt...
Just get rid of the fact that i'm attached.
It may be a major diff for you guys,but to me.Totally Not.
I admit that i have to actually get rid of all these negative thoughts.And i'm hoping that all four of us can be together closee like before.
PLEASE,PLEASE,PLEASE,GET RID OF THE FACT THAT I'M ATTACHED.
and for whatever reason you girls are always my toploves.thank you fhore everything.I love you girls so much<3
Its just a little tooooooooo lateee.
Or should i say VERY?baahhas.Okayyy,its not that i totally regret getting attached.
but it seems that everything seems to be so not okay?
everyone sort of disapproved.
damn it.i'm so sick of this shit kan?
and to Fazirah,i'm very sorry.I should control my emotions somehow.
When i laugh doesnt means i'm happy.
When i put up a frown doesnt means i'm sad.
and when i cry.
please,i'm not a Crybaby.
I'm a normal girl.
With emotions;moodswings.You dont understand still?
then,don;t bother me.
I'm such a pain.
yes i know.
BLAME ME EVERYONE;COME.COME(:
Syaaff/.
♥ syaaff.
Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ Saturday, January 26, 2008
brackets i love you.
THANK YOU BRACKETS<3333
♥ syaaff.
Oh girlfriends
Rwoker Gf's i hope you guys are reading my blog.This post is obviously dedicated to you all.
Firstly,it seems that each and every one of you agree that i've changed alot after getting attached to him.
Alright,i'll accept that fact.I admit that recently ive been mentioning his name and stuffs.
But hey,its only ONE WEEK we're together,the fondness is not yet to fade.
I NEED TIME TO MAKE THINGS AS PER NORM BACK.
i thought you guys would understand me.
but i was wrong.It seems that you guys judge me way too fast!
I dont want to bottle up anymore down here.
I need to let it go.
Firstly,FEEFIT.
Dont you realised that when you're with Aniq,most of the things you talked to us is about him?
Dont you realised that most of the time you're with Aniq?
oh maybe you think that its so not true.
but you can ask some of the toher brackets family.
AND NO,I'M NOT PUTTING THE BLAME ON YOU.
but i want you to know that i'm in that situation.
only this year,i admit,that you're more close with the brackets.
So,do you think its fair for me?
Secondly,to Rahimah,Mahirah,Qistina.
All three of you think that i put S___ first instead of you guys.
that's what you guys think.
but you can ask him yourself,every morning if i reached school first.
the first question i'll ask is :
"Where are my friends?"
You guys dont know bout it.
Rahimah thinks that after i get attached to him i no longer search for her.
I no longer stick with her all the time.
But does she know i was looking for her?
If you dont believe you can ask Hanis.I've always ask her is she sees you in school.
Qistina&Mahirah.
maybe you guys are not comfortable boys all crowded around me because im with him?
true?
but what makes the diff before we were attached?
isnt S__ your friend too?
Iqmal,Luqman and all. They;re ur frens too rite??
That day i was alone.
Feeefit came to me and ask why.
I cried but one of you said i was too emotional.
i admit that.
i'm too emotional. i got carried away easily.
because im bottling too much inside.
I thought that will be the last time i cried because of this matter but yesterday it got worsed.
Rahimah,Tina,Mahirah.
you knew about why im being moody bcoz of that particular girl.
and when softball ended i went to talk to him.
maybe you guys werent there because you wanted to give me some privacy or just want to avoid me.
after a long time talking to him NOT ME AND HIM ONLY.
AMIRA AND FRED PLUS AMALINA WERE THERE TOO.
i went to sit with you guys,but its so clear that Tina,Rahimah and Mahirah dont want me to be there.
I CAN SEE IT FROM YOUR FACES :]
you guys gave me that cold shoulder.
rahimah dont want amira's dad to sent tina home bcoz she' afraid in the bus she'll be alone.
Rahimah,i'm not as self-centered as you think i might be.
for shure,if tina went home with amira's dad i will obviously sit with you inside the bus and not with him.
but each and everyone of you were filled with negative thoughts.
right?
I think this is somehow unfair.
If,feefit can be with aniq,hannah can be with aidil and amira can spend some time with fred after school why cant I??
after you guys said i changed.
i never go recess with him.
i went to sit with my gfs.
after school yesterday i was with my gfs.
but after softball i just want to talk to him and its not just me and him alone,i;m with amira and fred too right?but like i said when i went back with you girls at the ODA,all of you show me that look.
I can see it.
May i know when is the right time for me to be with him?
and to feeefit,i want to go school with you.
but i thought we agreed we go alternate days right?
why were you thinking that i dont want to go school with you anymore?
why must you think negatively?
and why must every single one of you cant imagine when you and your boyfriends JUST STEAD?
think about it.
i admit i changed.but when i'm trying my best to be with you girls,all of you gave me that look.
"shooo.shooo."
i felt left out.
too left out.
and in bus 81,qistina,i know you were fucking mad at me.
THEN TELL ME WHEN CAN I BE WITH HIM?!!!!!!!
girlfriends,i cant afford to cry and faking my ups and downs.
but too bad none of you can imagine in my situation.
Lastly,
thank you Amira,thank you Hanis,thank you Amalina,thank you Fred.
at least you know the truth inside.
Rwoker Gf;s-im sorrry but please think about it.
its only ONE WEEK.
we're not one month yet.
dear diary,my girlfriends avoiding me and i'm trying my best to put up a smile.
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Saturday, January 19, 2008 @ Saturday, January 19, 2008
coward
Not dying yet.No worries.Still blogging but its just that sometimes i'm not in the mood,too busy or simply lazy!
School days are getting more fun than ever.
Not studies,i mean part of it is studies luhs,but the most exciting part is my GFS&BOYFS ;D
&going to recess with a big group of peeps are so much fun.laffink at those hated ones and adore the cute ones.
I know.We know you think we're MEAAAN huh?
but at the first place we were never be mean towards innocent people but to the act innocents;oh yes we do(:
Oh my.Friday rocks like bloody hell coz its Hanis sayaaang's birthday!:D
she's already fhourtyn and im effing jealous!haaahss!
to dearest Hanis,i hope you're stay being the happiest girl on earth sayang!&you're always my bracket one love[:
i love you Hanis Sayaaaang!>xoxo
Its decided that me and my friends goinna sign up for softball and its really damn fun yaw!
yeyyy:DD
but damn i hate those girls who cant stand the HEAT LIKE FUGGING LITTLE ONLY?!
AND TREATING THEMSELVES LIKE THE QUEEN IN SIGLAP?!
ROLLING EYES?hahaa.
lucky Tina knows how to roll her eyes real gooooood huh? -and i did mention your name!:D
see i'm nice actually!{=
im lazy to blog like seriously but i have smtg to post about to HIM:
- DONT BE SUCH A GAYBOY IF YOURE NOT A REAAAAL GAYBOY.UNDERSTAND?!
- DONT THINK THAT YOU'RE PROTECTED ENUFF WITH HIM AROUND.
- DONT THINK THAT I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU.
- THROW YOUR GUY EGO BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.
- AND FINALLY:
- THEY HATED YOU EVEN BEFORE I WANT THEM TO.
- AND
- sharing lollipop with him doesnt make you hot enough to be a gayboy. moron!
With love;
xove.
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 @ Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Oh sec ones =\
First and foremost;my answer to my previous post is NO.
No,i dont love him any more than a love towards a friend.
And yes,i want him back as my very special friend and nothing more than that:D
BUT.
The major problem is just that he still not talking to me.&so i guess things just remain this way?
IDK =\
Yesterday was super busy completing my ART WORK with the help of my younger bro.
Thank you yaw!
and the most heartbreaking news is : THE ARTWORK WAS NOT COLLECTED JUST NOW.
AND MR KHIR IS NO LONGER TEACHING US ART?
wtf kans?!
i'm so super mad la ehhy!i really love Mr Khir teaching us Art :
stupiddd!
My day now seems to be a bit brighter than those dull dull days.
All thanks to my toploves Girlfriends and Guyfriends and of coz Apit<333
They've been such a hugee help in my not-over-it situation!
I love every single on of yaw guys laaa;xoxos:DD
You guys are the best luhhs ehys!
Sayaang kawrangs giler gilernyerks!
Hurhurs xD
Lessons just now were very.very.extremelyyyyyyyyyyyy boring!!
like seriously!
almost everyone were sleeping in class?
hahhas.inlcuding ME!hehhs :D
but except for th first period of the day which is
HOME ECON :DDD
and guess what?
my cooking partner is SHAFIY EHK?!
hahhaa.pathetic like that,but at least ive got someone im comfartable to work with.
&just now was greeeeaaaat luhs kans:D
chop chop here and there kecoh all over the kitchen.
keep taking the wrong ingredients.
likee paiseh like that sehh Syaaaaf.
}confident amek bawangg padahal tak perli sehh(:
so yeah.overall everything were so gooooodlooking just now.
&fhor shure my cooking is allright~!
HAHAHA.who else goinna praise your own cooking if not yourself?Hahhas!
and Ms Wendy Wong said it taste all choppchopp :DD
oky best!
He seems to be serious. I knew it but i keep on pretending i didnt hear what he was saying.
Hhahas,he called me evil lil bastarddd?
and i called him slowwww stupidddd chickeeen!
Hehh :D
ohwells,i know what he was trying to ask or say?
but im just testing how serious he is in this relationship.
and so lets see how things will run tomorrow the next day or maybe the next weeek?
hehh.
Ily boy
Oh myy,ohh myy!
sec ones please change for the better?
we sec twos dont want to act like one big fuck in the school.
coz we know how does it feels when the "senior" trying to confront the juniors.
but hey?
you guys should know who's boyfriend you guys are snatching?
Okay?
and to my gfs,no worries.dont be afraid just bcoz they have alot of back ups.
we stand up for the right.
we're not at the fault why must we be scared?
so yeah.To some of the sec ones,we hope you understand what are we up to.
Obviously we dont entertain all the calling of gang to talk.
we all have our own mouth to talk.
so deal oky?
&we;re really really not showing attitude to anyone of you.
So dont think that we're one fuckers who's trying to step big workeys?
Okayy best.smile smile always xDD
Damnshitheaded.fugg (:
Ive gtg now off to do my school workk(:
alrgts pepps.
till here!
:DD
ilyilyily;
Syaaff.
Labels: boy, youve always the one i love and craved to be with.
♥ syaaff.
Monday, January 14, 2008 @ Monday, January 14, 2008
Colour Me Confuse;
Sacrificing your own feelings for the sake of your bestfriend's feelings?
Do i have to do that?
No,i am not blaming my friends fhour making me dislike him cause i myself have seen his reall true colours.
I dont wish to hate him but there's a need to.
A need to hate him just because to protect my own feelings?
But have i ever asked myself what are my feelings towards him?
Am i wrong to love him still?
I cant afford to see people hating my bestfriend just because of him hating her.
I admit that she's always be there fhore me and its her feelings that i have to spare a thought of.
Not my.
Right?She's been the bestest friend of mine in school.I can't be self-centered to think about my own feelings only.
Becoming a better friend is in my new year resolutions list.
Eventhough she really hates him she still care fhore my feelings,she said that im not to be blame if i love him still.
She said,its not a sin to have feelings for him still and it's not necessary fhore you to go on steady with the person you love.
I agree.
I loves him but i dont have to make myself go with him back again.
I'm confuse. Friends or him or even my own happiness that im searching fhore.
I told them i dont want to lose him and thats the reason why i force myself to unlove him and avoid myself to go on relationships with the person i treasure.
I dont want to lose them after breaking up.
Take this like an example.Its been more than two weeks we've not talked.
I cant afford to cry every morning at the morning assembly.
I was laffink my lungs out with my friends but the next minute i can easly cry thinking about the old sweet memories being with him.
Having his love.Its just too hard for me to forget everything in just a blink of an eye.
I can't.I don't wish to-
But fate has it all. I have to accept the reality. The real world,the real humans that im facing with.
I just need him to talk to me.
After three times trying my very best to talk to him and keep failing repeatedly-i just hope one day,
God will open his heart to at least accept my apology.
Thats the least that im expecting from him.I don't mind if he dont want to even be my close friend or such.
Accepting my apology,thats all ive wanted him to do.
His face,his voice,the memories we shared seems not to fade away inside my mind.
He's too special towards me because i remember how hard for me to win his love back.
And how i try to love him when actually i have feelings for his bestfriend.
Alhamdullilah i managed to love him more than anyone else.He's been my everything but i;m not strong enough to face the -not-contacting-each-other- relationships.
And i admit that i fall in love easily.I regret accepthing that guy whom i thought will be much better and make me happy all the times-
I'm just unlucky in love.thats summarise everything's up.
Now im scared. Thid love feelings is growing but the hate feelings has decreased?
Koko said that im stupid to actually force myself to hate him just for the sake of my bestfriend's feelings.
Am i?
I know my bestfriends care fhour me and they wanted the best for me.
I really appreciate all that bestfriends but in time like this i cant even control the feelings around me.
Everything happened so rapidly.
I cant even backward the time to one second slower to change everything back.
I cant.
I know you guys understand that i still loves him and its obvious that im forcing myself to hate him right?
But as a friend i also want you guys to be happy.
We have to be fair,right?
I'm still confuse right now.
To push the love feelings far away from this heart or to learn to love than hating people?
Idk bestfriends.I'm so confuse.
I love him. I love him not.
I love you guys more :D
Give me some more time to think carefully what should i do next-
And thank you Hannah gf fhour helping me out in class coz i really cannot concentrate at this point of time.
Thinking about him has affected my studies.
ive tried my best to get rid of him inside my mind.
but it fails.
Close your eyes.Listen to your heart and ask : "Do you stil love Fendi,Syafiqah?"
-Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Saturday, January 12, 2008 @ Saturday, January 12, 2008
toploves monkey,iloveyous :D
Lets turn love into frienship rather than frienship into love.
Its much way safer like that ;D
cause i dont know if i'm the one who'll be going to interfere one's life.
so i bet,with everyone being your friend,that'll be greaat huh?
Finally i made up my mind to actually force myself not to involve into any relationships.
With that i;m not goinna hurt anyone &no one will get hurt(:
and i think my main focus for now is just admiring and studies.
Lets just put aside the rlationships questions.
And more,i dont want to have high hopes anymore cause i dont think they actually mean it
when they say they loves us :D
but for shure,my toploves monkeys boyfriends are love for until eternity ;DDD
Am i being too mean?or very mean towards Fendi?
or am i acting very fair towards him with him treating me like this*?
im not sure myself.
right now i know i care for my friend's feelings more than anything else..
i dont want them to see my get hurt by any other jerks equivalent to him.
and i know they care for me so do i.
But still sometimes i regret over what ive done especially -breaking off with him- .
Funny,till now i dont know why is he so mad at me and giving me all that looks???
after the break up,both of us had new steady and he lasts longer with his new gf after me
while me ending up with that guy for only a week?
pathethic.
i know. i know.
we're just one month young and i thot its goinna lasts but because of me
who cant differenciate the love feeling for a friend or a love feeling towards the guy whom i really wants to be with.
I;m stupid. I know. I know.
Bygones are bygones and i cant change back the time.
Its a lesson for me to learnt by the way.
&thats also another reason why i dont wish to go into rlationships anymore for now.
especially with guys whom i treat as my bestest friends(:
Studies come first while HOMEWORK STILL NOT DONE; :DDDD
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Friday, January 11, 2008 @ Friday, January 11, 2008
taaaaufikkkkk<3333
Week two term one has come to an endd. And by another two or three weeks maybe common test will be around the corner(:
I'm glad that finally i admitted that i fell in love with Maths by the help of Ms Wong :DD ty cher!
and i'm not goinna stop loving it right now infact im goinna try my best to improve in whichever area im weaaak at!hahaa,like macam paham like that ehys ? Loll.
Morning assembly was very suckish.very very very suckish. that fcuking two girls can go and die and includes him too.Stop staring at me like i killed someone before,stop staring at me like as if i did any crime idiots!!!
&to YOU;why are you such a coward?why must you call your so called "help" from the upper sec to protect you or to STARE AT ME ONLY?
Don't you have any pair of eyes to look at me and read my mind saying that IM GOINNA HATE YOU FCUKER.
I cant believe i ever fell in love with an egoistic guy and coward guy like YOU!!!
I had enuff from your nonsense and i dont wish to see more on the third week,if you really hates me and my friends feel freee to SEE ME OR MY FRIENDS FACE TO FACE.
i dont give a damn about YOUR HELP FROM YOUR FRIENDS cause obviously i'm not a coward little bastard like you & i never felt guilty in this case.
So one advice for me to you is to " FUCK OFF & NEVER BOTHER MY LIFE AGAIN.
i dont know till when im goinna hate you but i hope that you wil stop being such a coward!
GUYS LIKE YOU SHALL DIE {:
so the bottomline is that : I HATE YOU COWARD LITLLE BASTARD;FCUKER!
Enough with that coward story now move on to lessons.
Malay period was super uber funnn but cant concentrate at all because of the noises la deyh!
Cikgu Dian is no longer teaching us as she's taking a longgggg longggg breaaaak.Hhhahas.
I wonder if its a babyG OR babyB :DD
Cikgu Yanni is such a cheerful and lovesss to draw!hahahakz.but one difficulty is that we cant ask her questions coz she might not know the answer to out question! Hehhs ;P
Learned a so called new and more faster method in solving the algebra questions and its so fun laa :D
oh yeah!
seating arrangement has change and i;m at the very very faaaar at the back,Hannah in front of me.
I thought of changing but not now i guess :D
Recess were suckish coz i cant stop crying.
Skip this ehhys!
Teenagers now are very frickle minded,!hahaha.
around ten minutes more to go for drama,me and rahimah thought that we both dont want to join drama and chosed softball instead.
i know its kinda "UGH" but weve got no choice.
we want something sporty so i guess softball will do :"D
&i hope THERE'S NOT GOINNA BE ANY LAST MINUTE CHANGES!bahahhas:DDD
so we didnt went for the drama thangy and went to sit at the study corner.
look here look there.
RAAAAAAHS.
i spot with my pair of eyes that cute litlle small guy sitting alone waiting for his fren!
hahaha,and amazing luh that guy,he made ME,ANNA,IMAH,TINA,IRAH,IFFAH go gugugaga over him.
GILER KANS?
hahah,and ohhhhhh. he waved at us when he's in the bus already!
damn thats so fugging cute.
cant wait for monday to come to meet him again in schooooool :DDD
<333
Dearest Apit stil sick i guesss.
TSK ):
i hope he's coming on MONDAY,like pretyy pleaseeeeeee?!!
apit come.apit come.apit please come! =\
Ohhh assignments~!
fugggshitheaded.there's soooo many homework to complete la deh!
and tomorrow im goinna go to the bank early in the morning.
like fugg la seh :(
aku malaas nk bangun early early in the pagi!!!
:\
Oh homework.
Oh Apit!
Oh cute lil guyy :DD
and and ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
tentententen :D
<333
Syaaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ Thursday, January 10, 2008
i love my monkeys alots :DS
Damn,im still feeling the -yesterday's-fieldtrip-atmosphere oik!-
Hahhas:D very effing fun la seriously &i always lovee my toploves classmates[[:
Am lazying around right now trying my very best to actually take out my homework but failed(:
Hehhhs:D
And damn it im so fcuking mad at theseeeee three indian guys just now,they were so fucking rude pushing people and students just to get into the bus.
As a result,i'm so called "their victim" didnt managed to ge into the bus and waited for another half an hour which is so the hellish and very very tiring!
Still,the thought of changing school has not really confident enuff to convince me that i should change schooooool xDD
School just now as per usual. Nutting really special but Geog lessons were so kecoh-rable!
&i was so damn panic and busy at the same time with the chaos and stuffs that i need to handle!
bahahas,but still its still manage-able with the help of my gf Rahimah :DD
here
buy there buy everywhere must buy!
buy there buy everywhere must buy!
pffft.
i still need to purchase the red file for english,notebook,buku kerja(s)
aannnnnd mum currently ngh tkder moneyyyyh.
bodohh laa seh -.-"
i hope my teachers understand laa ehhhk!!!
After school lagi la geyreks.
Had our last IT ENRICHMENT CLASS just now afternoon.
and hell yeah,whats better than my toploves monkeys?
hahahs!
every moment in the lab just now were very very very very LOL.
haha.
i just loveee them oik :DD
TO FENDI:IF YOURE NOT FORGIVING ME DEN FINE.HATE ME ALL YOU WANT.DONT LET MY FRIENDS INTERFERE IN OUR PROBLEMS.AND PLEASE,STOP BEING SUCH AN EGOISTIC GUY.FIRST I PITIED YOU BUT WHAT A PITY I AM NOW STARTING TO HATE YOU?OH MY.PLEASE CHANGE FENDI DEAREST;
-*Apittt,aku miss kau gilerrbabbbbbb.
Syaaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008 @ Wednesday, January 09, 2008
i love love love my toploves monkeys!
I justt supergoober effing loveee my friends ;D
so yeah,coming to school is a MUST fo me because i NEED them to make me smile everydayy!
guys and girls,both i appreciate ehhys !
Just now wa owhh the hell fun ehh ;D
especially the Fieldtrip &and OH!THE TRIP AINT FUN AT ALL ITS JUST MY TOPLOVES MONKEYS MAKE ME LAFF AND LAFF ALL DAY LONGG :DD
the trip for me is very oh so the boring cause ive been there for the third time including just now!
bahahahaha!So ive memorized some of the incidents took place during the WW2 and stuffs in the musuem :]
Had so much fun at Changi Village with my toploves monkeys guys friends :DD
&HAZIQ,YER KAU TINGGI SEKALI SEHINGGAKAN AKU HARUS MENDONGAK UNTUK BERCAKAP DENGAN KAMUU oik!
haha,bahasa baku nampak?Lolls!!
eh seriously sia,i feel like taking a hammer and make Haziq shorttt,but taller den me still!hahha:DD
but caaaaaannnnot.
and thanks for the pathetic mentos YELLOW COLOUR SWEEET EHK?!bahahas!
Shaaaaafiy!haha,the picture you showed me was fugging !~#@!$@!%#@$!@?!
hhaaas!suker ehhy kaww :DD
and Haziq,aku bukan anjing kaaamu boddddoh! -.-"
umm zyeaps,things wereeeee soo funneyh and strange plus weird?
and Imah and Hannah gfs,stop teasing me about the stapler thingy thang oik!
hahha,but me myself find it very amusing siaa!
okay takperks :DD
i have moree to post on this stuff but too funny to actually type.
when i type i keep on laffink.
vibrating!
okay crapshitsiots.shut!:D
and Ama sayang,haha,yeah i should treat him like my cheer up partner ! :D
i really really wish to post more but i cant stop laffink like seriously!!!
gtg.
pics will upload tomorroww!
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 @ Tuesday, January 08, 2008
aku love minahrep gf aku,imah,and them twoo :d
Hell yeah today was fugging fun in school oik!!
All thanks to dearest classmates and my MinahRep girlfey!
hahaha,dearest BBSS :DDD
but actually school time wasnt fun at all except Maths period.Amazing huh?Syaaff has started enjoying her Maths lessons xDD
and yeah,i broke down just now right after recess because i couldnt take it anymore.
Its true that i cant even get him outtta my head.The more i try to forget him the more i will remember all the stuffs that gotta do with him!
Maybe for now i'll just remain like in this situation.Ive tried my best but he ignore me still.
So,lets just pray this wont be for long.
After school was supergeyreks~!
IT ENRICHMENT oikk:DD
very the kekeks and fun because of my superhot MinahRep gf HANNAH&IMAH girlfey:D
bahhas!&i really really enjoyed the fifteeen minutes break
just staring at the soccer boys playing with my two gfs plus Shafiy&Irwan.
hahaa,and Irwan labelled me the irritating girl fo asking so many questions regarding soccer
and labelled Hannah the shortie!kahkah xDD
so yeah,its so fun laffink together just the five of us oik!
serious.
and the funniest part is about the Khairul thingy thang~!hahaa.
sedap sak kene. itu laaa,lain kali kene share share kan dah kene dolat!
:DD
And when the class almost ends teacher sorta off have a chatting programme and fugg eh korang.
Namer aku jugak korang mention~!
hahaha.
no other than Shafiy ,Haziq and Yaseeen ehys???
hahahas!!!
okay whatever.
NINJA ROCK LIKE THAT KANS?
:DDD
I'm happy spending time after school today.
I love those four people who make me smileeeeee and larfff.
I love love love kawrangs oik:DD
<3
Syaaff!
♥ syaaff.
Monday, January 7, 2008 @ Monday, January 07, 2008
Fendi,i'm sorry love.
Mahirah claims that its been a while since i last blog?
Loll. I don't think so luhh sayaang!hahas.But its okayye,i'm blogging right now. xD
School been great so far excluding the stuff regarding me & Fendi.
zyeaps!i still didnt get an opportunity to really make him listen to what i wanna talk.
and many of my toploves asked me if i do still have feelings for him
&sadly,i seriously cant answer that particular question.
I dont know if i love him or i pitied him because after all i was the one who dumped him
and i know i'm stupid for doing that.
Bleahs~!
Back to stucking in betweeen again,not two but thfree this time around.
Oh wells,i'm not shure if he* likes me but the way we chat everyday makes us feel that we both aware that both of us likes each other more than just close friend?
Idk?
I asked him have he ever keep his feelings towards the girl because he knows the girl likes someone else and he's reply was just.
"ehh,how come you can read my mind??!"
Loll.
There are more signs that i;m aware of but for now,i dont have any more hopes to have high hopes for.
make sense?say Yes to make my dayy!:DD
Did my Maths Algebra test just now and got the results just now.
hehh :D
i scored eight out of twenty despite counting my careless mistakes which adds up to
twelve marks oi!
so SEE??!
the problem with me is just that i'm easily panicked when come to difficult or litlle bit confusing questions.
i know that i can actually score for this test its just that i'm not careful enuff in my work.
SO!
next time i have to really make sure that i must avoid ALL CARELESS MISTAKES.
:DD
G A M E L A N just now was shaaaaaboooyaaaah FUN oik!
but too bad,i forget almost all of the instruments names!!!
damn,but im proud of myself because,so far,there's no mistake when i played it :DD
bangge oi!kahkah.
and its true laa Mr Khamis is a very strict one!
Loll.
After school accidentally bumped into Apit.
Loll,stupid bimbo keep teasing me about my lost handphone same like marco!
kahkah xDD
ate in the canteen and off to studycorner did my Science homework and off back to home.
Each day,i felt like my relationship with him is getting far apart.
how i wish i can repeat the WHOLE CCA DAY excluding the FENDI PART.
and fendi,ive regret fugging alot.
how much do you wanna see me suffer love?
<3
Syaaff.
♥ syaaff.
Saturday, January 5, 2008 @ Saturday, January 05, 2008
Fendi,i'm sorry.
Not updating means no one reads.No one reads tagboard also not updated.
School has been not realy great honestly.
and i lost my handphone again on the third day of school =
lately,ive been having this stupid stomachache every morning,every afternoon &worsed at night.
Classmates are doing good i supposed?but not much communications yet.Soon i guess.
School are getting tougher even when studies has not yet begin,i have algebra test on monday!
okay done with class stuffs.
Yesterday was horrible.Very very horrible!!!
was supposed to choose CCA and i had this lil conflict with my friends regarding the CCA.
owells,if you both wanna join Drama go ahead,i wont be mad at all fo shure.
but i think for now,im going fo InfoCom.
after one problem,came another one :
F E N D i.
i'm really sorry.ive realised now that everything is my FAULT. EVERYTHING!
im just so plain stupid to dump you just bcoz of a guy whom i know i cant lasts with.
i'm sorry fendi.
i tried everything to make things up with you back but nothing works!
i tried to talk to you yesterday but you walked away.
what am i goina no next?
i regret. but what a pity i cant change the time back.
i wish~!
Fendi,please forgive me.
i dont care if you're goinna hate me forever but at least let me know you forgive me and i wont bother your life anymore.
PLEASE FENDI.
thanks to Imah,Kakak Ila,Brackets,Kak Zura,Herni,Iqmal&APIT for helping me out yesterday.
Ilysm!
:DD
Syaa ff.
♥ syaaff.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ Tuesday, January 01, 2008
♥ syaaff.
SwimmSwimm
Oh yes.Less than 24 hours i'll be in school looking at the newbies coming,seeing my beloved friends,getting to know who are my teachers(:
I'm patiently waiting for tomorrow to come:D
Just now was superduper fun luhs!went swimming with siblings,mum and granny @woodlands.
but still,i don't know yet how to swim!
&sister keep on bully-ing me in the water:DDhaha.
and oh,she kept saying this to me -
"asal FLAT eh?!haha.flat eh! "
if you guys know what it means xDD
damn it eh kakak,nevermind,one day mine will be bigger oi!hahaa.
but NOOOOOO.
i hate having tits oi!
:PPP
damn tired and hungry after swimming so all of us headed to causeway and ate Pizza Hut((:
marvellous la oik!
well after that head back home and edit some pics.
SOME?
haha. i'm too lazy to edit pics lately.
too lazy to go online to chat.
if i were to go online,i'll only chat with my toplovess;D
ehh.tomorrow school laa oik!
:DDD
say hello to the blue blouse and green skirt!
♥ syaaff.